Not Thin Enough

I want to live

Chapter 6

Darkness slowly faded away from my eyes as I saw a TV, get well cards, medicine, and IVs in my right arm. I began to panic and question myself why I am in this hospital room? I slowly see someone I don't even know approach me. She was beautiful, She was wearing a white dress, she had blonde hair with brown highlights.

"W-who are you?" while I see a blur trying to see clearly.

"I'm the one who has been helping you lose weight." She said sitting at my bed. "Wow, this is a pretty good death bed, you must be happy to have such a comfy death bed." She said fixing some of the covers.

"What are you talking about?!?!? Why are you doing this?!?!?" I said screaming, I constantly kept screaming and no one came to save me.

"I am not doing it, you doing this not eating thing is leading you to die so this is all your fault I'm not doing anything, In minutes you will die or you can save you life by eating this food, you have 3 minutes left... you had 5 hours but you were asleep most of it.."

"Ana told me not to!!" I said pushing away the food.

"Okay well do you want me to speed up your death time or do you want to keep the 3 minutes and watch pretty little liars the rest of the time?" She said joking, I bet she was being sarcastic.

"Chill out smart ass" I said looking at the food

I grabbed the food and picked up the fork and put it in my mouth, I "chewed" on it and she looked at me weirdly.

"Good girl, I can leave now. I hope you go on the lead to recovery" she smiled and slowly disappeared, when she disappeared I put the food out of my mouth and laid back.

"I knew you were going to do that!! Eat it!!"

I actually ate it and looked at her.

"Open your mouth!!" She said looking around in my mouth. She backed away and smiled.

"I don't want to die." I said crying.

"Recover and you won't die." She looked deeply in my eyes and stroked my hair.

"Thank you for helping me," I gave her a hug.

"Who are you really?" I said when I saw her leave.

"A girl who died of anorexia even though I had so much to live for," She said turning her head to me.

"When did you die?" I said upsettingly

"Minutes ago if you didn't eat the food," She said smiling and leaving.

I then realized that was my soul coming to tell me that I have so much to live for and that the road to recovering is okay.

I woke up and saw my mom looking at me with my dad by her side.

Mom's POV

I saw Ana wake up and I looked her in the eyes knowing this was the end of my beautiful daughter.

"It's okay honey, you can let go" I told her crying on my husband's shoulder.

My daughter looked around and smiled.

Her eyes looked at her brother, Brandon, she looked into his eyes and reached out for his hand.

"If it hurts Ana, just let go, it's okay" Brandon said looking into her eyes and beginning to cry.

Dad's POV

What happened? What happened to the happy little girl that was always happy and always in a good mood? Where did that all go, Ana is the best daughter I could ask for, I don't understand what happened to her. One day she was smiling and jumping around with me at age 4, the next day she is this girl who would shut herself in her room and not say anything to anyone unless they were still awake at midnight, not eating, not smiling, and not swallowing anything but dieting pills and water.

I walked over to Ana and held her and went down on both of my knees next to her bed.

"We will always love you baby we will always be here for you no matter what happens. Just smile with all of us someday up there above" I said crying.

Ana's ana buddy

I have not talked to Ana in forever I could never forget her, I didn't mean to hurt her. Did I hurt her? I heard an notification on the ana website and it said "Attention everyone!! Must.be.Skinny is no longer into this!!! She is in the hospital and she is about to die from Ana, I am so sorry everyone. Keep her in your prayers." I am so upset I never wanted to hurt her I don't deserve to live anymore, I like killed her!!

"I'm sorry everyone"

I grabbed the pills... I am about to die anyway from anorexia, I am so upset and I have wanted to commit suicide so many times and I need to give up, so I put the pills in my mouth... Put the water in my mouth and felt the pills float around in my mouth. I then swallowed them, I felt the pills working. Darkness filled my eyes and I saw light and ran for it.

Ana's POV

I looked at my mom and put out my hand and she walked to me and I held her hand.

"Mommy, I want to recover." I said slowly and weakly

My mom instantly looked at the doctors.

"This will take a long shot but I think we can do it" The doctor said looking at the family.

My mom gave me a big grin and I fell asleep instantly.