field of dandelions

And I see forever in your eyes

TW: Anger issues. No actual physical harm, Just talking about it.

Y/n pov:

It was the next week since me and tommy had bumped into each other that night. Lets just say I was never good with dealing with emotions and most of the time it only came out in anger but I was trying to control myself.

It wasn't the best start off to my morning which automatically put me in a bad mood. Waking up late. My hair was tied back into a loose ponytail and I was wearing no make up.

I walked into first period and put my head down being careful not to interact with anyone to maintain my anger. The whole class was looking at me since I was so late.

"ah y/n! how nice of you to join us!" the teacher said making everyone laugh at me. I just glanced at the teacher not saying a word then looking back at the floor. Standing on peoples bag carelessly as I dragged my feet towards my seat and attempted to not lash out from anger. At least I was learning self control, just like my therapist had told me to do.

However, there was one dickhead behind me who I could feel their eyes staring at me and ofc I knew who it was. Why was he looking at me?

ugh.

I rolled my eyes and ignored the tension in his stare. Not daring to look at him. Just in case.

I don't know what was wrong with me today. luckily, I knew how to control myself. for now.

I mainly spent my time with Tamsin and Polly at break and lunch, them calming me down somehow, and then going out into town with them after school. Going out after school became a new normal for me, as I was no longer getting the bus with tommy and was trying to avoid the awkwardness in me and tommy getting the same bus but just not with eachother. If that made sense.

Me and the girls had found a bench outside of town, down a quiet road and we named the bench ours. We were all sitting talking about anything and everything untill I ended up ranting to my friends about tommy

"When I saw him I was happy to talk to him and to see him, to see him happy and moved on. But for some reason it made me angry and I've been mad all day. I don't know why and it's annoying me" I slumped down on our bench.

"Just talk to him again. You guys are clearly meant for each other"

"he doesn't want to talk to me."

"did he say that?"

"well no. but-"

"no buts." and I sighed

"You need to talk to him. This is bothering you too much"

"you can either talk to him. Or move on"

I tried listening I really really did and I love my friends so much and how they were listening to me and trying to help but there was no stopping my unwanted anger. I stayed out with them for a little longer talking about other things mainly to do with school untill I finally went home.

As soon as I got home, I had a quick shower and had some food. Exhausted from my very long day of school and being bothered about him. I really shouldn't be this bothered right?

I couldn't wait to get into bed, I knew the second my head would hit the pillow it would be lights out for me. Except, it wasn't. I was wrong. I was there lying awake in the dark and I couldn't seem to stop thinking about Tommy. The more I was thinking about it the more upset I was getting. It must have been a hell of a long time I was lying there awake for because when I checked my phone it was already 1 am. Oh shit.

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It was now the next day or should I say a few hours later because of my late night. I woke up late again, making my attendance worse. I walked into my first class. Angry. Again. The first person I saw when walking in late was Tommy. But not in real life. He was on a screen. The class board. I looked around seeing a classroom filled with laughter and a very embarrassed and upset looking Tommy in the corner. I looked at the teacher looking smug. What the fuck?

"hey y/n! look it's Tommy. Tommyinnit!" kyle shouted at me making everyone laugh even louder. What a prick.

"fuck off kyle" I said walking my way past tommy and kyle, towards the board. As soon as I got there I pushed the teacher away from the laptop and reached to turn tommyinnits minecraft youtube video off.

"What the fuck is wrong with you" I said turing towards the teacher, giving 0 fucks.

"y/n! language. Outside" WHAT? I chose not to argue and stormed my way out of the class, flipping kyle off on my way out.

I didn't wait for the teacher to see me in the hall. Instead I ran. My mind had left my body and I didn't care about getting it back. I jumped over the fence and ran to mine, tamsin's and pollys bench. Our bench had became my new safe place. It reminded me of my friends, and I loved it.

Tommy- Imessages

Tommy
Are you ok?

y/n
I should be asking you that

Tommy
I am ok.
Well
kind of
I will be ok
are you?
where did you go?

y/n
so many questions damn
and
I uhm.
I er
jumped the fence

Tommy
AND WENT WHERE!?

y/n
A cute little bench next the Cinema outside of town that me Tamsin and Polly found...

Tommy
omw

y/n
what?

Tommy
I'm jumping the fence

y/n
no tommy you can't do that

Tommy
You did!!

y/n
Thats because I'm me!!

Tommy
Is that what you are gonna tell school then they ask where you went?!

y/n
hey back off! prick

Tommy
It's ok i've done it now.

y/n
oh my

Tommy
Send me your location

And soon enough he had arrived.

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