Bad Influence

8.

Silk persian blue sheets were draped over the swells of her breast and over her hip as she lay on her side. Her golden hair spread beneath her, in which I ran my fingers through. Karsen looked to be a goddess.

I had taken us back to the house after I knew Karsen was sound asleep. The sun shining from the window seemed to aluminate her tanned skin. A result from being in the sun for most of yesterday. I couldn't stop the kiss I delivered to her lips.  "So soft," I muttered as  her eyelashes began to flutter.

"Ash," she moaned, opening her eyes sleepily.

"Good morning beautiful," I traced my index finger on her hip. She shivered under my touch. " I love the effect I have on your body."  I kissed her cheek, " how are you feeling?" She stretched like a cat.

"Achy," I bet. Karsen took last night like a pro. She didn't even seem that nervous.

"That's normal, " I pulled her body close.

"Ash, we had sex last night," she was regretting it. I knew this was going to happen.

"Yes. We had sex lastnight Karsen."

"I lost my virginity to you," I wiped all emotion from my face.

"You regret it now," I went rigid.

"God no, " she hugged me tighter like I was disappearing, " Ash I don't regret it. I don't think I've ever been so proud of a decision I've made." She kissed my chest. " I love you Ash."

I ran my fingers through her hair," I love you too Karsen." We laid there in each others arms for a long while. "One, two, three, four, five," I counted each of the love bites I left on her skin from the night before.

"Ash, I'm hungry," she giggled.

"Okay, lets go get food then," I slipped into house slippers as I got off the bed.

I turned back to find Karsen wincing as she tried to walk from the bed. I rushed to her side. "Baby, what's wrong," she shooed me away.

"I'm just really sore down there," she tried to stand up but immediately sat back down. I couldn't help the pride filled smirk that came across my face, " what are you smirking for ?"

"I told you when we were younger that you wouldn't be able to walk after I was done with you," she looked at me in annoyance.

"Seriously Ash."

"I'm sorry baby, I had to say it," I laughed as she pushed me away from her body. "Look I'll just carry you."

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"Waffles, fruit, and tea?" I looked at her with wondering eyes.

"Sounds good even though its past lunch time," she placed a  sweet kiss on my lips. I began to rummage through the cabinets and shelves for all that I needed. "Ash?"

"Yes, love ?" my back was turned to her.

"What happened to her mother ?" It felt like ice shot through my body.

"What?" I still didn't face her.

"I was just asking because I saw this picture in your drawer and..." She didn't finish and I didn't want to hear the rest. I left her in the kitchen but I heard her let out a slight cry as she stepped down from the bar stool. "Ash wait."

I slammed our bedroom door closed before she entered. Thoughts were rushing back as I desperately tried to find some kind of drug or alcohol to keep my mind clear of those memories. I found a bag of coke and quickly laid it out on the coffee table.