She Has Fire

Chapter 14

Negan's POV

We sat in silence. My throat felt raw, tight, from trying to keep my emotions together as I told her about Lucille. She sat quietly as I told her about the awful things I'd done. Now, there was a look on her face that I couldn't quite read. It was like she wasn't even looking at me, but through me.
"Mary?" I couldn't stand the silence any longer. She sighed and looked away, pinching the bridge of her nose.
"Why would you tell me this?"She asked.
"I thought you had a right to know. I didn't want it to feel like I was hiding it from you." I told her.
"You could have just told me she was your wife, she died of cancer and that's it!" She said.
"I wanted you to know the whole story." I told her, frustrated that she was upset I told her.
"Am I supposed to sympathize with you? Is that what you want? I can't. I don't condone cheating!" She yelled.
"Is that what you feel is going on now, then?" I growled.
"No. I don't feel like you cheat on me, with the wives. It's a different situation. I know about them, we've talked about them. They are a part of this." She barked.
"Why the hell are you so damn mad!" I yelled.
"Because now I know how much of an asshole you truly are!" She threw her hands in the air. I sat breathing heavy, not sure what I wanted to do or say.
"I never tried to hide it, sugar. Never told you I wasn't. You can go. You can run back to Alexandria, or you can go back to your room and work for points. Or you can fuck off to god knows where. Your choice." I hissed.
"You're cruel, you know that?" She spat as she stood and walked out the door, slamming it behind her. I groaned and slammed my fists on the coffee table.
"Are you happy!?! Are you fucking thrilled now, Lucille!!" I screamed to the air. Part of me wasn't surprised by her reaction. I deserved it. I got up and went down to Simon's office and collapsed in the chair.
"I fucking told her about Lucille. She wasn't pleased to say the fucking least." I grumbled.
"She just needs to digest it. Think about it. She'll come around." Simon said not looking up from his papers.
"She stormed off to god knows where. Can you just make sure she has points on her account in case she decides to be independent?" I sighed.
"Yep. But she hopped on the run that just left so she should be good." Simon said.
"What? What are you talking about?" I looked at him confused. He finally looked up at me, worry in his eyes.
"Um, well you didn't give me instruction on her going on runs again. Carson said she was ready to go, when she asked I figured it was fine. They were headed out to some town about four hours from here." He said.
"She wasn't supposed to go on any without us! Dammit! It's my damn fault! Again!" I yelled and jumped out of the chair and headed for the trucks.
"I'll try and Radio them. Get them to stop at least." Simon pulled his walkie from his belt and started calling into it. Nothing came back.
"They must be out of range." Simon said. We grabbed a few people and hopped in a truck, speeding out of the Sanctuary.

Mary's POV

I had to get out. I had to get air. I just needed to be away from him. I thought I understood his evil. I thought I understood how far he could go, but he keeps surprising me. It was all so much. I know that what he did was awful and no where near as awful as what he's done since. It was so personal. So intimately horrible, it was hard to accept. We'd been driving for two hours when we pulled up to a blockade. We all jumped out, guns at the ready.
"Who made this? Had to be a group. No way one or two could do it." Tom said.
"Let's not stick around to find out." I said, the hair on the back of my neck standing on end.
"Let's try and clear a path. I'll use the explosives." Darren said jogging to the back of the truck. He fixed the explosives to the block and we stepped a few extra feet away before he lit it. Bits of woods and flames shot all around.
"We should be able to get the truck through." Tom said and we all climbed back in. We crawled through the opening and started driving. It felt wrong. Something was wrong, we could all feel it.
"Simon? Come in Simon." Darren spoke into his walkie. There was no response.
"Damn! We must be out of reach. We're on our own." Darren sighed.
"Maybe we should just go back." I suggested.
"The town is just up ahead. It'll be fine." Tom said. As if fate wanted to mock us, after Tom said that gunshots rang out and he swerved off the road as the tires were shot out.
"Fuck!" Tom yelled as the truck ran into a tree.
"Shit! She was right!" Darren yelled.
"Just stay calm. Maybe we can reason with them." I said trying to get my heartrate to slow. We looked around and couldn't see anyone. Suddenly my door was pulled open and I was yanked from the truck. I tried to get free from their grip, but they were stronger than me. I screamed and kicked, I was at least going to make it hard on them.
"Shut you mouth, girl!" The man growled as he gave my body a shake and forced me on my knees, tieing my hands behind my back. I watched as they brought out Tom and Darren. A man came and looked them over, shrugged and sniffed.
"To the pit, all they'll be good for. Bring her back." He said and they grabbed me and started dragging me away.
"No! No! Stop!! Tom! Darren! Where are you taking them!?! Stop this!!" I screamed.
"Shut her up!" Someone yelled. I screamed and writhed, trying to get free, trying to get to Tom and Darren, but there was a hit to my head and everything faded to black.