*REVAMPING*
"Some of us matured early because life showed us the worst side of the world at an early age"
Valencia Andrea Knight has had one hell of a life. Trauma is an understatement. From being kidnapped as a child to being abused both physically...
♧︎I hate remembering the good times with people who ended up being really shitty to me♧︎
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Today is the 8th June.
Exactly 1 year since everything I believed in, everything I loved came crashing down on me and left me with nothing but heartbreak. And today is the biggest reminder of that possible.
I've known Alexei ever since I was 13 and he was 14. He was the only friend I ever had. The only person I could ever talk to about my 'father's' abuse.
Obviously I realise now that man wasn't my father, but ever since he bought me I was raised to believe so. I didn't know what a father was supposed to be, I may have had this father figure, but I never had a dad.
Alexei would often sneak into the room I was kept. We would spend hours talking about anything and everything. He even taught me how to read and write as I never got the privilege. He introduced me to everything I love; things like music, movies (Dirty Dancing was always my favourite) chocolate chip cookies, he even got me on the cheer team believe it or not. Even the infity ring I still wear on my index finger to this day.
It brings me some comfort. A reminder of the good old times.
It was only on my 15th birthday when we started to sneak out. From dancing in the rain, jumping in lakes, going to his football games, we did everything. And we had a whole lot of fun doing it.
Flashback (Infinity plays)
Our laughter filled the damp air as we finally came to a stop in the middle of a wet, abandoned road.
"Shall we, my lady?" he asks as he holds his hands out towards mine signifying for me to take it.
"We shall my good Lord." I reply taking his hand as we erupt into laughter once again.
We sway to the music as he spins me round every so often as we get lost into each others eyes. I wish this moment could last forever. I love Alexei so much and believe me when I say that I can't imagine a life without his laugh, his cheeky smile, without him.
As the music slows down, he rests his forehead on mine as we continue to sway to the music with our eyes closed simply just enjoying the moment whilst we could.
End of flashback
Although my virginity was taken from me, I like to say Alexei was my first. He was my first everything.
My first hug, my first kiss, my first time, but on top of it all he was also my first heartbreak.
He lied to me. He made me feel that Ivan was my father, he convinced me that Ivan was my father and that nobody was coming for me and that nobody ever would. And then he left me there. All alone without so much as a goodbye.
On the 8th June, Ivan found out about what we had been doing. He found us in the same bed and that we had been sneaking out without his knowledge.
Ivan was furious. Furious Alexei had touched "what was his".
Flashback
"What the fuck are you doing in here boy!! How dare you touch what is mine."
As soon as Ivan stormed into the room a look of panic washed over Alexei's face as he got off from on top of me and covered my body with the covers.
"Father, I mean Ivan, please let me explain." he blurts out without any hesitation. Wait. Father?
"EXPLAIN WHAT? THAT YOU HAVE BEEN FUCKING THIS SLUT AND LEAVING THE MANSION WITHOUT MY PERMISSION?" he yelled looking angrier than he ever had before.
Tears streamed down my face at a rapid pace like they never had before because this time, I wasn't just fearling for myself, but also for Alexei.
End of flashback
Alexei and Ivan left the room after that day because Alexei didn't want to do it in front of me. But that was the last time I saw him until you know, the club.
And what broke me the most, was the Alexei left. He left Serbia and most importantly after everything we had been through, I trusted him and he left me there. With Ivan.
He fucked me and then he left.
That night was the worst night of my life. Ivan made the punishment ten times worse than it usually was.
He dragged my naked body out of the bed and beat me to a pulp. That wasn't even the worst of it. I had never felt pain like that before. All night, for what felt like an eternity he raped me. But this time, he was consumed by anger. Anger towards Alexei, towards me and now that Alexei had gone, he took it all out on me. That night still haunts me to this day and it will be something I will never be able to forget. No matter the apology, no matter Ivan being thousands of miles away, something will always remind me of that horrific night.
That night, I wanted to end it all. I nearly did.
My thoughts were soon interrupted as Giovanni and Gianni came running into my room like headless chickens.
"Valencia tell Gianni that i'm taller than him" Gianni pleads as him and Giovanni stand back to back.
"YOU AREN'T YOU'RE A FUCKING MIDGET" Giovanni screams evidently annoyed as they both look down at me waiting for an answer.
"Um i'd say you're about the same height you know I think I can hear Ale calling me" I lie as I practically run out of my room and along the corridor.
"VALENCIA, Come to my office please" Alessandro yells. Well look at that. I'm psychic.
I stroll into Ale's office before collapsing onto the seat across from him as I rest my feet on his desk.
He looks at my feet then at me with his eyebrow raised before pushing my feet off of his desk.
Rude.
"So what is it?" I ask as I pick up his phone and start taking selfies.
He just rolls his eyes before he begins. "There's a ball tomorrow, call it a family gathering. You'll be meeting the rest of our family, cousins , aunts, uncles and our closest allies. Be ready by 8pm and please, wear something appropriate." he explains in his tired state.
"Will do bro, love you." I say after kissing his head leaving him in utter shock.
I come to a pause outside his office as I recount my precious actions.
