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22# Suicide note

This is very hard to write and it may bring tears to your eyes. Please don't read this if you are sensitive.

Niall (Age 18)

Dear Niall:

I just want you to know, that this isn't your fault at all. It's no one's fault. It's just that I didn't like myself. Thank you for always being there for me. When I was sick, you were there to take care of me. When I was sad, you always cheered me up. When I was bored, you came to me and we played video games together. My first word was your name. And when I had surgery, you helped me. I just want you to know how important you were to me. You were always there. And when you were on tour, I missed you a lot. And thank you for bringing me to one of them. You, Liam, Harry, Zayn, and Louis were always by my side. Remember all of the memories we had together and that is a way I will be with you. Niall, I loved you so much. And I will always love you. Thank you for 18 amazing years and I will always watch over you.

Love

Y/N

Harry (Age 19):

Dear Haz

Remember when we tried to go back in time, that was so funny. And we didn't go back to time. At least we tried. Remember all of the times we had together because they will be memories now. I am not going to be here soon. Thank you for helping me with homework and when I had a break-up. Thank you for always being there, when I was sick, hurt, had suicidal thoughts, and all the time. I know you always saved me from those. But this is the end. Thanks for letting me call you Haz all the time. And now your fans do too. Thank you for helping me through having depression. Even though I still did. Tell all my friends that I say goodbye. But I'm telling you right now. This was the best 19 years. I love you, and I will miss you a lot. I will be watching over you and you are never on your own. Goodbye Harry.

~~Y/N

Louis (Age 17)

Dear Lou

If you are reading this, thank you for being there for me when mom and Fizzy died. Thank you for being there when I needed you the most. But right now, I won't need you. Please, always be kind to the world. You were the most amazing brother to us. All of us. Not just me. Even though you were super annoying and sometimes always played pranks, you were still very kind. You always made sure we were safe and treated us equally. You never had a favorite sibling. You always helped us with homework and other boring stuff. And you always had a special connection with us. Like with me, we would always play video games. Always remember all of our fun moments with smiles and not with regret. I will never forget you. And I will always be in your heart. I will soon join Fizzy and mom. Goodbye Louis, I will never leave you.

XOXO-Y/N

Liam (Age 16)

Dear Liam-

I'm sorry to say this, but I am not going to be here tomorrow. Or in a few hours. Because I am unaliving myself. I'm so so sorry, but this isn't your fault. It is mine. And I'm sorry I didn't tell you about all of my thoughts. You always just assumed I wasn't sad. And a lot of the times, I was sad. Don't be sad, be happy. Always smile when you remember me. If you remember me... Anyways, goodbye Li, I will miss you and I will always be with you.

~~Y/N