Never Have I Ever Season 3: an alternative theory

Chapter 7: Part2

Devi's feet stalk further and further away from school, her feet picking up pace, her grip tighting to her bag, feeling as her body fumes... her body stirred with emotions- yes-driving her crazy and feeling as though her mind could have a meltdown... her thoughts were on overload.
No way was she going back in there... no way would she show up to class knowing what had just happened would turn into nothing more than gossip and an unbearable amount of humilating and unwanted attention. She cant go back to school- not now... neither could she face the two boys that had just either crushed or humiliated her infront of numerous people- no way was she going back in there and no way would she be left with more heartbreak... she couldn't face anyone and let herself feel further broken.
And then she can hear as a car approaches and slows up behind her.
Somehow she could sense it were his jeep... Paxtons' ... it were gaining closer to her... and getting closer no matter how fast she had walked.
She approaches a corner, and the instant she can, she sharply rounds it trying to loose him.
'What was she so mad about', the words repeat over and over in her mind - She had practically done the very same thing... the very same to Paxton!- he were going to be just as mad, if not, more, when he finds out Ben had kissed her... and she had kissed Ben back... and that she had never even attempted to stop him...
...or wanted too... she had even wrapped her arms affectionately around his neck the last time he'd kissed her, loosing all herself to him... keeping him there... keeping him enclosed to her like she had wanted to breathe more of him in... like she could not live without his breath...
She mentally slaps those thoughts off her mind and brought her focus back on Zoey... on what Paxton and she had done...
Trying to cool her mind she breathes slower... assess things properly... but it's not working and it's too much work!- and she thinks she cant do it, so she continues to storm away!
She can hear as his car nears again and crawls along side her, but her strides, long and determined, continue on stubbornly at a quickened pace, not giving him a chance to neither stop her nor give him the chance to provide him time to explain himself.
"Devi." She knows it's him without looking, it were obvious- his voice being one of the most familiar voices in the world to her. But his tone- frustrated and angered- was rarely Paxton... he had showed other emotions way more often being the chilled and laidback person he had always had been.
She doesn't reply.
"Devi." He tries again, but more firmly this time.
He waits a short while before he knows she will neither answer him nor stop.
"Fuck." He complains, cursing under his breath, the frustration making him taut and tight, building quickly, knowing she wasnt going to make talking to him easy.
With her no reply, he pulls his jeep over to the side and then hops out.
"Dont follow me." She warns sharply.
"I want to talk to you-"
"And I don't!"
"Well, I think you deserve to at the very least know the truth, Devi." He tries to reason with her.
She suddenly spins round to face him, her brows deeply furrowed with anger, her face scrunched up with disbelief.
"Like how you failed to mention you kissed Zoey-"
"Like you didn't mention Ben?" He bites back.
Startled by his unexpected words, her cheeks flush red... turning ablaze... her heart feeling as though it had wanted to plunge, plummet to a stop. Her eyes widen and her features stiffen.
Her mouth drops... and she can't seem to speak... or find words? Did she loose her ability to speak, or had she lost the sound of her very own voice...completely?- she wonders... and maybe also begins to believe.
Mumbling out what she could, unable to seem to connect words together, she frustratedly gives up and... tries a different approach... to forge a defiant look instead... going on defensive mode- still a nervous disposition- but a front that said she 'hadnt a clue of what he had been talking about nor did she want to know."
Her arms crossed infront of her, leaning back alittle, mimicking his stance... prepared to come off defensively... and appearing slightly stubborn...
"I- what- Ben? Huh?" She mumbles, scoffing and tripping over her own words.
Paxton groans and rolls his eyes... but within seconds he notices as she can't seem to hold up her front and begins to crumble, her disposition changing quickly, crumbling quickly before his own eyes, her eyes beginning to glaze with distress and she is loosing it and suddenly appearing more and more tense.
"It's ok..." Paxton gestures with his hands for her to calm. "I mean it's not ok- Ben should have never tried to come on to you- I mean I wasn't even sure it were really true-"
Devi chokes back the surge of words that wanted to come out all at once...
"W-what... h-how? W-who-" she stammers, her voice coming out slightly strangulated.
"Aneesa." Paxton replies quickly, tense, and drops his hands to his hips in an unrelaxed stance. "I had a long chat with her after her soccer practice... she came to me... hinting Ben was up to something?..." then he shakes his head. "And so... you should also know that I did not kiss Zoey."
"You didn't?" her voice shaking and cracking at the same time.
"Yeah." He scoffs. "That's what I've been trying to tell you."
She tries to pull a little smile, the best she could do under all the guilt that were brunting down on her at the very same moment-
"She tried to make it clear she likes me but... I told her... I'm with Devi."
"Y-yeah."
"Yes, she did kiss me. And, you know, I told her I'm only her friend. I'll always be her friend-"
That part made Devi feel uncomfortable, but she presses those feelings aside...
She needs to focus... tell him something... and like Mr. K had said... it would only get worse the longer she held it in... it were going to eat her more and more inside if she doesn't get it out-
"- I mean, you know Zoey... sometimes she can be... what's the word... irresponsible?"
Irresponsible wasn't the word Devi would go for... but... really? Irresponsible was the only word he could come up with to describe Zoey?! Devi could think of so many more! Concieted, territorial, sneaky, snarky- vain maybe even-
"- I know she may come off as rude sometimes... and inconsiderate... but I've known Zoey for so long... give it some time... she might rub off on you. I mean your already dressing like her," he laughs at that part, eyes dart over her mini skirt she choose to wear today "-you guys never know... you may actually find you have a lot more in common-"
Talking of Zoey was making her head pound...grow a mild headache even... her blood simmering at mention of her name every-single-time- doing her head in! It were impeding her sense of judgement... and it were clouding up her head, affecting her ability to choose her words wisely and-
"I kissed Ben back!" She spews out, finally, then immediately slapping a hand over her mouth, horrified by the fact she had let her confession slip out just like that.
Her heart begins to pump heavy in her chest, watching as Paxton's features tighten and freeze.
For a second, he had looked as still as a statue, but she was sure his blood pulsed through him terribly when he clenched his jaw and swallowed hard, seeing his muscles tense. She could see he was holding back on his emotions.
His eyes flicker over to her, they glazed with something... but blinks whatever it were away.
"Ok. So..." he mutters, trying to breath... no words wanting come to him... especially words to express how he were feeling.
He doesn't know what to do, beginning to turn away, then turns back, like he had more to say but refused to let the words out.
He does it again, but this time groans loudly, annoyed, as his eyes land back on a very tense and rigid Devi.
He finally sighs heavily, half turned to her.
"Is there a reason why? Do you like him or something?- like, obviously you do- or might- but do you like him more than me?" He questions, his tone grim.
Devi fidgets with her hands excessively... playing with them infront of her as she looks down at them, unable to look him in the eyes.
"I... I don't know why, Paxton,... I don't know why I... had."
He turns sharply to her.
"What is it with you and that geek?" He huffs, angerily. "You think I need to compete with an arrogant jerk like that for you?" He exclaims with disbelief. "Someone like him?" He laughs bitterly, the anger and resentment coming out in his tone. "This is bull." He groans, running a hand over his face and then into his hair, frustrated.
Devi opens her mouth to say something... but nothing comes out, scared what she may say more would upset him further.
"Devi... do you even want to be with me?" he questions, his eyes briefly meeting hers before he has to look away again, not sure he wanted to hear her answer.
She opens her mouth but his quicker to cut in.
"No! You know what- dont answer that" he rumbles out, his face twisting like he had tasted something bitter. "I want you to think about it before you answer honestly. I'm not going to be played by you... again. If you want to be with me... your going to have to try so hard to show you care... you care about what you did... to show how sorry you are... to show you'd never pull something so low on me like this ever again. And even then... I don't know, Devi... could I even trust you?."
He gives her one final glance, a hard scowl that crawls along her spin, before he turns, heading back to his car.
Devi stands there... feeling the guilt engulf her... feeling the searing pain of a fire that wanted to burn her... she didn't know what she wanted to do... chase him? Talk to him? Say what?
The adrenaline in her veins were so much... She needed to do something... but she couldn't... she couldn't do anything... she could barely even move, her muscles all locked up...
Until she sees Kamala's car further down the road... and she were pulling over infront of what looked like a small coffee shop...
It felt like a bit like salvation... and she quickly dashes her way over to greet her cousin... in hopes her cousin could somehow help.

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Hi Guys! I was supposed to make this a two part with Kamala and Devi after Devi and Paxton but it would have been too long! Sorry if this feels a bit rushed, I was supposed to make it better, but I have had more people over and it has not been quiet lol I may have to look over it again. Enjoy guys❤ Xxxx y'all!