Never Have I Ever Season 3: an alternative theory

Chapter3: Part5

Devi waits for him to appear. Her shoulders tense, and her arms ridged, she feels her heart beating faster, and it begins to pick up pace.
She cant trust herself around him... he could make her feel... like the air is tight around them... like the air was barely breathable between the two sometimes... like she couldn't think... like she couldn't feel her feet on the ground... like she had been floating...
Non of what seemed logical...
She had never meant to kiss him back...
"Devi?" She hears as he reaches the door. She could tell in his tone he were worried too.
She turns to find his bright blue eyes gazing directly but softly at her. They sparkle brilliantly against the dimmed light of the porch, his gaze gently tracing over her face.
But what suprised her was the fact he had dressed himself so well to come see her... what brand he wore she didnt know, but he had looked good... really good that it makes her heart worry more and pound even faster, because she doesn't believe she were ready to face him... she wasnt ready to face him again quite so soon... she hadnt time to even think! And it worries her she couldn't predict what he may do... and the thought lurked that she didnt known how she could respond too...
And his fragrance... why was it so damned intoxicating, his scent, it seeps and over takes her, her mind were already swimming in thoughts... thoughts that seemed to nudge for her to loose the battle she were already trying to fight inside her...
Devi knew this was not good... she worried that her ability to loose to him again tonight if he tried kissing her again?!- the thought terrifies her, she has no option but to go on defence!
His hand grips the door frame as he nears, and then leans in, angleing himself closer as he rests his chest to the casing of the wall.
His eyes wide, and intrigued at how she had been acting upon him having shown up to her house, now sparkling with interest...
He wanted to figure things out... unlock what had also been revolving on in her mind...
His heart hasn't stopped pounding heavily... he is reminded every second that she had reciprocated when he had kissed her... and it must of meant something...
She had reciprocated, so Ben knew that Devi could potentially still hold feelings for him that were still there but were well buried away... feelings he really wanted to her to acknowledge... feelings he really didnt want her to let go of....
Because maybe it were all that he could ever think of- her... and how she may still hold feeling he only knew he feels for her... has felt for her for so long... it torments him... and maybe all he wanted was to breathe her in one more time... all over again...
Devi doesn't say anything, too stunned with all that had previously happened... along with what had been happening right now. Ben had turned up.
The tension climbs as he takes a step closer, but is suddenly cut when Devi's mother finds them and she doesn't seem the slightest bit happy.
"Benjiman? Devi?" She questions, moving her attention from Kamala to Devi and Ben and where they stood. "Devi, isn't it late for Benjiman to be here?" She does not wait for a reply, cutting back in. "Benjiman, Devi has a lot of homework, please find your way back out that door."
"It wont take long, I promise Mrs. Vishkumar-"
"Oh really Benjiman? If it won't 'take that long' you can discuss what you have to on the front porch. I have other pressing matters, as you can see." She says, her eyes following them, waiting for the two to make their way out the door and onto the front porch.
Devi watches Ben, as she stiffly follows him. He scratches at the back of his neck as he finally turns to face her, eyes briefly meeting hers, as though he had been deep in thought.
But she becomes impatient, reminding herself she needs to come on defensively... she cant allow him to do what he had last time... he cant just do what he wants!...
She were scared though... at how he could 'intoxicate' her sometimes... how he could have an affect on her that she never noticed he had before... so tightly, but angerily she turns to him, suprising him.
"Why are you here?" She rasps. "Are you here to pester me again, Ben? Geez, spit it out already, you heard my mum, I have stuff to do." She cringes at her excuse, a flash of embarrassment comes over her, but forces herself to go on. "Really, what do you want?"
Catching him by suprise, he completely looses his train of thoughts.
"W-what... wait." He replies quickly, his eyes flitting over her, nervously, feeling pressed. "I was just-"
"Did you make up with Aneesa?"
His lips tighten, becoming frustrated.
"No."
"Why not?" She groans loudly. "You do realise what happened was wrong... and one very big mistake-"
"Wait wait wait... your not entirely innocent here too Devi!- you- you kissed me... too. You kissed me back-"
"You grabbed my face!-"
"Grabbed is a strong word-"
"Oh then you gently took me by the face- what, do you want me to turn this into a romance?! Either way! It doesnt matter, you kissed me! You should have never done that!"
He groans loudly, rubbing his face frustrated.
"Fine! Yes! It was a stupid mistake, Devi! Are you happy?"
She scoffs, disbelievingly.
But her features slowly morph, turning softer, but saddened, and yet pensive.
"No." She replies, crossing her arms. Her brows pinch together as her gaze drops away. "I'm not happy."
Ben's eyes raise to hers, wondering what she had meant by that. Was he reading too much into how she had replied?... His eyes assess her quickly, before he finds himself loosing his ability to stay strong... to hold back a yearning, a strong aching desire that wanted to creep up on him... to remind her that she had kissed him back... that she could feel all that again... to remind her that she didnt need to hide how she felt... because he knew she had felt something in the way she had kissed him back... and he wanted to bring all that back alight...
He takes a step closer, dips his head and catches her by the lips, slanting his face to kiss into her more deeply, kissing into her harder, feeling the pulsing of his blood surging throughout him. His beating heart drums loudly, he wonders if it would explode in his chest... if it were only him who could hear it... or if she could hear it too... he was nervous, his hands clammy, only wishing she could feel what he were feeling... but the taste of her lips against his... His heart begins to melt... it becomes hard to think... his blood pumping excessively to his ears, making his thoughts and sight slightly hazey... making him dizzy, and he stumbles a little on his feet.
Devi feels the madness going to her head, but for reasons unknown to her, and yet caught by suprise... she's not stopping him... she's not resisting... she's slowly surrendering to it... in the way he kisses her, holds her jaw, keeps her close... his scent overwelms her... and she breaths him in... only intoxicating her more... the feel of his hand that drops from her jaw and runs firmly over her left arm, and then makes its way around to her back, fills her veins with nothing more than an electricity pulsating through her... he holds her firmly, fingers digging into her waist... everything about him was making her head spin... and then his mouth picking up pace, his breath so hot against her skin ripples tingles that make her crave for more...
She deeply breathes him in... letting her lungs fill up with all the air that was his... and an ecstasy thrums through her veins, wildly, knowing how good it felt to breath him in... it feels like the only air she will ever want to breath again...
Her head spins and to keep herself steady, she grips his arm, her fingers fisting tightly to his jacket unknowing of to pull him away or pull him closer...
But the feel of his wet lips crashing and pressing against hers like the tides of the ocean, in and out against her lips, as though he had hungered for the feel of her lips against his, is enough to drive all logic out...
For a few seconds her breathing becomes tremulous, with the feel of so much at once, and for a short time the question creeps back if she should really be letting him continue...
But dear god, why does kissing Ben feel nothing remotely similar to kissing Paxton... there was just so much tension, tightness built up... that when it came all undone... it had all unwinded into some mind-blowing passion... her body erupted with it... the tinges that crawled her skin, that magnified and electrified her senses around her body were more proof than she would ever need to know- that kissing Ben had felt unbelievable...
He curves a hand further around her waist, fingers digging tightly into the small of her back as he walks her back until they reach a wall. Devi moans against his mouth, all the sensations taking a hold of her, as his mouth presses and opens to hers. His hip pressed against hers as he holds her close, closing off any space remaining between the two.
She brings a hand up to cup his jaw instinctively, she needs to feel him more intimately... needs to trace her hand over the side his face... his skin so hot, his skin could melt hers...
And its like he had stole all the breath from her lungs, when she suddenly feels the need to tilt her head up, to gasp for air, their chests heaving, as Ben's lips slip from hers, trailing to the side of her face, when Devi suddenly catches sight of someone...
Her eyes land on Mr. K, who had been on the porch watching on, horrified.
It couldn't literally have been worse timing for her English teacher to be walking out onto the porch... and it hadn't occurred to her that someone may likely walk in on them, onto the porch, until now... had her clarity been more sharper after Ben had started to kiss her.
And it takes her seconds to pry Ben away, Ben's eyes momentarily glistening at her with hurt in the way she pushes him back. His eyes wonder over her puzzled, catching on to her sudden change in expression in the process. And he licks his lips, trying to compose himself again, before he slides a hand through his hair, nervously, then finally follows her gaze. Suprised... but thankful it wasn't her mum... he quickly darts his eyes away, rubbing at his neck, increasingly feeling as his cheeks burn red. Turning himself away, he takes a couple of steps back.
"Oh, yeah, you should really talk to Paxton about 'all this'" Mr. K says gesturing to the two, letting a little laugh slip from his lips. "Devi. It'll only eat you up inside if you don't get these things off your chest. Trust me." He pouts at her teasingly.
His lips spread into an amused smile as he digs his hands into his pockets and walks away, quietly giggling to himself. He waves a hand, not looking back as he walks away and toward his car.
"See you both in class. I'll look forward to it." He snorts, as he reaches his car, opens the door and steps in.
Devi's eyes briefly meet Ben's again, and his eyes flicker over her. He opens his mouth to say something quickly, but Devi breaks in first.
"Yeah- that should not have happened-and I got to go." She says rapidly, turning and making a dash to her front door before he could say anything or even stop her.
Once she is inside, she pushes the door closed, leaning back against it for support... stopping her wobbly legs from giving in.
Her lungs tighten at the thought of what just happened... Ben was starting to dig back up memories and feelings from her she thought she could have held off... she's finding it hard to breath... she gulps furiously down on the spiralling emotions wanting to reck havoc on her... why did she have to 'Devi' everything up all the time?!- she thinks to herself furiously... and where were El and Fab when she needed them?...
What were she going to make of this?! And what about Paxton...
How was she going to bury how she had felt for Ben... once again...
And what's worse... is why had she craved... to be near him... craved to feel him... more...
She groans loudly to her own thoughts, storming up to her room, feeling as her stomach coiled deeply with confusion... she thinks she may almost feel sick...

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Hi Guys! I hope I did this one ok! I'll keep this short, but I hope you all had a really wonderful wonderful Christmas! Stay safe always y'all! Xxxx all♡