How come she's so afraid of falling in love? [ Louis Tomlinson & Niall Horan ]

1 YEAR LATER. CH.19

 1 YEAR LATER. CH.19  

I'm walking to Uni in London when a poster in a window catches my eye. Those ice blue eyes stare me and than my gaze finds the royal blue ones. I haven't spoken to them since the night I finally made my choice.

  '' what? '' louis voice was hoarse and dry.  

'' I choose me. I am not breaking your hearts anymore. I'm sorry Louis. ''

I grab my duffel bag from the floor and walk out of the room. I hear Louis sob and he run's after me.   '' YOU'RE FUCKING BREAKING MY HEA-A-RT N-N-OW '' He yells his eyes full of unshed tear and his hands trembeling.  

'' You will be okay Louis '' My voice a meer whisper. I walk out of the house falling to my knees sobs racking my body. After an hour I finally pull myself together I finally make my way to my car and leave Louis,Niall and my hapiness behind.    Of course after that night they called, texted but I changed phone and numbers. I eventually just distanced myself from evreyone. Jessica and me barely talk anymore because she is still dating Liam and she thinks what I did to Louis was cruel.

I shake my head trying to clear my head and continue walking. After classe I went back to my flat I was renting in London. Since XFactor One Direction have become one of the biggest boybands and I am happy for Louis but it hurts seeing them evrey where. I deleted my Twitter and Facebook only keeping my computer for my classes at Uni. I was making myself some pasta for supper when somebody knocked on the door. I opened it to find the familiar mop of curls.  

'' H-harry ? '' I stuttered. He gave me crooked smile.  

'' Hey Tori. You look like shit '' I glare at him and open my door wider gesturing for him to come in.

  '' How did you find me? '' I blurt 

  '' I was walking home from the store when I saw you and followed you here '' 

  '' Stalker '' I mumble.  

'' same old Tori '' he say chuckling

'' what do you want? '' I ask a bit harsher than I intended.  

'' you need to come back to my flat . '' 

  '' why ? ''

 '' You need to talk to Louis since you left him his been unconsolable. Diffferent girls evreynight and he is always drunk. We hide it as best as we can from the paps but Tori he needs you. '' 

'' You just said he had different girls evreynight haz, he doesn't need me '' I sneer. 

'' You know he is trying to forget you and failing miserably ''

'' I don't care '' I hissed trying to look angry but I know and he knows that I do care.   

'' You made him like this! '' Harry says racking his hand threw his curls now visibly agitated. 

'' I did it so I wouldn't hurt him anymore ! '' I say mostly to myself.  

'' You know very well that your plan backfired. '' 

'' B-but Niall .. ''  I mumble  

'' Niall has a girlfriend that he loves very much ''  

'' He does? ''  I thought I would be hurt but for some reason I felt free and happy for him.

''I don't deserve a second chance with Louis '' I say

'' love, Life always offers you a second chance It's called towmarrow '' I look up at him and laugh.

 '' Wow There Styles you going deep aren't ya ! '' I say winking and he just shrug smiling. 

'' Let's go '' he orders    We walk to his flat which is much bigger than mine and more modern. He brings me into the living where all the boys are sitting except for Louis. They all look at me and smile except for Niall who is just staring his lips slightly parted. I needed to talk to him.

''  Louis gone out, but he should be back in a bit '' Harry tells me and I simply nod. 

 '' Niall can I talk to you '' I ask, he gets up and walks to the belcony.

'' I'm sorry '' He blurts 

'' You have nothing to be sorry for Niall '' I smile sweetly at him. 

'' If it wasn't for me you wouldn't have went to that club, and than gotten into that fight with Louis... and well never came back ''   

'' That fight would have happen anyways. '' 

'' But .. ''   

'' No, buts. Look I am really happy for you and I am so pround of your guys succes but I just needed closure you know.. '' 

 '' We're over '' he states   

'' Yeah over .. I love Louis with all my god damn heart and I don't care if he rips it open or tears it apart because I know he will be there to fix it after '' Niall smiles and hugs me.  

'' I still love you Tori '' 

'' And I still love you Niall ''    '' But it's just a different kind of love '' I say and he nods agreeingly.

 We walk back into the flat and sit down with the boys. We talk for a while about stuff that has happend and how they got signed when the door opened.  

'' MATES! I bought carrots and some Cooki--- '' He couldn't finish his phrase because his eyes fell on me. He dropped the grocery bags he was holding and just stared at me. Different emotions flashing threw his eyes. Anger,Despair,Relief, Hapiness.   

'' Hey Lou '' I say shyly. He ignores me picking up his bags and stomping off to the kitchen. I quickly get up and follow him.    '' I know you don't want to talk to me but .. ''  I couldn't finish my sentence because Louis whipped around his fists clenched and his eyes full of fury.

 '' you're right I don't want to talk to you , so leave '' He roared. Tears clouded my vision but I quickly blink them away.  

'' I'm sorry lou ... '' 

 '' do you think sorry will fix me. I am broken Tori you left me not to break my heart but you fucking ripped it apart '' He spat.

  '' I know I was fucking stupid I don't know what the fuck I was thinking Louis but I miss you evreyday single day and seeing you evreywhere was a reminder how much I fucked up. I love you Louis Tomlinson but I also loved Niall it just took me a while to understand it was a different kind of love. A love that we never be able to compete with the one I have for you. '' I looked up to see Louis just staring his face completly blank and I did the only thing I could think of was kiss him. At first Louis didn't move but than he finally kissed me back.

'' I. fucking. love.you '' He said between kisses.After a couple minutes he pulled away I instantly missed him.  

'' Don't ever do that to me again '' 

  '' I promise '' I whispered before walking up to him and kissing him again.