Not Thin Enough

Adam... You Came...

Chapter 8

I looked around me, I saw my old friends that I lost getting so caught up in losing weight, the stood next to my hospital bed and held my hand.

My best friend, Emily that showed me the Ana website held my skinny hand, I lost all of my weight of my hand so she moved around my fingers and looked up at me.

"Honey, what happened? What made you start all of this?" She said slowly with a tear running down her face.

"You know that website you showed me?" I tried saying with a big breath.

I saw the sadness in Emily's face, she was very disappointed in herself for even showing me the website.

"Hey, hey, hey, Emily, look at me." I said putting trying to put my hand to her chin.

She looked at me and put my hand down to the bed.

"This was my choice, I let my anorexia take over, which I shouldn't have done anyway, it was my choice to go on the website again, it was my choice to stop eating, this was all my choice." I said smiling.

She felt better but was still very upset with herself and what she did. I honestly do not blame her, like I said this was my choice not Emily's.

I then heard the door open and it was my dad and my brother, my brother came up behind Emily, Emily moved once she saw him.

I couldn't see much of him once be came to the bed but I could still see him, he brought his hand up and held my hand.

"Sweetie, I'm sorry I didn't get to talk to you before now."

"I understand Brandon, it's okay, I get it, you just wanted to give me my space" I said smiling.

He smiled at me and rolled back so Emily could go back to the spot she was at.

The doctor came in, looked at his watch and walked up to the group of people.

"Alright everyone, visiting hours are now over it is 8 o' clock now, I gave you guys an extra 15 minutes so better hurry to the sign out before the nurse goes on her break."

The chorus of okays and alrights filled my ears like headphones. Everyone said their goodbyes, gave me a kiss on the forehead, I then rubbed off the lip stick from everyone's kisses, they then left.

"Hey sweetheart, you fell asleep before dad and Brandon would bring the food they went to go get, can you please eat?"

My mom said bending down next to the bed.

"Umm... yeah... I can try."

My mom instantly smiles.

I ate some salad but didn't finish it, I only ate like a quarter of it. I had some soda and once again, didn't finish, I had mostly water after the soda.

I watched pretty little liars and found out who A was and gasped!! I had no idea!! How could she do that to Ali?!? Once the episode ended and a episode of The Fosters that I've already seen before, I started shutting my eyes.

I heard the door open and there was my ex boyfriend that I dated for 3 years but broke up a month ago, slowly came into the room. I gasp and jump from my bed struggling with all the power I had.

"Adam... You came"