The Start of Something New

Chapter 4

Right now I am still kinda having a mental breakdown when Bucky came in."Hey doll," he said in a very soft voice.

"H-hey Bucky what's up" my voice was unsteady and I felt like I couldn't breathe.

"Don't pull that bull shit with me what's going on" he said. I was sitting on the edge of my bed with my elbows on my knees, he came and squatted in front of me and looked me in my eyes. I tried to speak but I stuttered and couldn't get anything out."Ok ok breath look." He held out his hands with his index and middle finger out to me. "Hold my fingers ok and you are going to squeeze when you breathe in and let go when you breathe out ok can you do that for me doll?"

"Ya"

"Ok ready breath in" we both inhaled. I squeezed. "Breath out" exhale. I let go. We repeated this four times. I was able to calm down enough to where I could speak.

"Thanks deer"

"What did you just call me"

"A deer you know like d-e-e-r cuz you know Bucky buck hehehe get it" I said looking down at him with a smile. He looked at me with a really annoyed look on his face then he just chuckled.

"Don't call me that"

"Aww what come on please" I was still holding his hands.

"No"

"Ooo what about antelope"

"No that's worse"

"Then deer it is" I let out a weak laugh.

"You're a dork" he said as he sat next to me.

"Thank you buck I really..." then he pulled me into a hug.( was not expecting that from him tbh)

"Don't thank me doll I got it" he said as he let me out of the hug. We sat there looking at each other then I started to lean in, then he leaned in, when before our lips touched we both paused.

"I don't think-" I leaned back a bit and then Peter came rushing in breaking the tension between me and Bucky.

"Wanda told me you were having a panic attack, you ok." He came on the other side of me and hugged me. I was still looking at him and he got up and left my room.

"Ya they were asking me why I was living with you and I told them about my mom and how dad stopped taking care of me and I was going to what happened with Justin but I couldn't do it. It's my fault that I got into that situation." Then Peters grabbed me by the shoulder and looked straight into my eyes looking into my soul.

"Now you listen to me. That was not your fault I NEVER want to hear you say that again. Understand me." Now I hardly ever see Peter this mad.

"It's just-"

"Just nothing, he's a piece of shit and took advantage of you. You wanted to wait, remember."

"Ya but-"

"GRACIE BUT NOTHING IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!!" Tears filled the brims of my eyes.

"Ok" I looked down and he pulled me into a hug.

"Do you want me to stay with you for a little bit."

"Can you stay till I fall asleep"

"Of course I can '' I laid down on the bed that Tony had given me. It was really nice and he laid next to me. I slowly drifted off to sleep and Peter left my room.