TW: Self-harm, bullying
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I heard the whispers
The taunts
Oh she's fat
We shouldn't tell her about this
Leave her out of everything
You did
You left me out
Those years were meant to be good years
I was meant to have fun
I did have fun
When the other wasn't there
You used me when she wasn't there
Used me as somebody to be with
So you wouldn't look like a loner
An outcast
So you wouldn't look like me
Those other days though
I felt like I was drowning
The insults
The laughter
They dragged me further and further out to sea
I had no lifeboat
Nobody was coming to save me
I had no strength to save myself
I cried myself to sleep
I sliced red droplets into my arms
Into my body
Permanently scarring myself
But now I see
Those red droplets
They were gems
Rubies
Garnets
They all spilled from me
But they were a lesson
A lesson that taught me so much
Reminders of where I was
How far I was
And how far I've come
They will serve as my precious gems
Until the end of my time.
