Never Have I Ever Season 3: an alternative theory

Chapter 10: Part 4

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It doesnt take long for her to change, sliding on an oversized t-shirt and black leggings, not trying to over do anything- or overthink anything... what she wears wasn't going to be one thing she were going to overthink!- what happened last night was already enough... causing her head to spin with an insurmountable headache of thoughts!
So, she was just going to go down and get this done... whatever 'this' is... but her heart bleeds with a need to see him also- with all that happened, she needs to know what Ben were here for...
She braces herself at the footing of the stairs, then slowly makes her way down, descending the stairs carefully... with her heart pounding in her chest she swears she can hear it clearly hammering in her rib cage.
She feels kind of anxious and yet... defensive?...because its not her fault her mind felt so flighty or clouded- she hadn't known what to expect- and so it kind of kicks in an adrenaline?- which she doesn't entirely like- but her heart is swarming with so much in it and it sort of prepares her to face Ben, knowing how things could get unpredictable with him at times- it's just a part of how her veins seem to fire up when she's around him...
Ben's features come into view and he turns to gaze at her, wide eyed and clutching at his hands... his face flushing a little red and his heart pulsing.
He had looked kind of... vulnerable.. and kind of nervous too... and this seems to ease her... alot...
His eyes sparkled, bright and blue, and so gentle as they flicker so softly over her.
She reaches the bottom of the stairs, and Ben ducks his head, and takes a step closer.
His eyes flit gently over her, and he gives her a small smile.
"Hey." He says.
She breaths out a smile, eyes gently tracing and watching him back.... he was melting her already...
"Hey." She replies, playing with the hem of her sleeve. She stands there briefly just watching him, hoping for him to say something, and as she nervously begins to say something Ben does too-
"Thanks for helping me get home last-"
"You left this in my car-"
They say at the exact same time, Ben pulling something from his pocket and holding it out for her, whilst Devi folds then unfolds her arms upon sight of what he had been holding out... she gazes at it, intricately, like it had fascinated or intrigued her some how...
Her necklace from last night she had worn.
He huffs a smile, wondering why she had been gazing at it for so long, surprised.
"You kind of fell asleep in my car and-"
"It's my necklace my dad gave me... the birthday before he died." She cuts in lifting her gaze to him as she gently takes it from his hand. Ben's eyes grow, taken back... she slips it over head and adjusts it over her loosely fitted t-shirt.
He slides his hands slowly back in his pocket, eyes flicker away from her and back, surprised. He hadn't known it had been so special to her.
"Oh." He says, he huffs another smile, but his tone alittle cracked with nerves and laced with surprise. "I d-didnt... I didn't know, Devi. Sorry."
"Sorry for what? You returning it?" She breathes and cracks him a grin, then smirks.
Then her eyes turn to him... a gaze, gentle that sparkle with warm laughter and mirth that he cant seem to pry his eyes away from... he wished she could look at him like that for the rest of his life- leaving his heart racing ... and he has to shake his head, a soft smile spreading over his lips.
"I'm... I'm just sorry about... you know, what you went through."
Her eyes watch him warmly, and she gives him a tender smile.
She walks around him, and into the kitchen, which Ben slowly follows, trailing along behind her.
"You know, you are lucky my mum isn't home. She would have kicked your ass for turning up at our house this early... I had actually considered doing it myself." She looks over her shoulder, and smirks.
He huffs a laugh.
"Yeah, you mentioned something similar to me last night." He says, eyes darting over her, assessing her. "You were so wasted." He mocks, eyes growing wide.
Devi laughs, then turns to face him as she reaches the kettle and turns it on.
"God, what else did I say?" She laughs, grabbing a sachet of coffee out of the pantry.
She turns to face him to ask if he prefers coffee or tea when she notices his stiffened up... and... his slightly gnawing on his lips, eyes growing pensive.
Her eyes widen, her body stiffens up too.
God, what did she say last night?! She barely remembers a thing...
Her grip tightens to the mug she had pulled out... sudden flash backs of last night streaming in and out, and she thinks she may remember some of what she had yelled flowing back to her slowly... but it were all still a muddled up mess... all fuzzy in her head...
When he notices how she thinks to herself, he slides his hands in his pockets, looking slightly tense... and he can't even hold her gaze for less then a couple of seconds before his looking away again.
"Y-you... y-you-" He stammers, chuckling nervously between words. "You may have said a lot? You don't remember, do you?"
She turns back to the kettle looking away, trying to hide her face, how her eyes grow or her face blushes red.
"Well, I was drunk... how could I?" She interjects nervously. "And I just woke up- I barely even remembered what day it is."
He watches her as she pours the hot water into her mug and reaches the fridge for milk.
"Yeah, I see that." He says, understandably, but his heart crushes and sinks, wishing she had an ounce of memory of what she had said that night... the reason that had brought him here... today. Something that she said that had driven him crazy all night with thoughts... thoughts that never ended and that had barely given him the chance to sleep...
His words trail off, but his going to try none the less... try his hardest to get the words out that he had come to say. "Last night, Devi... you kind of... well... said alot-"
He could almost hear her gulp, and her shoulders tense. She passes him the mug instinctively, instantly cutting his words off.
"Here- I don't know if you take coffee or tea- but this is coffee- and you may like coffee or not- but I made this- and you can take it-" she rambles nervously and slightly exasperatedly, almost driving the mug at him in full force, like a punch to his chest, spilling a little onto his top. Ben watches her bemused and taken back.
He wraps his hand around it, and their fingers touch, and Devi rips her hand away, feeling her body pulsating and her face redden.
"Ok, Devi." He chuckles softly, cheeks flustering.
She shrugs nervously, huffing a nervous smile, and fixing her shirt, embarrassed.
"Sorry."
Ben goes to say she didn't need to feel sorry, but the bitter granulated taste of the coffee makes him cringe instead... he wants to spit it out.
"God, David, is this actual coffee?" He whimpers, glancing down at his mug then up at her with a face. "What strength is this?"
She glances back at the packaging and her eyes widen.
"Oh shoot! I accidentally used Kamala's extra strength unfiltered granulated stuff-" she says, grimacing at him. "I don't remember how many teaspoons I put in there." She openly admits, cringing, snatching the mug off him and pouring it down the sink. "It needs to go through the machine first- She's been drinking this extra strength stuff since having to stay up at the lab till 3 or 4am each night-" she rambles, rifling through the pantry for the instant coffee. "Shit, let me make you another one-"
He wraps his warm hand around her wrist gently, pulling her away and toward him... stopping her from scrummaging absent mindedly through her cabinet...
When she's turned to face him, her face abashed, flushed red and she watches him with a puzzled look...
The warm feel of his hand on her skin, sends tingles down her spine, makes her heart flutter wildly in her chest, makes her head want to go dizzy... but she keeps it together and lets all the flash of memories flood back at her from their previous night... remembering how he had held her wrist so gently the exact same way...
His bright blue eyes lift to hers, they gleamer cerulean blue... like crystals... and they had some type of indecision in them...
Flitters of memories of last night fluttering back gently... they draw back in moments that make her knees weak... his eyes... his smile... the way his eyes had crinkled at her with warmth and... the way his lips curled into shockingly sweet smiles...
"Devi. Its ok. Slow down." He huffs with suprise, a small timid smile curls at his lips. "You don't need to... make me anything... I just wanted to talk to you..."
Devi watches him, knowing only some of what he'd just said was what was actually on his mind... his eyes intently watching her, wishing he could read her mind some how... wondering what she had been think of... wondering if her memories were steadily coming back...
He clears his throat, drawing himself back to the moment, before continuing on more definitive.
"I need- I wanted to say something... and I don't want you-" He heaves in a deep breath, anxiously. "I don't want you to-" He looks around to find the right words. "I don't want you... to... to get..." he stops, and groans at himself, frustrated with inability to put his words together. "I don't know... get scared... and... run... from me."
Her eyes widen, fixated to his.
He squeezes his lips together, pushing himself to continue. "Maybe... you told me somethings last night... things that haven't stopped- I don't know-" his eyes shift away and then back to her, taking a moment to take in the thought. "Haven't stopped revolving on in my mind. And that... maybe I should have said somethings too- that I never got to tell you- which wouldn't of mattered either way as you may have forgotten by morning... but..." His eyes turn to hers fully focused, flickering over her, assessing her. "I want to tell you something..."
Her lips quirk up as she watches how he watches her, determined eyes, and focused. His jaw set as he thinks, a pool of thoughts swirl on in his mind.... Devi could see worry swimming in his there too. She waits. "I think... I think I... I think I know... that maybe... that I know that... maybe" Ben grunts, his face screwing up- his tongue tied and she can see how much he feels like an idiot-
His struggling with his words... because he knows once they are out... that he knows how Devi may react... knows she may run... from him- and his heart hammers heavily in dread and it hurts!
He takes in a deep breath again."...that maybe Devi... I think that maybe that I- you know... know... that I maybe... that maybe I'm..." his eyes grow watching as hers furrow on him as she waits, and she tenses up a little more. His expression softens... all the air trapped and hitched in his lungs... leaves him in one exhail... "I know I'm in love with you." He breaths. "I think I have been for a while... and I just cant... seem to stop thinking about us... about you. It hurts... your all I think about. Your all I want... who I want to be with... and who I want to spend all my time with... and I hope that's... that's what you would want too." He confesses, eyes shifting away, unable to hold hers.
Her mouth parts, then opens and closes, dumbly, not knowing what to say... her face flushes red... and Ben can feel her hands shake in his...
...she thinks her mind wants to unlock something... a certain memory that's lodged in there... but that she's too afraid... or a little too uncertain she wants to come back to her... or to confront.
It's hazy, her brain... but their argument continues to repeat endlessly, coming back to her like faint flashes... each and every time coming back clearer and clearer...
She gulps... her mouth feels dry... and had she... had she... said?
Her breathing picks up and she swallows down on nothing, her throat so dry.
She thinks she has... she told him- she told him everything! Her heart pounds strong and she walks around him, her head faint.
"I... I... don't know... what to say..."
Ben swallows down his nerves, standing there frozen for a short while, arms hanging loosely by his side, all the adrenaline stiffening up all his joints... and his heart thuds in his chest.
"Last night." He says turning to her. "Do you remember?"
Her face twists and contorts into anger.
"No."She lies and scoffs. "I told you before, everything is still a haze, Ben." She sneers, stalking into the living room. He follows behind, confused.
"God," he breaths, "that's ok, but you don't need to turn this into some sort of something huge, like sort of an emotional hurricane-" He grunts annoyed with her reaction and her sudden change of mood, before being cut off.
"I'm not!" She warns with a snarl.
"I sense you will-"
"Your a dick."
"I just told you... I dont know?... how I feel... and you still cant talk to me."
She glares at him from over her shoulders, her skin feeling a lot tighter in her body with so much thrumming inside her... she can't let herself go...
"Because it's complicated... because maybe you haven't been such the saint, Ben. Have you thought about that?"
He steps forward, eyes swimming with every emotion in them... and he hesitates with his hands wanting to take hers, to hold her back, threading them into his hair instead.
"I mean- yeah- ok- but can't we talk about what you said yesterday... you told me how feel, and I told you how I feel-"
"I don't think we need to talk about yesterday." She says culty.
He grunts, finding she is stalking toward the front door and... and... he panics and blurts it out-
"You said you loved me, Devi." He blurts out desperately, his tone sounding a little grated... coming out strained... his frustrated and tired, but he wants her to look at him... to stop all she is doing so she would really look at him.
Her feet come to a stop... frozen in place... 'that' memory firmly flooding back...
She spins around to face him to refute it, and she finds him standing much closer than before... closer than she had remembered.
Her heart stops in her chest... his hand reaching up slowly and cups her cheek softly... holding her gaze... his eyes sparkle with emotion.
Her heart burns in her chest, and her breathing labors... the intensity with which his blue eyes gleamer are so profusely intense and close... and fixated... making her blood rush to her ears... she's dizzy... her vision hazy...
His eyes flicker and drop to her lips, and when he ducks his head and his mouth drops closer, she thinks his about to kiss her, already closing her eyes in anticipation, her lips tingling for him to do so. She were ready... more than ready to feel his soft warm lips press and score against hers... her skin aches for it.
Her heart hammers in her chest as she waits...
... and she waits...
She lifts onto her tippy toes to search for him, etching closer... slanting her mouth so he could gain closer...
She's itching to feel him... she wants him to cover her mouth with his... his lips soft and wet as she remembered them, and she wants to taste them again.
... and... and nothing... she doesn't feel a single thing... she swallows, feeling so much as she waits... but the only thing she feels is when his warm hand moves away from her face... and she slowly lifts her eyes open to see his are still lingering and flickering gently over hers... his arms clasped behind his back... nothing of him touches her... just him standing so close as she breaths every bit of him in.
Her skin aches and longs for him to touch her... the need crawls along her skin...
She needs him- she needs him to gain a little closer so she could feel everything from him!
Her breath shaky... the surge of emotions crushing her... causing her havoc... and for some reason she leans herself a little closer... hoping he would meet her the rest of the way... bringing her lips to just hoover slightly below his.
Ben doesn't flinch... just purses his lips tightly, contrasted to the way his eyes glitter and swim so softly over hers.
"Devi... I promise. I won't kiss you... until you say that's what you want from me." His tone low, and soft... almost a whisper.
His breath... his breath is intoxicating... ghosting along her skin... it lingers and makes her shiver slightly...
He swallows as he waits, his eyes intently continue to watch her, never moving... always staying on hers.
And she thinks his about to turn away and leave, so she takes him firmly by the face, giving in to every temptation, every desire burning and bubbling up inside her gut... twisting his face to meet hers, slanting her mouth to perfectly fit his, then covers her mouth with his, taking all the adrenaline along with her and swallowing it down, breathing all the air from his lungs like it were the last air she needed... like it had been the most invigorating thing on the planet... like it were the only thing she'll ever want to breath again.
The electricity crackling and running through her veins, it is electrifing, running through every cell in her body... like his breath were some kind of life source of its own... like a current... free flowing through every cell, combusting with every breath she took in... flowing tumultuously and illuminating every part inside her...
Stunned at first, Ben stumbles back alittle on his feet, light-headed, before his quick and back to recover, and catching her face gently with his fingers, wrapping a hand gently to the side of her face...
He reciprocates, crashing his lips harder against hers, the intensity rippling a moan of pleasure from her mouth, she swallows it down, hoping he hadn't heard it.
She clasps at his shirt, pulling him in and balling it so tight in her hands, her knuckles palsate white. Her mind fuzzy... her head swirling... her brain could implode into esctasy...
Ben clutches her thigh, pulling her up, wanting her to wrap herself around him, because nothing felt close enough... panting as he drags his lips over hers, as he lets his hands roam and glide under her t-shirt.
The heat radiating off his skin makes her mind delirious... she wants more... she wants his hands to drag over her... she wants to melt and meld into every inche of him... her skin tightening around her body and her gut coils with heat... his hot hands sliding and travelling along her skin, bringing flushes to her skin... along her waist... dragging to the small of her back... wrapping his arms around her so he could get closer.
He moves his mouth and travels his kiss to the junction of her neck and jaw, brushing his lips against the tip of her ear, feeling how her breath heaves... heavier against his own skin.
He groans, her fingers digging into the muscles that lined his shoulders... and he curls a smile against her skin that makes her whole body want to quiver.
"Is this you telling me... you like me, Devi?"
She barely hears him, the deafening sound of blood pulsing to her ears was making it too hard to register any other thing or sound... or her own thoughts...
But she manages to respond, pushing herself.
"No." she says curtly... her eyes watching him as he brings his lips and mouth back to find hers again. But she stops him before they touch, taking his face with both hands, pulling him away alittle to gaze into his eyes... and his eyes slowly flutter open to watch her back... the look on his face is so adorably confused and sweet, Devi wants to just pull him in again and kiss him until his lips become imprinted to hers... "I... I think I'm in love with you too."
His mouth curls up into a smile, he smooths a thumb over her cheek, his warm hand cupping her face as he gazes into her eyes.
His smile could illuminate the world, she thinks... it could radiate and brighten everything and could fill her chest with something so colourful... of hope, of happiness...
Then his eyes drop to her mouth and his leaning in again, pressing another kiss... this time delicate... and subtle, soft... and wrapped up with so much warmth, she could feel her heart melting...
His heart wanted to savor every moment of kissing her... being here with her... in this moment, were his holding her close... holding her tight... and...
...and she just said she loved him.
He doesn't think his world could feel any better...
She wraps her arms around the nape of his neck and pulls him in, curving her body into his.
He pulls his kiss away from her shortly after, running a hand down her face as he gazes intently into her eyes...
He wants to see her this happy all the time. He wants to see her smile so radiantly all his life...
"So... will you go out with me, Devi Vishkumar?"
She cracks him the brightest grin he thinks his ever seen... brighter than daylight... brighter than the sun on a summers day...
Her smile spills into her eyes, and she raises her brows at him.
"I think we could manage that, Gross. But..."she lingers on her last word. "You do know I'll never go ease on you. You'll always be stuck with someone smarter than you."
She tilts her head and flutters her lashes at him, to which he scoffs an amused laugh at.
He smirks at her.
"I don't think so, David. But I do stand by what I said at Model UN... we could form a pretty decent alliance that's unbeat."
"You also said I'm America's sweet heart..." she smirks back. "Do you still stand by that?"
"You know that wouldn't be true." He teases.
She gasps, mockingly offended...
He playfully cocks a brow and gently presses a kiss to her lips.
"You can't be, Devi... because your my sweetheart now."
Her cheeks glow red as she kisses him back. She breaths out a sigh of contentment against his mouth.
"Can't I be both, though?" She deadpans.
Ben groans against her mouth, pulling away a little then.
"Your not two timing me again David." He says rolling his eyes. "Like I'm serious."
"Ben. Relax." Her smile and eyes doting over him, warmly. "Your the one and only that I want. And I don't think that may ever change."
He smirks at her.
"Well, I sort of knew you were obsessed with me-"
And she stops him by locking him with a long... long kiss.

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The End.

Guys!! That is the end!! I tried hard to write this one, I have a lot going on and havent had as much time to write but I hope it came out ok... I will look for mistakes tomorrow! I just wanted to say thank you to everyone of you that read my story!! I'm so lucky to have people that read my stories and I'm so grateful to you all always!!!❤️ I have to say a special thank you to these beautiful girls that have supported me all the way to write up to here!!! Thank you guys for your amazing ideas, for your support and for your comments that made me smile during my journey of writing this fic!❤️ sarasahu gissell514 MsRandom11 ❤️ I also wanted to say thank you to these two amazing amazing beautiful souls that have followed me throughout my entire journey of writing two years ago on wattpad!!! cuntsmasher3410 and RochelleLobo... Love you guys and I'm so grateful and so lucky for you guys!! Sending you all so much love! ❤️❤️❤️ Now we just wait for season 3! 🥳 Fingers crossed for a Benvi ending! If you guys want more great Benvi fics I highly suggest MsRandom11 Benvi story that is amazing!! Or 8gtberry Benvi story is really great too guys!!
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