Made To Believe ✔️

Chapter Thirty Three

DIANA'S POV

"He asked what?!"Salome exclaimed after I'd told her what Kareem had asked me the previous day.

It was Sunday after church and the whole family had gone out to lunch like we always did after the service. Salome had pulled me aside when she saw me preoccupied and lost in thought. I thought I had been hiding it well but nothing could go past my best friends watchful eye.

"Shh keep it down, I don't want that hoard of testosterone filled males to hear us."I whisper yelled pointing at my dad and brothers who were laughing at a joke one of them had cracked.

"Why? This is great Dee, you should be celebrating not looking like someone rained on your parade."Salome cheered looking very excited.

At least of of us was.

"Because it's too soon, who moves in with their boyfriend after only four months together?"I asked.

Salome raised her hand but I was quick to pull it down.

"Ashton knocked you up, you guys didn't have a choice but to get married and move in together. And before you ask, no I'm not pregnant."I said quickly shutting her up before she could ask.

Salome had the audacity to look disappointed when I told her that I wasn't pregnant. I wasn't ready to be a mom or even someone's wife for that matter.

"You overthink too much. You and Kareem are ready for this."Salome assured me.

I had been trying to convince myself of the same thing but my brain just wouldn't accept it. Kareem's proposal had taken me by surprise. I hadn't even thought that we were ready for something like that yet but as always Kareem was two steps ahead of me. Thankfully he wasn't rushing me to make a decision but I could see in his eyes that he really wanted me to say yes to his proposal.

"Stop it."Salome scolded slapping my hand.

"Ouch, what was that for?"I asked rubbing the spot she had hit me.

"You're overthinking again. Why are you so against Kareem's idea of you moving in together? The real reason."Salome cleared up before I made up some lame excuse.

Damn her for knowing me so well.

"Kyle and I tried the living together thing...." I started but Salome was quick to cut me off.

"Kareem is not Kyle, hasn't he proven that to you already?"Salome inquired.

"Of course he has multiple times but experience is the best teacher and I don't want to repeat the same mistake I did with Kyle. I refuse to play a wife's role at girlfriend level."I explained.

Salome looked at me exasperated probably thinking of a way to strangle me without killing me. I was entitled to my own fears and insecurities, they kept my heart safe from making all the wrong decisions based on emotions alone.

The minute Kareem had asked me to move in with him, my first response had been to scream yes but that only lasted a few seconds before rational thoughts kicked in. I didn't want Kareem and I to move too fast. I liked the pace we were on though it seemed like Kareem was two steps ahead of me. Moving in together after only four months looked like a rushed decision. If I gave in I didn't want to regret it after a month when we both realized what a huge mistake it was to make such a step without thinking about it first.

"You need to learn how to take chances Dee."Salome scolded.

"I take chances all the time."I retorted crossing my arms over my chest.

"Sure you do."Salome replied sarcastically.

"I am not going to jump into this without thinking about it just to make you happy."I informed Salome.