Not Thin Enough

HE'S HERE!!

I woke up to the sound of the doorbell, it was 10:00 so I had a feeling it was my brother, I jumped out of my bed and hung on my ledge but then I felt the wood push against my bones making a really bad pain so I jumped off screaming. I startled my mom so bad she jumped!!

"Honey!! Are you okay?!?!" She screamed looking in my eyes, her eyes had so much fear and concern.

I looked at her then looked at my body and my new bruises, I just simple nodded my head because once again she need to keep her full attention onto my brother while he is here. I saw my mom slowly open the door and I saw him... in that wheelchair I felt completely upset and that I wanted to break down. he saw my stomach from the ledge I guess... but when he saw me I saw this feared and confused face when he saw me, but I saw the love in his eyes to see me as well.

I ran to him with all the force I had left. I jumped on top of him, he screamed in pain. i got up and looked at him with fear and concern.

"HAHAHA got you, remember? I can't feel anything." he said dying laughing

I had a little fake laugh in an annoyed way and jumped back onto his lap and gave him a huge hug when his hands touched me he was shocked.

"Wow, Ana, you've lost a lot of weight, you trying to impress some boy? or girl, no judgment." he said letting go of the huge hug I gave him.

I let out a tiny chuckle... to be honest I haven't laughed in a while, "No I actually am not interested in anyone, I'm just trying to lose weight to be healthy, that's all." I looked away instantly because my brother said he could always tell when I was lying through my eyes, I went straight to the kitchen.

"You hungry Brandon?" I said opening the cabinets, my mom wheeled him to the living room

"A little, you can make me anything!! Nothing to big because I might not finish it." Brandon said as he jumped onto the couch off is wheelchair

"You got it," I said as I grabbed grapes, bananas, and apples, then I made a protein shake out of milk, blue berries, ice, and protein powder, as I made all that I heard the little song of pretty little liars and I started to sing it and I heard my brother singing it too!! I ran over to him and started doing the hand gestures with him, when the song ended I jumped on my brothers lap.

"Ive missed you so much!" I said as I gave him the biggest bear hug I could give with all my strength I had left in me.

"I missed you too!" he said grasping for air as I gave him the bear hug.

"I should probably get back to the....*my mind went blank*the....THE FOOD!! Yeah I should finish getting your food." I said pointing and pointing at the food. Brandon laughed quietly. I stood up and went back to making him food, minutes later I brought it to him.

"Wow! Really healthy choices! I remember when you were little and we went to the carnival and you got 2 corndogs, cotton candy, nachos, 2 pretzels and when we went home you were complaining you were STARVING!!" he said as he ate the fruit and when he was finished he drank the protein shake like I should be impressed or something.

Brandon shoved the fruit in my face and made me chew it, when I felt it, it felt amazing I haven't eaten in forever so I grabbed another one, the next thing you know I was making one for myself!! When I was done eating I just realized what I have done!! I ran upstairs and went to the scale and I gained 5 pounds!! I'm now 115 pounds!! I have to throw this up, NOW!! I ran upstairs and threw it up as fast as I could, I ran to the scale after I cleaned up, it was almost gone but I was going to go with it, I only had 1 pound left. When I was walking to my room I felt weak and fell to the ground and my head hid something and I saw my mom running up the stairs, the closer she got, it got more of the dark I saw. I couldn't remember anything after that.