I had seen my future closing in on me; an air tight schedule for the train I'd been on and would be on and I thought the future was such a heavy thing to bear I didn't want it anymore until I felt in my soul I wouldn't live for myself anymore, made that resolve, even if it meant selling everything and being all the things I'd thought were below me, and then I noticed the leaves on the trees and the stars because only when you get rid of your self importance when you stop hearing only the walls of your own ears can you truly listen but it took me so long to realize this because I grew up with the weight of a name I needed to hold, and the name got heavier with expectation over time, and each right or wrong move tarnished or polished it, and I lived with life like a line of accomplishments, like a line that built and would keep building (but it got too heavy - the weight of a name is too heavy) and here I am building no lines but to say I have felt the lightness and vastness of the stars above me is worth more than money and reputation could ever bring
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We Are Drowning, How Should We Kill Our Time?
PoetryThis collection of stream of consciousness prose was written during a very special time in my life. I left the city following a massive burnout, and lived in the country for months. I began a garden, cut most of my ties to the outside world, and wro...
