CHAPTER 3
I have been working on getting more skinnier at this rate I didn't eat whatsoever, I was insanely sick and missed out on a lot of school, so much that we almost went to court on me missing on so much school, I had doctors notes and everything. My hands are even skinnier and its like a witch, hands are really dry now, not clappy at all. I slowly stopped talking to adam, I miss him but I can't have any distractions, I need to lose this weight. I'm at 120 pounds now, I have been working out almost all week. Strangely I am really bloated, I think it is just water, I hope anyway. I am so tired at this point I could just fall to the ground, I wouldn't even run 5 feet to save my life. I need..... to sleep *knock dead asleep* *2 hours later* (puking) EWWWW I woke up puking... wait this is weird, I didn't eat whatsoever so I don't understand why I am throwing up... I puked like pizza and stuff! that's gross... what is going on!?!?!?!?!?!?! I walked downstairs and I asked my mom what has been going on.
"Oh sorry but you were so tired but you came downstairs with me and ate pizza for dinner, it was so good, you were go interested and in love with the pizza you ate 6 SLICES!!!" My mom said cleaning around a bit, you should have seen my face!! O.M.G!!!!
The only thing I thought was "HOW MANY POUNDS DID I GAIN?!?!" I ran upstairs to my scawaiting...waiting... it felt like forever... I GAINED 3POUNDS!!!! I swear I spent 10 minutes trying to puke it all off but nothing came out! I must have digest the rest of it. I could never lie to my Ana buddies but If I do tell them they will no longer help me anymore!
My mom knocked on my door really lightly I yelled for her to come in and shoved on a large sweater.
"Hey honey, don't forget your older brother Brandon is coming to visit this weekend and he's staying for a week or two." my mom said sitting on my bed and looking at me while I fix my makeup from crying about me gaining weight.
"Thanks for letting me know mom, I'm going to take a nap, I'm not feeling to well still." I said walking over to my bed.
"You're welcome honey!! I'm so sorry that you STILL don't feel well, love you." mom said leaving my room
I laid down for a bit and when my mom left I grabbed my phone to look at the Ana website.
IN TEXT MESSAGES
Must.be.Skinny: Guys, I don't know if I can do this, this is really hard.
Skinny.Soul: If you don't think you can do it you can eat a apple or something...
Thin.is.my.Goal: You can't do it everyday though then you'll be failing.
Must.be.Skinny: I get it, I get it, I just need to eat something...
Skin.and.Bones: Don't try to on purpose.
Thinspo: You can do this, don't give up!
Must.be.Skinny: I know, I don't want to eat but I have to if I want to make it to 110 by next week at the most.
Skinny.Mini: Dang girl!! I don't have any feeling that you can not do it!!
Tinny.Winny: Totally agree with Skinny.Mini!! You can so do this!!
Need.perfectness: I know you can do this.
Must.be.Skinny: Thanks guys!! You really are my friends...I can do this!!
ButterflyAna: We will help you, EVERY step through it!!
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Not Thin Enough
Mystery / ThrillerEveryone has different thoughts about yourself. Some think that they are skinny, fat, stupid, smart, worthless, ugly, beautiful etc. Many people in this whole wide world think they are so fat they don't want to eat, that sad thing that makes people...
