WABI - SABI

1. Ataraxia.

♡ Ataraxia ♡

A state of freedom from emotional disturbance and anxiety; tranquility.

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I stood infront of the grey two storey house in Sunnyvale, South Charleston. It was nearly sunrise and I looked around the neighborhood for a few more seconds just to be sure no one was watching and entered the house.

I didn't look around, instead I started climbing the stairs to the upstairs bedroom. I'm so tried and all I want to do is just curl into a ball and sleep.

I didn't want to use the master bedroom downstairs it only reminded me of my parents and the things they did to me. Thinking about it gives me shiver. No! I'm not going to think about them. I told myself.

I shook my head, focusing on what I was doing. I got to the hallway on the end of the stairs  I opened the door on the right side.

The room was small with a bed, a small bookshelf and a table next to the bed. There was window that had the view of the driveway along with the house on the opposite side.

I dropped my small duffle bag down, that contained all my belongings. I didn't have much and thankfully the house came with fully furnished rooms. All that I have to do is to get groceries, toiletries and other essentials.

Without even changing into my PJ's, I jumped into the bed. The bed wasn't soft but it was okay. After hours of crazy driving and months of sleepless night. I could finally sleep.

I was quite sure that my parents wouldn't be able to find me here, with that confidence I feel into a dreamless sleep.

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I sat up rubbing my eyes and listening to the sound of the birds in the woods behind the house. I was surprised that I didn't have any nightmares but was greatful for the sleep that I was able to get.

I took a bath and changed into short sleeved white top with  striped top and A lined pleated light blue skirt with with socks and chuck taylor.

I walked around the house, to see if there was anything that wasn't in the blueprint I found online. After that I stood infront of the kitchen counter eating a granola bar I had.

I have a lot of things to do and I can only hope that my father wouldn't think I would stay in one place.

Mother's punishment had become worse and Father was staying in the house for more days. I was happy because whenever dad is around punishments were less. But this time it was different.

I was always worried that father doesn't have time for me. But this time it was different. He started to notice me and kept checking up on me every time. He wanted to know what I was doing, where I was going. It was like he was paranoid that someone is going to find me.

Then whenever mother gave me punishment, unlike before he didn't stop them he gave me extra punishment saying I was stressing my mother. I know she was dealing with a bad disease but I would never burden my mother.

Then father wanted to know if there was something that i wasn't telling anyone, if I was keeping secrets. Yes, I was. But something in me told me I shouldn't tell them that. I have been keeping it a secret since I was 15. Why did he care now?

My secret is big and I know my mother would loose it if she knows. I was having abilities. It's more related to computers and technology. I can create new technologies and I can do what a computer can do with my head. It's what I said, it's like having a computer inthe place of brain. but trust me me I can feel emotions, if I can't i won't have ran away from my parents.

One day my mother couldn't handle me anymore and Father was away for his job and Marie, my sister helped my mother. I shivered as the last punishment came to my mind. I was left to die. I didn't know how but when my father found me. He helped me out and ordered me to stay in my room and that i wasn't allowed to eat.

That was the only time I felt angry, no rage for all the things they did to me. But I couldn't do anything. When I was lying in my bed trying to sleep. I decided to rack my brain. It's been a habit for me to do that.

It was how o found that there was an secret association called The Academy. Where people like me helped others. But this time I was searching for something about parents.

I wanted to know what my dad did that he was away so much time. That I had to endure the punishment for 3 full days without food. That's when I found out that my parents have single child and that i didn't exist.

I was shocked, After hours of searching I finally found that i only have my birth certificate and a security number, both of which were fake, an exact copy of Marie.

Which means if someone kidnapped me or if I go missing father wouldn't call the cops. I dont even think he would search for me. That is when I decided that i am not going to be there little secret. I can't live like this

With that little resolve, I went to work and within a week I escaped the hell. That was before I overheard their conversation about me. I didn't knew that the woman I called mother, who had given vigorous punishment like making me drink vinegar and lemon juice concussion for telling my neighbour that i haven't seen their dog.

I closed my eyes as silent tears fell down. I bought my leg to my chest, hugging it. I didn't have anyone to comfort me. I don't deserve any kindness. I can still hear my mother telling me how useless I was.

The sound of the dog barking, brought me out of my spiralling thoughts. I slowly stood up and wiped my eyes and went to the window. A boy my age was walking his dog with his friend.

I shook my head. I font have time for this. I went upstairs and took a note out as i jotted down all the things I need to buy.

I was thankful to the person who found bitcoin. I know it's wrong of me to use others money. But I justify myself by saying that it's black money and half of it is my father's to which I have the rights.

I have already created a new profile for me. Using my extra abilities I changed my name from Sang Sorenson to Athena Sky. And also I have a credit card, driver's license and other basic I would need all under the fake name.

After an hour I gathered all the things I would need. I stood infront of the main door as I went looked for a shop in my mind. I stopped my search for a nall when I saw the map of the place showing a highschool.

I frowned searched about the school for a second and saw that today was there registration day. I looked at my messenger bag I was carrying for a minute. I sighed. what could possibly go wrong.

I got into the black SUV with partially tinted windows. I started driving to the school repeating to myself that I'm Athena Sky and not Sang Sorenson and it's a highschool for god's sake, nothing could possibly go wrong, right?

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