Never Have I Ever Season 3: an alternative theory

Chapter 6: Part 4

Waiting by his car, Ben waits to see if he can spot Devi as she comes out from her last class. Its the end of the day and he knows she'll be heading toward the school parking lot to either catch her ride home with Kamala or Paxton. It is something he had begun to become use to seeing most afternoons...
When he does see her he hesitates to wonder over to Devi, his nerves getting the better of him. His eyes roaming over to her as he sees her... the way she had worn her hair today... or the way she seemed to glow... she looked gorgeous... he thinks his never felt his pulse run so fast.
He rolls his car keys anxiously in his hand, watching her on as she walks along the front lawn of the school, when he realises she were making her way toward Paxton's car-
He instantly groans, furious he had felt so nervous to approach her even now after what Oliver had told him earlier... but he forcefully pushes those feelings aside, snatches his bag, and shuts his car, before jogging over to her.
He was going to do this today- talk to her properly... he cant postpone these things any further... no matter how nervous or how much his heart pounded or ached...
As he catches up, he could tell she were nervous too... maybe she had caught sight of him from the corner of her eyes as he had approached... but her hands slightly tremor at her phone, and her eyes don't come up to meet his.
"Hey." Ben says as he begins to walk beside her.
"Hey." Devi replies.
He scratches the back of his head as he thinks of what to say, his head suddenly going blank.
"Y-you not going to feel cold in that? Here, you can take my jacket-"
But she sighs, already knowing that were not what he wanted.
"I'm not cold, Ben."
"Ok."
And then his mind awkwardly stops.
She suddenly stops and forces herself to face him. "Listen... I've had a tough day, I just want to go home and I cant keep doing this with you-"
"What? Trying to talk with you?"
"Yeah. I know what your doing... and we already had this conversation... in chem today, remember?" She questions. Her tone then suddenly changes... a little quaver to it that said she were nervous but trying hard to restrain it back. "I really like Paxton, Ben. And honestly, did you think that by you kissing me," she whispers the 'kissing me' then goes on as normal... "that would all somehow change? That somehow I would change how I feel... and leave him?"
He gulps down, nodding his head.
"Y-yeah, maybe, Devi... yeah-" he mumbles, before she's cut him off, and she's irritated and not listening or giving him the time to reply properly, she jumps in herself.
"Ok, lets talk. We're here... lets talk right now. Lets do it. What do you need to know Ben- tell me- lets talk about-"
"Yes."
"Yes, what?"
"Leave him."
"What?-"
"You asked me if I thought you would give up Paxton because we kissed and you never let me finish-"
She growls, irritated. He makes her think to much and it all hurts her head! She had just had an argument with her friends, had a disappointing conversation with Aneesa, and then got ditched by Paxton so he could judge some kind of burping contest all initiated by Trent...
She knew she were being pushed into this conversation prematurely, knowing she were not ready- knowing how things could go wrong- how big things could be said... how things could be repeated... And she retaliates the only way she knows how- defensively!
"No!" She snaps, pivoting from him, wishing he would stop and wanting so desparately to storm away. But as she strides away, Ben follows.
Her tempter was starting to rip into her, when she had finally convinced herself she could possibly do this with Ben, and try her best to compose herself and move on- show him how much she were invested into Paxton, trying to camaflague her image into their group, to dress and act like them... Ben was not budging!... he wasnt going to give up... he wasnt going anyway... he... he was going to continue playing with her feelings no matter how hard she were trying to hide them! But he wasnt like... everyone else... who'd loose hope on her so quickly-
But nope!- Devi wasn't going there!- She wont let herself get distracted and bring herself back there yet again!
He was holding her back and only making things harder. When she picks up pace, he groans, trying to keep up with her.
"Devi, fine, you want to talk about something else, let's talk about something else?" He grumbles as he follows, feeling his veins pumping with irritation.
"I dont think so, you are only making things worse- wait why are you following me? To Paxton's car?... why are you...."
He purses his lips and raises a brow at her.
"Why? Should you be worried?" He questions bitterly. She suddenly halts to a stop, his feet too.
"This, here..." she points to the ground where they stand. "This is where you stay."
"No." He retorts back, sliding his hands casually into his pockets, his eyes flickering over her in a challenging way.
Her eyes glare back at him, but questions were swimming inside them too... wanting answers.
"Unless we talk things out... properly Devi."
She scoffs with annoyance.
Something stubborn stirs deep in the pit of her stomach... making her feel things that made her heart pound differently... confounded, she also didn't want him to go... it were something dense and fluid, something that rolled like mercury deep in her stomach making it swim with confusing feelings but somehow alight as well... tinges setting her nerves alight, the spark glimmering in her eyes that said she was up for the challenge.
"No?"
"Yes, no."
"Really?"
He gazes at her confused.
"Yeah... really."
"Listen Gross, every time we 'talk'", she quotes 'talk' with her fingers whilst she takes a step closer to him, her index finger almost barely coming across his chest, Ben swears he could have felt it. Her tone confusing Ben very much too... "you end up kissing me. And when I say kissing, you... really kiss me..." She says barely above a whisper..."I'm not just going to let that happen again."
Ben's eyes wonder over her, questioning her tone... why had her tone sounded so... rich... so smooth and velvety... by far more confusing to him- he thought it had sounded tantalizing and daring... searing into him, it could practially melt butter... why? It, to him, sounded seductive and were making his pulse race and he thinks he feels his face flush red...
"I-I..." he stammers.
But her tone changes again, this time harsh and certain.
"Maybe you should back off Ben before Paxton does notice and he wont be happy." her tone returning to normal.
It takes him a lot to snap back to himself again, but by then she has already turned and begun to walk away. He catches to her and stops her by tugging at her wrist.
"I don't care about Paxton-"
"I can tell."
"Devi stop-."
"You stop."
He groans irritated.
She were being so stubborn!- he thinks to himself.
He takes in a deep breath, bracing to try again.
"Devi." He says, calmly this time. He pushes himself to take a step even closer, closing off the gap between them. He wanted to cup her cheek...get her to look into his eyes... he wanted her to gaze into them and hope she would look at him the way she had the last time he'd kissed her... "I feel how you look at me. It hurts... because you are here, standing infront of me, and I cant be with you... even though I know what you feel...." he sighes before he continues, watching as her eyes roll. "I know exactly how I feel about you, and... I just have to keep waiting... honestly... I have to wait... until you can admit... and tell me how you feel..." He stops as her gaze drifts away from him. He takes her hand, bringing it closer to him, bringing it up close to his chest, craddling it in his own hands just below where his heart beats, heavy and strong. "Do you remember Malibu... how you looked at me... the memory that could repeat a thousand times in my head and it still wouldn't be enough. You asked me why I stayed and I told you I wanted to make sure you were ok? That day... it changed alot... it changed everything... it changed how everything inside me craved to be with you... how I longed for you to feel that too... for you to have the same feelings for me. I know we had our problems, Devi, but I want you to know... I'll always be here... I'll always be the one to put you first."
Devi swallows, his words making her heart slow... making her feel almost faint with feelings swirling in her... like her memories of Malibu were coming back in flashes and her heart couldnt possibly pump her blood so thick with emotions it were making her shake a little...
Devi's eyes glimmer at Ben like she wanted to give him answers... like for maybe once he would get an answer from her, and he feels his pulse race watching as her lips part to say something... but then they close.
Devi's eyes come across Paxton as he emerges from behind a building with Marcus then they stop, talking animately about something- Devi's pretty certain seemed sport related. Ben follows her gaze, and his brows instantly furrow upon seeing Paxton.
"You know, I could tell him right now." He groans, irritated.
Her eyes snap to Ben, and they instantly change, frowning and narrowing onto him.
She snatches his arm, furiously, pulling him away- if he wanted to continue this conversation it needed to be elsewhere!... she drags him back into the school building, it all happening too fast for Ben to register, and confused, he furrows his brows deeply at Devi. She peers into an empty classroom, pulls him inside, and is prepared to have another disagreement with Ben.
Her gaze darts around quickly, checking for any signs of others, but as she turns to face Ben once again, he dips his head and crashes his lips to hers, and her legs and knees tremble, sending her stumble back onto a desk, almost making her sit onto it. Ben catches her by the waist and pulls her onto him. He drags his lips over hers, as her body presses up against his, pressing her close enough onto him she could practically feel every inche of his body.
He wants her to kiss him back like she had last time they kissed, to inhale him like she had... he wants her to feel how his veins are pumping wildly just for her. When she wraps her arms around his neck, drawing him in, she does start to kiss him back, and what he feels is something like esctacy explode in his chest, releasing surge after surge of electricity running along his veins, running to his head.
His trying to make this their best kiss yet... he couldnt take what she had said about Paxton earlier... he wants his kiss to be better than Paxtons'... he wants his kiss to be all that she wants to think of... he tips her head back and deepens their kiss, tasting every bit of her lips and mouth.
The adrenaline pulsating through Devi, she knows this is very much wrong... but why cant she stop... her head too light-headed to even think... her heart was pounding for Ben and all the ways he had made her feel... especially just earlier...
When he sweeps a tongue in she lets out a moan against his mouth, which stuns Ben. He becomes a little taunt... a little tight... but he slowly slides his hand along the outline of her side, then cards a hand through her hair, trying to hold her impossibly close, feeling he couldnt get her close enough even when they had no gap between them... he wants their bodies to merge... he wants her closer so he gets to breath her all in.
Whilst his every vein pumped with roaring need, it wasnt impossible for her to notice that as they kiss, their intimacy heightened and progressed, oh... she could also feel something other than her swirling emotions growing... something hard as their hips move against each other?
But before Devi does initiate to stop, Ben is already the first to slow himself down, slowly dragging his mouth away from hers. Devi feels that prideful smile of Bens' that begs to kiss her again... it begins to emerge as he presses his lips against her skin to her cheeks as he moves his lips away and then presses another kiss along the side of her face, whilst still hold her head so gently.
She gazes at him, suprised... shocked she had done it again... She hadn't resisted once again... third time Devi... and her heart begins to race...
Her heart racing, she hesitates to leave, pacing back and forth between exiting the doors, her mind spluttering out thoughts, whilst Ben watches her on, eyes wide wondering what she would do. His hands nervously digging into his pockets in suspense of what she may do...
She cant take how much her head were torturing her right now... and she blurts out the first thing that she can get out!
"I hate you." She sternly cries, her tone wavering, thick with emotion. She storms away, leaving Ben hurt, his eyes misted with worry and his features torn.
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Hi Guys!Yeah, once again, I'm not 100% happy with this one, but sending it in just because it could just pass?... I will go through it again, I have had little time to write but I really want to get the time to get the whole story out while I still have momentum! Haha. Music and all your comments and votes all drive me to finish every story I start so thank you from the bottom of my heart always! xxx❤ I did also want to say I don't condone cheating! I know what Devi and Ben are doing in my story is not right, but they are really messed up in a love triangle that hasn't been solved! But still! I know it doesnt make any of it right... things will get resolved. Anyway, xxx to y'all! ♡♡♡