Walk All Over You

Chapter Thirty-Seven

Slowly fluttering open my eyes, I listened to the quiet tunes of an acoustic guitar playing and the humming of someone's voice. My head ached in pain as I rolled onto my back, reaching up and rubbing the sides of my temples. Where was I?

Sitting up and hissing to myself from the amount of pain my head was going through, I stared at the corner of the room to find Nikki sitting on a chair embracing his guitar like it was his pride and joy. His eyes were shut and his fingers gracefully ran along the metallic strings.

The last thing I remembered was that I was running from Nikki and Axl then ended up getting stuck in a tiny wine cellar with Steven. Everything else was blacked out. I was still completely embarrassed by what Nikki and I had done, my mind was all over the place.

Nikki's playing of the guitar seemed to of gotten loud and his fingers were running along the strings at a quick pace. I had to get out of the room, I needed time on my own where I could piece together what happened and what is actually going through my head. I knew of Nikki saw me awake he wouldn't allow me to go anywhere. Quietly pushing off the blankets, I turned on the bed and planted my feet firmly on the ground, the cool temperature of the floor causing me to yelp in surprise. Unfortunately that was when Nikki's eyes opened, a smile crossing his face.

"Morning sunshine." He grinned looking ever so pleased.

"What are you so pleased about?" I narrow my eyes at him, completely infuriated. My head was aching and I wasn't in the mood to laugh or smile. If now was the time I could turn into the devil, it would be perfect for my mood.

"You know, life in general. What has you in such a foul mood?" He smiled, his eyes were playful as he stared.

"Bite me." I simply reply, looking away and holding my head in my hands. I think I drank too much wine with Steven.

Feeling my stomach turn all so suddenly, I leapt from the bed surprising Nikki and disappeared into the bathroom. Dropping to my hands and knees and hovering over the toilet, I lurched out the wine that was in my gut, bringing up nasty stomach acids as I did. Nikki had managed to drop nearby and hold my hair from out of my face, his other hand also rubbing thoroughly over my back. I felt better after vomiting it up but the pain in my head was what had me angry and you could say very accusing and bitchy. Sighing, I reached up for some toilet paper and used some to wipe my mouth before throwing it into the toilet bowl and flushing it down.

"Thanks." I murmur, standing up and not even taking a moment to look at Nikki, which was something Nikki didn't expect himself. He was just waiting for me to turn to him, look him in the eye and smile. Nope.

Heading over to the sink, I washed my hands, rinsed out my mouth and splashed some water against my face. Slowly turning my head, I noticed Nikki holding out a brand new tooth brush and a tube of toothpaste. Gratefully taking the tube and brush, I took a few moments to brush my teeth, leaving the fresh minty taste on my tongue.

"Cheers." I put on a small smile for Nikki's sake. Feeling my head thump and spin slightly, whilst it was in pain, I laid back down on the bed. Nikki now had wandered over to the opposite side of the bed with a glass of water and two white pills, obviously painkillers. It somehow felt like he was following me around like a lost puppy, one that wanted all of my attention and at times when I wasn't quite in the mood or happy with Nikki, it got annoying.

Rolling my eyes, I took the pills and downed them with the water, giving him an appreciative nod. My plan now was to sleep off the killer of a hangover Nikki walked away without a word, leaving me to close my eyes, lay onto my side and relax. That was what I thought at least.

The bed creaked and grew heavy and not a few seconds later, a body shuffled up closer to mine. His chest compressed against my back and his arms wrapped around me, Nikki was spooning me. Snapping my eyes open, I stared ahead before I spoke, not in a friendly tone either.

"What are you doing?" The words, one at a time slipped out of my mouth, accusing him.
Nikki was silent for a split second before he spoke. His voice reminding me of an innocent child who was frightened to get into trouble.

"I-I thought we could cuddle." His voice was firm but even I could notice the nervousness hidden in between. His words had caught me off guard, he sounded like a frightened child and I had no reason to snap anymore. Besides I didn't really know what to say, I mean what do you reply after someone says that?

Keeping dead silent, I couldn't find any words to reply back nor did I really have the courage to shove him away like I had been, I simply fluttered close my eyes. Nikki's grip tightened on me a couple of seconds later, just like the grip of a snake, his cool breath hit the back of me before I felt his lips brush against the back of my neck.

"I love you Suzie-Q." He whispers, laying another kiss against my skin. Now that was something I could snap at, especially with being in such a foul mood I was going to snap at that. Opening my eyes, I stared at the wall, burning a hole through the wall, metaphorically.

"You don't even know what love is, even if it hit you like a semi truck." I retort.

"I don't know what love is? You think I don't know what love is?" Nikki repeated, surprise in his voice. "I know exactly what love is, I know what it's like to love someone until it hurts you know why? Cause I love you and sometimes that brutally hurts."

"Oh yeah just like you love the rest of the women you wanted, you would fuck 'em bring up their hopes and their self esteem then a month later throw them out into the gutter to find a new rag doll. Yeah Nikki that sure is love." I sarcastically reply.

"Those women I never loved, they were simply a good fuck. Note the difference Sue. I know specifically what love is, I know I love you. My heart is locked on you, nobody else. So in fact you don't know if I know love or not. You don't know what goes through my head nor how I feel about you inside, how am I suppose to know when you told me that you loved me, that you meant it and knew what love is?" Nikki twists my words and now directed it at me. That sure as hell hit me hard, smacked me right in the mouth as it seemed.

"Don't twist my words, I know I've loved you from the beginning. I know what it's like to feel love for someone."

"How am I suppose to know that you aren't just saying you love me though? Suzie-Q it's my word against yours otherwise you might as well go around and tell everyone who knows they're in love that they're not and they are lying sons of bitches." Nikki chuckled. Yeah Nikki had me biting my tongue, he sure as hell had a point and it had me feeling stupid. He was right.

"So as I said, it's my word against yours. My heart is set on you with a burning passion, I love you Suzie. I just wished you would let me put my love into you, then you'd see." He whispers, lifting himself up and leaning over my body to look at me. His piercing green eyes hopelessly stared into my own as I turned my head to look at him.

"I love you Suzie-Q and no matter how much you accuse me of not I will continue to. I don't care if you snap at me, call me names, insult me or even knock me on my ass like you have once before. You can't tell me I don't love you, that's hypocritical. I fucking love you and will keep telling you that until you believe me yourself." His eyes never once left mine.

"So again." He pauses, breaking out into a charming smile as I managed to lay onto my back and look up at him, my face emotionless. My face may be emotionless but I was an emotional wreck on the inside. "I fucking love you." He repeats, speaking slowly yet fluently. Keeping my mouth shut, I simply observed him closely. Nikki's cheeks glowed a tinge of red and his eyes continuously glowed as per usual. Keeping the smile across his face, he lent down pecked me on the lips and rested his head against my breast and cuddled against me.
Slowly moving my arm, I wrapped it around him for my comfort, to which his grin seemed to widen as he nuzzled against me with his eyes shut.

Nikki had me choked on my words, he for once made sense and it seemed like he had actually put me into my place. I didn't mind though, it just starstruck me and got me thinking more. Closing my eyes, I listened to Nikki's calm breathing, trying to fall asleep myself.