*REVAMPING*
"Some of us matured early because life showed us the worst side of the world at an early age"
Valencia Andrea Knight has had one hell of a life. Trauma is an understatement. From being kidnapped as a child to being abused both physically...
♧︎I keep it all inside because i'd rather let the pain destroy me♧︎
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*continue playing infinity*
I just stood there. Tears falling down my face as the memories from all the good times Alexei and I spent together came rushing back through my mind.
I don't know how I feel anymore. I don't know what I feel anymore, if I even feel anything.
But one thing I know for sure. This isn't just about Alexei. It's about Zayden too.
They both make me feel- Ughhh I don't even know anymore, but they certainly both make me feel something.
As my vision began to get blurry, before I could fall, I felt someone hold me up from behind me.
"Val, why the fuck are you crying? Did he do something to you?! I can make out as Gio yelling at me with a scowl on his face, the rest of my brothers crowding round me.
I can't do this right now. I need to get out of here I think to myself as I turn in each direction looking for a way out.
But there is none. Each way I look another brother or cousin is blocking my path waiting for an answer. Even I don't know the answer.
I ran my hand through my hair as I could feel my breath becoming heavier. The last time I felt like this, the last time I felt trapped.. Was with Ivan.
"Get out of my way." I plead now knowing what I had to do.
"I ain't leaving until you tell me why the fuck you're crying." Gio yells as he takes a step closer.
"I just need some fresh air." I lie hoping he would believe it enough to let me leave but before he can even react i'm pushing him away from me fearing the worst.
"You can't keep doing this Val." Ale says in a calm tone with his hands above his head as if he were at gun point. He was trying to make me feel safe, but the more I was in here, the more my breath quickened.
"Please. I-I I feel trapped." I blurt out in my panic state but to my surprise Angelo reassures everyone that this is whats better for me and leads Giovanni away from me.
Without a second thought, I immediately run out of the ballroom trying my best not to run into anyone.
As soon as I reached outside, rain begins pouring as the cold air immediately made its impact, sending goosebumps up my arms.
I looked out towards the distance when I immediately noticed a familia, muscular figure. "It's now or never" I mutter to myself.
"ALEXEI!" I yell as I begin to run towards him whislt slightly pulling up my dress to stop me from tripping.
Remind me not to wear heels the next time I run after a guy.
Immediately, his head darts towards me a look of worry until he does the same and starts running towards me.
As soon as we reach each other, I throw myself into his warm embrace.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't give you a chance. I know what I want." I begin as my hands cup his face causing him to look down at me with a curious yet hopeful expression.
"I want you." I whisper.
*cause I love you for infity*
As soon as those three words leave my lips, the rain begins pouring down even heavier than before and a huge grin forms on his face.
Without even saying another word, I stand on my tippy toes and wrap my arms around his neck leading him to lean in. As soon as our lips touch, a sudden warmth rushes through me. A feeling i've never felt before.
We are kissing like crazy. Like our lives depend on it. His tongue slips inside my mouth, gentle but demanding, and it's nothing like I've ever experienced, and I suddenly understand why people describe kissing as melting because every square inch of my body dissolves into his. My fingers grip his hair, pulling him closer. I have never wanted anyone like this before. Ever.
We stared deep into eachothers eyes as his thumb brushed my cheek. Icouldn't help but think to myself. Yes, i've kissed Alexei a thousand times over, but there was soemething about this kiss. Maybe it was the fact that we had been waiting for this moment for over a year?
We finally found our way back to eachother. He kissed me one more time, passionately.
*song ends*
After what felt like hours, we finally pulled away but he was met with a hard punch to his jaw causing him to slightly fall back.
"WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?" Lorenzo yelled as he stood in front of me blocking my view of Alexei.
Before Alexei or I had the chance to explain, Enzo had already thrown another punch causing blood to ooze out from Alexei's nose before he punched Enzo across the face.
As the two both erupted into a fight, I couldn't do anything to stop it.
In my blury haze, I could make out Enzos constantly smashing Alexei's head into the concrete whilst he shouted, "STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY SISTER."
"PLEASE, ENZO STOP!" I yelled as I attempted to make my way over there but I was pulled back by two muscular arms around my waste stopping me from intervening.
"Val stop, you're going to get yourself hurt" Angelo shouts as he holds me back and tries to turn me to face away from the blood.
"YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT ME? WHAT ABOUT ALEXEI? Please, he's gonna, he's gonna kill him." I cry out as tears flood down my face at the sight of nothing but blood as all my brothers do nothing but watch.
My breath begins to get heavier as I stay trapped in Angelo's embrace but soon memories of Ivan's men trapping me like this come flooding back.
The blood pounded in my ears. My heart thudded in my chest. My hands shook. My feet tingled. My vision disfigured, and all I could make out was the sound Enzo's hard punches and Alexei's ear piercing screams.
I looked around. I wanted to scream for help. For someone to help me. I was scared. Scared that everything I had worked so hard to forget, was going to come rushing back and happen again. Maybe even worse.
I could barely make out anything anymore. The world was spinning and their was absolutely nothing I could do to stop it.
"Please let go of me." I whispered completely defeated but nobody heard me. Nobody was coming to save me. Again
"VALENCIA. IT'S OKAY, IT'S GOING TO BE OKAY!" I could hear Alexei yell and in some way I knew it wasn't going to be okay, I had a shit tone of explaining to do. But with Ivan, Alexei always knew how to reassure me, how to make me feel safe. He's the only person in my life who's ever been able to do that.
Except Zayden.
I'm pulled out of my thoughts when Angelo begins to pull me away from the scene.
The last time I was here. The last time someone's grip was this tight on my waste was when I tried to escape. I ran, I ran like hell but Ivan's men caught me and that night, I wanted to end it all. I couldn't handle it anymore.
All the memories from that night played over and over in my mind. Reminding me about how I didn't want to be here anymore and how I still don't.
