How come she's so afraid of falling in love? [ Louis Tomlinson & Niall Horan ]

TAKEN CH.17

TAKEN  CH.17 

The doctor came in and checked me out. He said that I had sufferd a Gastrointestinal bleeding which was the most common complication when it comes to ulcers. I was put on some medications , a lot rest and he recommanded me seeing a phsychiatrist to find ways to better handle my stress stress. After the doctor was gone I saw Jessica and the boys, Niall was present as well. He stood in the corner of the room and would crack a small smile every now and than. An hour later I was getting a bit tired to so I told them to come back towmarrow because I wanted to relax. Niall was about to exit my room.

'' Niall, could you stay? '' 

'' Umm .. yeah, yes of course '' he replied when he neared my bed I saw that he had a black eye it was no longer swollen but under his eye was a purple nad he also had a little cut on his bottom lip. 

'' What happend? '' I ask my hand finnding his face stroking his lip gently. 

'' Louis, when he found out about the girl in the club he sorta punched me leaving this '' He pointed to his blackeye before continuing. '' and when he found out about the ulcer and what causes it, he gave me this '' he showed my his busted lip. 

'' You know that this ulcer was in no way your fault '' I say 

'' No it was tho, I deserved to get puched. ''

'' I guess we're even then .... I umm sorta cheated on you , you cheated on me and told the world about my secret '' my tone sounding a bit harsher than I wanted. I saw him cringe a tear rolled down his cheek.

'' I forgave you for that night but I didn't cheat on you with Alyssa.She's my cousin. I hadn't seen her in years and I should've thought that it was wierd that she texted me when I got on the XFactor but I thought that family would never do that to me. I told her about you in secrecy tori. She was not a complete stranger. I thought I could trust her . '' he said his voice quivering at the end. Can I forgive him, He didn't cheat on me but he did tell a girl about our relationship. I know she was his cousin but for some reason I feelt betrayed. I suck in a breath a war wagging inside of me. When I looked into Niall eyes I broke. I forgive him.

'' Look Niall, I am massively sorry for the tweet it was spitful and bitchy. I forgive you and I should've  known that you wouldn't hurt me like that Niall but I am really sorry I can't give my heart completely to you because I've always loved Louis I was just too afraid to admit it to myself and now I am confused. '' Hot tears streaming down my face.

'' I knew you loved him the moment I saw you guys together after bootcamp and I also knew he loved you but also I love you tori. I will always love you and the day if that day comes you realize that I am the one and you are 100 % sure please come back to me '' A small smile appearing on his face but his eyes were masked with unshed tears. He kissed my temple and walked out of the room leaving me alone with my thoughts. I loved louis so much but did I trust him with my heart? Niall I trusted him with my heart I would give it to him without a second thought but I didn't love him as much as I did Louis.

It's the XFactor final tonight and it has been seven weeks since I've been out of the hospital. Every week I sit infront of the television with Jessica to watch One Direction but tonight I am going to London with Jessica to watch the boys perform live. I told Louis I couldn't make it and he tried not to sound gutted by I heard his voice quiver. Niall has texted me evrey day we never talked about what he said in the hospital. I curled my hair lightly and applied a little a bit of makeup. I wore a red dress with my favorite leather jacket and my combat boots. Looking at the crowd was overwhelming. We sat down in the front row beside Louis mum and the boys families. The boys came on stage and the familliar Elton john Your song started playing. My gaze went to Louis smiling and signing. He was meant to do this they is no other place made for Louis than that stage. I felt my heart swell with pride and tears of joy clouded my vision I quickly wiped them away. They sang two other songs and the crowd cheered louder evrey performance. After the show, we went backstage I couldn't stand still I was walking around when I saw Harry in the door a smile crept onto his lips he walked to his family. Next was Zayn who ran to his sister and picked her up spinning her. I was concentraded on watching Zayn with his sisters how adorable he was them that I didn't notice Jessica and Liam hugging. When I turned back to the door way I saw Niall his lips parted pain evident in his eyes. When he saw I was looking his smiled at me and walked away. I wanted to talk to Niall but for some reason my legs wouldn't move. I was lost in thought when I heard Louis voice.