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The Journal Of Seto

(NOTE: NONE OF THIS REAL, I JUST GOT INSPIRED TO DO THIS. THIS IS NOT REAL, SETO DIDN'T WRITE THIS.)

April 4th, 2015

307 Days Since Last Upload

284 Days Since Last Tweet

God, why am I still keeping track of that? 

Probably because I can't let go. 

I went online again today. It's been months. 

I didn't say anything. I didn't let anyone know I was back.  

I have to admit, I didn't expect it. 

So many tweets. 

Please come back. We miss you. 

It took all of my willpower not to respond. 

It's not that I don't miss them too. God, I miss them so bad. 

But I can't go back. 

If I go back, sure, the people who care will be there, but there are still the ones who don't. 

Too many of the ones who don't. 

And it might be fun at first, like it used to be, but the ones who don't care will cause me to fall again.

I can't let myself fall again.

I saw that the Team had completely disbanded. 

There's nothing left to commemerate that we were a team at all, except for a few scattered videos that no one watches anymore. 

Everyone seems to have moved on. Mitch and Jerome have started their own group with Ryan, called Posh. Ssundee does his own thing, as well as Jason. Neither have recorded with any former members in ages. Deadlox and Quentin still record with each other on occasion. Sky has a fiancee and a kid on the way. 

Seems like they've all forgotten about me. 

And it won't take long for the rest of the world to forget about me. 

And why wouldn't they?

I'm just Seto, I don't matter. 

Still, I want to go back. I want to believe that it will be okay the second time. 

But I can't make myself believe, even though I want to. 

The first time screwed me up too much. 

I seriously doubt anyone will ever see this, but if they do...

If you are a person who cares, remember that I care about you too. I miss you all so much, but I can't come back. The people who don't care are there too, and they will destroy me if I give them the chance. 

Still, I love you guys. Don't ever forget that. 

<3,

SetoSorcerer