"Dying isn't easy. The body was designed to stay alive; thick skull, strong heart, keen senses. When the body starts to fail, medicine takes over. Surgeons are arrogant enough to think there's no one they can't save. Like I said, dying isn't easy. Living is better than dying... until it's not. But even if letting a person die is the right thing to do, it's not what surgeons are built for. We are arrogant and competitive. We don't like to lose and death feels like a loss even when we know it's not. We know it's time. We know it's right. We know we did everything we could. It is hard to shake that feeling that you could've done more"
"the pain grows stronger watch it grin"
The alarm clock read: 3:12am and Aurora and Owen were tangled up in each other's arms. The difference between the two was Aurora was peacefully asleep, Owen was awake staring at the time. 3:12. He gently untangled himself from Aurora, careful not to wake her and got up. He started doing push-ups in the living room, eating food, watching TV, busying himself, passing time. He got back into bed pretending as if he had never left as the clock turned 5 and they said good morning.
Teddy and Beck entered their patient's room. "Morning. Kim, Sean. How're you feeling?" Teddy greeted. "Ready", Kim replied. "Today's the day". "And how are you doing?" Beck asked Sean.
"Ok"
Owen had joined Teddy and Beck in Kim's room. "Since the state requires two physicians' signatures, I've asked Dr Hunt to look over your chart", Teddy explained. "Dr Jacobs?" "Her prognosis says that she has less than six months to live", Beck said. "We have informed her of her treatment options. She has met with a psychologist who has determined that she is mentally fit. And this can serve as her second oral request". "Ok", Kim replied.
"You have to say it. Washington State says we have to hear you ask two times at least 15 days apart"
"It's so weird. It's like I'm applying to die"
"If you're having second thoughts...", Sean said gently.
"You saw how bad it got last night. It's just gonna get worse. I would like to end my life through physician-assisted suicide"
"Excuse me", Owen said before leaving the room. Beck gave Teddy a questioning look but Teddy shrugged it off. "I'm gonna go see what's up", Teddy said and she left the room. "Dr Jacobs?" Kim asked.
"Yeah?"
"How long does it take? To die? Once I take the barbiturates"
"Can we not talk about this? It's just...", her boyfriend said. "We're not there yet".
"We are there, Sean. We are"
"Kim, to answer your question...about 45 minutes", Beck said. "It takes about 45 minutes to die".
Mark and Arizona were in the lab with Callie and Lucy who were working on their cartilage. "Three dates. No sex. Just talking", Mark said. "Do you have any idea how much you can learn about someone if you remain upright? I bet you didn't know Teddy hates the word "moist". Hates it. Would really prefer people say "damp". You hear me? I'm growing again. I'm like, grown". "I'm gonna be late", Arizona said, giving Callie a kiss. "Bye". She left the room. "She doesn't want kids", Callie blurted the moment she left the room. "Arizona doesn't want kids. In her womb, in her house. Ever. She told me". "You mean Arizona, the paediatric surgeon who works with kids all day long?" Lucy asked, bewildered.
"Yeah"
"What did you say?"
"Nothing. We're doing so great. I don't want to ruin it by being the crazy desperate girl with the aching womb"
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Runaway-Grey's Anatomy AU Book 6
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