sex partners // louis

Chapter 18

"Louis?" I whisper.

We're standing on my front porch.

"Yeah, Ab?" Holy fucking shit he looks so hot in the moonlight.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

he pulls me towards him for a kiss, but I peck him on the lips and pull away.

"You're a tease, you know that?" he says. I smirk. "I know."

He hugs me, and it just feels so right..

"Night Abby." "Night Boobear." He kisses my cheek. "I'll see you soon?" "Can you swing by tomorrow?" "Hell the fuck yeah." "See you tomorrow, then." "Bye Lou." "Byeeeee." He blows me a kiss as he gets in his car and drives away.

When I walk into the house, I see my mum and Perrie standing there.

"What?" I say. "You gonna explain?" my mum says. I sigh. "I love him. Is that a crime?" "A very obvious one." Perrie says. I smile. "We're dating." My mum jumps over to me, hugging me. "You two are so perfect!" she exclaims. "Thanks, mum. Can I go to bed? It's been a long day." She smiles. "Of course. Good night sweetie." "Night mum, night Perrie."

Closing my bedroom door behind me, I flop onto my bed. I'm so tired.

Oh my god. It just hit me. Not only do I have a boyfriend, I'm no longer a Virgin. Is this what it feels like to live? Holy shit! It's amazing! Louis was SOO good, too..

I pull my phone out of my purse and call Niall. I need to tell him.

"Hello?" "Niall? Hey." "Abby! What's up?" "First, how was your date with Harry?" "Date?" "Come on, Niall! It's obvious you lot have feelings for eachother!" He sighs. "We're actually a couple now.." I smile. "That's awesome!" "Thanks, Abby." "Me and Louis are a couple, too." "Hold up- you and Louis are a couple? When did this happen??"

I tell him the story of our magical night- minus the part about consummating our relationship..

"Well, since it's 1:00 am, I think I'm gonna sleep now. I'm gonna chill with Lou this afternoon." "Night Abby." "Night Nialler." "Thanks for today." "What do you mean?" "If you and Louis wouldn't of left, me and Harry wouldn't be, you know.." "You're welcome. Homies help homies, always. Kay?" "Night." "Night."

I hang up, and set my phone on my nightstand. I'm too tired to even change my clothes.

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"A-Ab-Abby.." I hear faintly. "Abby... Wake up.." I open my eyes. Ugh, the light in here is too bright. I sit up, only to see my mum sitting there.

"Abby.." She is crying; shaking. "Mum?" I say. She looks at me. Her bloodshot, tear-filled eyes are filled with pain and sorrow. Kind of like the way they did when daddy died..

"Louis.." "What about him?" "He's in the hospital." "What? Why?" "He's been having these pains, and he went to have them checked out.." Where is this going? What's wrong with him? "And..?" "He has cancer."

No. This isn't happening.. No..

"He's not doing well." She whispers. I jump out of bed. "We're going to see him." I say. I grab the keys off the kitchen table and run out the door.

Tears flowing down my face, I turn the key, starting the car. My mum gets in the passenger seat, and I take off. "Slow down, Abby!" she shrieks, but I don't seem to hear her. Her voice seems so distant..

I run into the lobby, and straight to the front desk. "L-Louis Tomlinson." "Room 217." the lady says.

I wipe my still pouring tears as the elevator doors close. Why the fuck is this happening.

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I see Niall and Harry standing outside the room.

"Abby." Niall says, embracing me with a hug. "Where's Louis." He motions into the room.

I stumble as i walk in.

There he is. My boyfriend. Laying helpless in a hospital bed.

When he sees me, his eyes light up.

"Abby." he whispers. "Louis..." I burst into more tears. "What h-happened?" I ask him, my voice shaky.

His voice drops lower, even though there's no one else in the room but us.

"You know the last time I was in here, I thought I was gonna die." He whispers to me. "When you got attacked?" "Yeah. But look at me now." "Are you saying you're going to die?" "What? No- I'm saying the exact opposite." Still crying, I sit down in the chair next to him. "What did the doctor say?" "They ran tests for a while, but it's definitely cancer. He said Acute Myeloid Leukemia." I put my hand to my mouth. "Louis.." I can't even talk. Why did this have to happen to him? Why not to me?

I must have had my head down, crying, for a while, because I feel him put his hand on my shoulder. "Ab? It's going to be okay." I look up at him, and I can see that he was crying, too. "I promise. Everything's going to be okay." "That's the same thing my mum said to me about my dad." I whisper, my voice hoarse. "I love you, Abby. We'll get through this together." I stand up and walk over to the door. Shaking, I grip the handle, pulling it open. I can't stand to see him like this. "Abby?" I hear him say from behind me. I'm crying too hard to let him see.

As soon as I get out the doors of the main entrance, I take off at a run. I run until I get to the car, and then I climb in. Still shaking, I start it and drive away. I can hardly see anything. My mind is fogged up, and my eyes are full of tears.

Once I make it home, I slam the door and run into the house. There's nobody home, so I can do what I have to..

Once the door is locked behind me, I pull out the little box under my bed. Opening it, I pick up the blades from inside.

I take them to my wrists, slitting the skin, and watching the blood wash my worry away. For now.
I pull out the rest of the contents of the box. Still crying. My arms are filled with a sharp pain, now, too.

I close my eyes for a minute. "I love you, Louis." I whisper, ever so quietly.

Walking outside, I throw the rope over the branch of our oak tree, and pull the knot tight. I climb up after it. Making sure the loop is secure around my neck, I position myself. Taking a deep breath, I wipe away my tears.

I loosen my grip on the tree. I'm ready. Maybe I'll get to see Louis soon, since we're both going to be in the same place..

"Abby!" I hear softly. "Abby, stop!" I see two figures running around the side of the house, and I let myself slip off the branch. Goodbye...

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Sorry thus chapter is so depressing. I'm just kinda in a depressing mood today. My dads in the hospital, and yeah. Ily guys