CHAPTER 2
I started getting weaker and slower and didn't go to school for 2 days and was having a really hard time getting up and down stairs. My hands started getting clampier and nasty, they also are getting really skinny. My stomach had a bluber and it is getting smaller, I like it, I feel like a model!
I think my mom doesn't realized what has been going on in my mind, i do love her, more then anything, she can just seem so clueless. I used to cut myself when my parents got divorced and my baby brother died, she never realized, I was cutting at home, and at school for 2 years and she never realized it and never asked if I was okay, she was also heart broken about my brother. I am not stupid, I know how to clear my history every time I go on the thinsperation website, my mom doesn't go on my computer but I am just making sure if my mom realized how skinny I will be when I don't eat from when I met Ana the last week. I am not fully in love with Ana , yet. I love her now but I'm not obsessed, I am going to the scale, lets see how much I weigh now i only ate 5 things just this week!! The moment of truth....
Past weight: 139 pounds
Current weight: 130 pounds
Goal weight: 110 pounds
YES!!! I made it so far!! I lost 9 pounds, its not the best but it is amazing improvement! Maybe, sometime soon I will make my goal weight! I took a photo of my scale saying I was 130 pounds! I texted my Ana buddies, my user is Must.be.Skinny
IN TEXT MESSAGES
Must.be.Skinny: I made improvement!! 130 pounds!!
Skinny.Soul: Wow!! Nice Must.be.Skinny!!
Thin.is.my.Goal: How does it feel??!?!?!
Must.be.Skinny: Amazing!! I feel like I can do anything!!
Skin.and.Bones: You can!!
Thinspo: What is your new goal??
Must.be.Skinny: Oh, trust me, I'm not finished yet!! Not even close!! My goal is 110 pounds!!
Skinny.Mini: Dang girl!! I don't have any feeling that you can not do it!!
Tinny.Winny: Totally agree with Skinny.Mini!! You can so do this!!
Need.perfectness: YOU GO GIRL!!
Must.be.Skinny: Thanks guys!! I have full trust in me as well!! I can do this!!
ButterflyAna: We will help you, EVERY step through it!!
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Not Thin Enough
Misteri / ThrillerEveryone has different thoughts about yourself. Some think that they are skinny, fat, stupid, smart, worthless, ugly, beautiful etc. Many people in this whole wide world think they are so fat they don't want to eat, that sad thing that makes people...
