Hailee x Reader One-Shots

⚠️Caught⚠️

A/N: Hailee x Reader

This was requested by: ceesuuu

Thank you so much for 38, 39 AND 40k! I really appreciate all the love and support that you guys are giving me, I honestly don't deserve it aha <3 Btw I do start school tomorrow again, I'm back from the break but I will try to post as much as I can but practise prelims are coming up along with prelims so, I really need to start revising for stuff.

I'm already going into a depressive episode so this should be fun.

TW: Self-harm

Summary: Hailee catches the reader self-harm and finds out about her addiction

If you are triggered by self-harm then I do recommend that you skip this chapter as self-harm isn't something that should be taken lightly as it is a big thing that a lot of people do and some do it without even realising it like pinching your own skin, in the one-shot "Panic Attack" when the reader pinches her skin, at that moment in time, I didn't know that counted as self-harm but it is.

I also would light to mention something about Anxiety and Panic attacks as I've seen a few writers get confused between the two and mix them up. (By the way, this is just how I would describe it, others might describe it differently) Some writing that the Anxiety attack happened all of a sudden, but that isn't an Anxiety attack, that's a Panic attack. Panic Attacks are what happens randomly and sort've just happens but an Anxiety attack can be from built up stress or other reasons.

But anyway! Now that that's out of the way, let's get on with this chapter!

HERE WE GO!

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Y/N's POV:

Of course, I don't mean to do it, I never mean to do it. But it's not a big deal. It's never a big deal. I just am struggling a little right now and Hailee isn't coming back for another couple of hours, so, I have the house to myself. I can't seem to be able to do my normal stuff. Normally, I can game; write, read, watch TV, anything. But I can't focus and I can't get one thing out of my head that I haven't done today...

I hate admitting it but I'm seated on the couch right now staring at the knife in the kitchen while my foot is bouncing. I quickly get up and speed-walk over toward the knife, grabbing it. I rush to the bathroom and lock the door; I look at myself in the mirror as I place the sharp point of the knife on a part of my wrist and slowly begin to drag it down, I can already feel the blood soothing out of my skin and I let out a small groan and set the knife down.

I already regret this. I hate it. I hate this, I hate myself. Why? Why do I do this? I don't know.

I cover my mouth as I try to stop myself from letting out any noise in pain, although I'm home alone, I need to get used to the pain. I go to create another line causing my blood to fall out, I set it down and place my right hand on the counter gripping it in pain and take a sharp breath and slowly release the breath between my gritted teeth. I feel a tear fall down my cheek and I wipe it away before it falls; I hear the front door unlock and open, my eyes widen at this.

"No." I mumble, I sigh and turn the tap on cleaning the knife; I turn the tap off and hear Hailee,

"Baby? Where are you?" She asks loudly, I turn the tap off and look around trying to find a cover for the knife, "Baby!" She calls out for me, I ignore her and sigh as I rest my head against the counter, and let out a small groan in annoyance.

"Yeah?" I shout back,

"Where are you?" She asks me, trying to find me. I pause for a moment and sigh,

"B—Bathroom." I exclaim, she walks over and tries to open the door but because I locked it, she couldn't get in,

"Is everything okay in there?"

"...No..." I breath out, Hailee attempts to open the door as I feel pain in the arm that I cut,

"Y/n, open the door, please."

"No... I—I want to be alone..." I mumble, Hailee sighs at this and continues to try and open the door.

"Y/n, please, just... open the door. Will you?" She asks me, I sigh and as my heart tells me to do it, my mind flushes with thoughts of her not caring and just asking because she has too. I subconsciously unlock the door and let Hailee in, she opens the door and stares me down, her eyes immediately staring at the blood falling down from my wrist and the knife on the sink. "Y/n... did..." She lets out a small breath, tears building in her eyes that she tries to fight back, "did you do this?" She asks me, I turn to her, tears falling down my face.

"I—I think I need help..." I mumble and show her the small cuts on my wrists, her eyes widen slightly as tears begin to fall from her eyes and her breathing hitches while she takes an inhale in.

"Come here, love, come here." Hailee tells me softly as she reaches her hand out for me, I place my right hand on hers as she placed her left hand under the two cuts on my left wrist. "We're gonna go take you to the hospital okay?"

"H—Hospital?" I ask her confused,

"Baby, we can't heal this with our stuff. It needs to be treated carefully." She sobs out trying to fight back her tears,

"I—I'm... I'm sorry... I—"

"No, no, it's okay. It's okay." She whispers as she rests her forehead against mines and strokes my cheekbones, tears falling down her face, "You don't have to apologise, just when did you start?"

"A... A few months ago..." I mumble.

"...Months...?" She asks me, I nod my head which she just nods her head and rushes to grab something to wrap around it, she grabs one of her t-shirts.

"No, I'll ruin it—"

"I don't care about a stupid t-shirt! I care about you. Now hold this," She says as she wraps it around, I take a sharp inhale at the pain, "I know it hurts, come on, let's go." She tells me.

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We arrive at the hospital and since there wasn't much people there, I got seen straight away.

"How did this happen?" The doctor asks me, I look down and as Hailee is about to speak, I speak up.

"Fell... on some glass. I pulled it out, It was a dumb move because I know that when you have a wound with a shard or something that stops more blood from spurring out. Sorry, ma'am." I quickly explain and nod my head. The girl looks at me,

"You in Medical School?"

"Oh, no, I just thought it was common knowledge." I answer truthfully, she gives me a small smile as she attends to my arm and puts a bandage over it, she gives me painkillers and sends me and Hailee off.

"Can we talk about it?"

"Hailee—"

"No, we're not just gonna move past this. It's a serious thing." Hailee states which I sigh at, "You would do the exact same if you found me like that."

"Well yeah, because I love you." I snap at her, "I love you, do you think I love myself? No. I don't. It's the lack of self-respect that I have and I don't have your perfect parents that reminded you that you could do anything. Want to know what my parents told me? 'Stop faking being depressed' 'Just suck it up, you'll be fine'. I didn't have that." I express to her and sigh, my eyes falling to the ground.

"You love me?"

"Of course, I love you." I quickly reply. She wraps an arm around my neck and pulls me close to her, I turn to her and wrap my arms around her waist, I hold her close and quickly begin to break down into her arms,

"I know, baby, everything's gonna be okay."

"I'm sorry." I sob out, she places her hand in my hair and gives me head scratches.

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