Breakdowns & Cosmic Connections

POEM 29: Mr Barker.

-TO MY DAD-

Oh!
Would you please tell Mr Barker to add some happiness in my cake before he sends it to me?
Please, would you!?
Please tell Mr Barker to have a smile while making my cake.
I don't want it to have sad slime all over it.
Tell him the cake should look like art before he sends Noah's ark to bring it to me.
Please tell Mr Barker about me.
But don't tell him lies!
Tell him all you can.
"Mentally unstable, anti social, a pessimist, sociopath, ADHD fanatic, obsessed & probably possessed, insane just to turn sane again."
Tell him all these good things about.
Tell him I'm unsure of myself.
Am I....a psychopath? Depressed? Or just simply too confused?

I don't know...

I have more questions that you probably won't have answers too but they can't fit in one letter to Mr Barker.

Mr Barker why are you so mean?
Why don't you ever give me the cakes I ask for?
You always give other kids the cakes they want...
So then...what the f__k is wrong with my cake?
I asked for happiness not money...
I asked for a better change not more problems...
I asked for a better me not to be more self destructive.
You know what Mr Barker?
I don't need you after all!
F__k you & your dumba_s cakes.

Oh!
Would you still tell Mr Barker that I still need him...
I was just angry.