My Only Girl

Chapter 16

Y/n POV

"Y/n...y/n..."

Someone was constantly calling my name....but my body was too lazy to respond but somehow I fluttered open my eyes...only to see a car window reflecting splitting sunrays at my face....I scrunched my face and blinked few times to adjust to the sunlight.....it seemed I slept for a very long time I guess...I turned my face towards my right side only to see Taehyung blinking back at me....utter quietness surrounding us both...I looked and blinked back at him...
I wonder what was he thinking??
His face was radiating the sunrays falling at him....he looked damn handsome...his lips slightly upturned at its corner, his eyes twinkling as if it had millions of galaxies living in them.... shining at its glory...his hair was not properly brushed but yet looked cool...

I felt butterflies flying in my stomach on noticing his strong gaze at me...I touched my cheeks....and what?!....they were burning like hot pan....while I don't know if it was because of this burning sunlight or....his burning gaze....

Taehyung POV

We finally reached to my house....
Yes,my house...I decided to let her stay in my house for few weeks...cuz she couldn't live alone in this condition in her apartment...it is not safe...she needs to be taken care of as she's weak for now....I have decided that even she bickers on this....I will not listen to any of her excuses....last time when I had insisted her on staying at my house....she had directly rejected it....but that time the circumstances were quite different from now....

No matter what....she will have to listen to me this time....

I stopped the car in my house's lobby and opened my seatbelt....then turned towards her....only to see her sleeping peacefully....even in this sun drenching sunshine falling directly on her face....but I will have to admit....the scenery infront of me was ethereal....she looked elegant and pretty as a picture....which I wanted to cherish in my phone....so I did.

I clicked a few pics of her but most of her pictures were showing the side profile of her face...
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It was that time when I realised how sharp her jawline was.... perfectly sculpted...the side curls of her hair on her neck made her look even more beautiful and I wanted to tangle my fingers in them....wait?!!....what am I thinking???....it's just so...ughh!!...I don't know...

I put my phone down and called her name softly in attempt to wake her up...and thank god it did worked....
But...
The scene infront of me left me amazed....I felt my cheeks flushing at the the thought that I was actually drooling over her...
She slowly faced me with her eyes looking small like small marbles, blinking continuously...her face shining brightly with pure elegance and sophistication.....her lips slightly pursed with confusion at first but then she relaxed seeing me and sat straight in her seat now completely facing me.... Blinking more than 50 times in a minute I guess.....but soon she shrugged and looked around....and to my expectations...she squealed in surprise..." Ah!... Taehyung...why did you brought us To your home?....I thought I had told you to drop me at my apartment!!?" She exclaimed.
I broke out of daydream and coughed slightly to hid my red face...I wonder since when I started blushing like a crazy guy....uff!
"Well, I dunno had heard but I ignored it..."

Y/n POV

"Care to explain....why you Ignored it?" I emphasized on the word ignored with air quotation marks....with the help of my fingers.
" Are you....dumb??...like seriously...you think after suffering through this condition,after getting weak and injured....I will allow you to live alone in your apartment....and that's also...all on your own??" He said with a bit of raise in his voice.
But,it didn't affected my stubbornness as I was reluctant to go back home cuz I had to do my home shifting as soon as possible because I was sure that there was very less time left for me in joining my work at my new workplace. Also, I was not at all in the mood to burden him anymore by making my stay in his home,even though now I considered him as my friend. It was too much to ask for a stay....he had already done so much for me that I could never return it back to him....never.
"No....I want to go back my apartment....try to understand...I have to join my work at my very new workplace...I have many things to prepare for before I join work....it's one of the biggest opportunities I have got till now in my career...I can't risk it....my shifting has also got hanged in middle and I feel restless about it....take me to my hom-" I got cut off by an angered Taehyung which I least expected at the moment, I flinched as he shouted " Have you lost your sense??....I guess you have... that's why your are talking this way....FYI let me remind you what the doctor told you to do... Have you forgot that he said that you need rest for sometime now and also an eye keeper to look after you as you are so weak to stay by yourself for now.....and here you're talking about joining your freaking work and shifting?!!....your job is at more importance than your health for you...huh?!...you can't take risk with your job but can take risk with your health??!!!...right?!!....come on now...think with your senses Y/n...for god's sake!!" He ended.
Well, it was surprising for me to see him acting this way....he talked with me with raise in his voice.... which I truly didn't appreciate at all....it hurt my pride and ego...even though it was meant for my sake...I don't care at the moment but my blood boiled with anger....all my emotions suming up which were bottled up due to my stress these past days and broke free even before I could have controlled them.
" Wtf?!??....mr. Kim Taehyung but I don't appreciate your raised voice at all at me....you should respect my decisions...it doesn't mean that you can meddle in between if I have given you the label of a friend....and please...please stop recalling me that I am weak and injured and what not....for the hell's sake...I hate it of being recalled about it again and again....and don't dare to call my work 'freaking' for the sake of me if you do care so much about me because its the earning of my hard work and my mother's sacrifice....it costed all my blood,sweat and tears!!!
I have always lived on my own terms and will always do....I know you are being protective of me but please don't....because I really can't return you back all the things you have already done for me.... ple-ase!!" I said as tears threatened to fall from my eyes.
He was....shocked. His mouth was hung open as if he didn't expected any of this....but the feeling which was more obvious on his face was...hurt.
He was hurt by my words but I was occupied by my own feelings that I shrugged it....and sat there looking at him....to speak something.
His voice faltered as he tried to speak "umm...y/n I am sorry...I hurt you...I didn't meant to raise my voice at you but all I just wanted was to ensure that you were....safe. I didn't wanted to interfere in your personal life and from now on I will try not to repeat this ever again....but at least hear to my just one beg.... stay at my house.... atleast not for yourself then... atleast for me....cuz I will be at ease to see you safe and sound infront of my eyes....please just once..." His voice shuddered.
I actually felt bad but without saying anything I went out of his car and entered his house quickly....he soon followed me inside.
Through the corner of my eyes I saw there was a glint of happiness on his face but yet he looked sad....must be because of my anger that flowed out like river without dam...
He silently led me to a king sized bedroom and I stood there looking at the decorations in an awe...he got out for a split of seconds and came back with two suitcases and set them infront of me....
"Well,I had told the driver to bring your clothes from your home using your keys that were in your purse....I didn't wanted to see you freaking out for your clothes....I am sorry if it did bothered you...." He said and before I could even have thanked him for his kind gesture he....left.
And, shut the door.
I stood there in complete silence....
The silence killed me and I looked around. I felt ache....somewhere after a very long time. I felt an ache in my heart....it was shuddering me...I never meant to hurt him....a precious soul like him...I cursed myself and my emotions for letting them take over me so easily and which in return made me ill-treat him.
I felt like a culprit....and collapsed down on my knees on the cold ground with my tears flowing uncontrollably....
I couldn't help it...it's my past that has made me so iron hearted I guess....well I never try to be like that....I like to be independent and live my life on my own terms....just like my father. I am soft-hearted and kinda emotional which my dad always used to tell me....he was just the same. Taehyung was not the first person whom I had hurted with my words and letting my feelings take the best of me....I had even hurted my best of the bestest friends and as a result lose them forever....a few of them even though used to contact me in between at time but they too sided themselves after a few attempts.
That's the reason why I also didn't mingled well with my colleagues from my previous workplaces. I feel myself to be so much of an egoist and arrogant at times but my mother feels the opposite...she says I am not like that....it's just my emotions that have been bottled up in me since the very time I lost the best friend of my life...my dad. I wish if he was here....he would have supported and held my back always and also give me advice to walk ahead in life....but unfortunately...he didn't.
I didn't said that my mother never tried to play the role of a father as well in my life...but at the time she was more hurt than me...more bruised than me....cuz she had lost the love of her life....the life partner of her life with whom she had vowed to spend the rest of her life... basically had lost her lifeline....and thus was herself needed support to walk through the hardest part of her life and as the destiny would have...I was always present there by her side to rescue her....

I knew Taehyung was something of a kind of a gift for me in disguise....or himself a god for me...a hint of my father's presence....who saved my life...and was like a pillar of support by my side who stood with me during my hard times....just like...my father would have if he was alive...
I cried even more at the thought and rubbed my face with my palms....so as to calm myself.
I stood and went to the bed and plopped myself. Hiding my face in pillow, I cried and cried not knowing how to face him afterwards. My continuous sobs turning into hiccups and my throat started itching.
I wanted to apologise to him very badly!!
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I had hurt him badly, which he never deserved at all....