Not Thin Enough

Terrible News...

I got a text from my Ana buddies and they kept asking how everything is going and if I have eaten yet, I could never lie to them but I can not tell them whatsoever either. I haven't hung out with any of my friends at all for weeks, I haven't talked to Adam either, maybe I text him just for a little while...

IN TEXT MESSAGE

Adam: Ana? Are you there?

Me: Yeah... I'm here...

Adam: Oh my God I didn't think you would answer!! Are you okay?

Me: Yeah I'm fine, just busy.

Adam: Well can I see you?

Me: Not today, I don't think that's a good idea...

Adam: Okay, I wish I could help.

Me: Well, I have to go, I love you, bye!

Adam: Okay I love you, call me if you need anything, anything at all.

Me: I will!

Adam: Good.

OUT OF TEXT MESSAGE

I heard a strange knock on my door, I told my mom only to talk to me when important, it can't be that important to interrupt me. I put my phone down and relaxed against my pillows.

"Mom? Is that you? I told you I want to be alone." I said annoyingly

"I know I am so sorry to interrupt at this time." My mom said peeking her head through the door while slowly opening it.

"Yeah mom it's noon, what do you want?" I said sitting up on my bed

As my mom began to sit on my bed while putting her hand on my knee she looked very upset but I didn't really care to be honest I just want her to tell me what's wrong so I can be left alone.

"Honey, there as been an accident." I jumped up straight on the bed because I was starting to get worried.

"What accident?"

"Your brother has been paralyzed from the waist down." she said as she began to sob.

I sat there with sadness in my soul thinking about when I was a kid with my brother playing football together, and that my brother would do anything to help me when something happened to me, when I fell one time I couldn't move, he ran like an Olympic runner to save me. When my mom dried her eyes, she looked at me with worry while I was bawling my eyes out.

"Oh honey, I am so sorry, just because I have to take care of your brother more does not mean I do not love you, I will always take care of you no matter what obstacles are thrown in the way." My mom said as she leaned in for a hug, I hugged her and thought of telling my mom about what has been happening with me, I know it is a crazy thought but she did say that she will take care of me no matter what obstacles, she will still love me, I mean I am her daughter.

"Hey mom? When is he coming back home?" I said drying my eyes with my sweater.

"Tomorrow, is that okay?" she said in a high voice.

"Yes that is perfect I want to see him. How did he get paralyzed?" I said in a calmly matter.

"He was out with some friends and some random guy asked him for money for drugs and while Brandon was trying to save his friends he told the guy that he had no money and drugs are bad and he should get help, the man did not like his answer so he pulled out a gun and said I am going to ask you one last time, give me your money, Brandon said no I do not have any money, the man pulled the trigger, Brandon's friend, tom, jumped towards the gun and pointed it down and the man shot Brandon in his legs, tom hurt the guy real badly and held him down while Jacob, Brandon's other friend called 911 and held the injuries tightly to stop the bleeding, the doctors said it was a miracle for him to survive like that." My mom said walking back and forth while explaining the story.

"Thanks for letting me know mom, I want to go to bed, I will see you later or in the morning," I said slowly laying down on the bed.

"Of course honey, you have been through a lot in the past couple weeks, goodnight, love you sweetie." My mom left the room as soon as she finished talking.

I was so upset and I don't know what to do at this point, as soon as I saw the door close I turned on my TV and in 2 minutes I was asleep.