Love and Heartaches

54 - TURNED OUT TO PIECES

- Joey -

I saw Rich walkingng away from me. A sad face instead of smile.

While he's fading like s smoke or fog from my eyes .

Why , is he leaving me now,? For real ?  All alone ? how can you , why?

Uttering while my mouth  closed. Shouting without words .( struggling ...... ( my mind )

However my heart beating and racing so fast. Why things happening not the way I want.

Don't leave m3  wait for me ......,!!!!

You promised you'll stay .! Crying.....

Rich ! ! !

As I remember he hugged me as much as he could  till , my mind mind and heart turned out ok.

Even if things happened unexpectedly I know there were always been a reason.

Isn't it too much for us ,, ?

I  woke up  shaking while sweating like an ice.
I open my eyes slowly .

It's a good weather and a morning .
But it feels weird and the aura isn't good.
When  I looked at the clock it's 10 am .
No one inside the room , no Rich Lavista beside me.

Now I realised nightmare turns to reality. 
I had  a nightmare !
A scary nightmare. !
In almost middle of the day .

I looked around again trying to find him.
But he isn't around...
Night after the commotion....  no phone , no news at all.
Why do I feel anxious about something . 
When I heard someone knocking on the door.

" ohh , you're awake now ". He said  while looking at me  teasingly.

Without saying anything I hug  him tightly.  While  tears coming.

It takes a while when I noticed him smiling secretly.

" hummm . .. " teasing me

I  realised I'm wearing one of his shirts below my knees ( thanks for that tshirt ) and pajamas who makes me like one of the weirdos.

Blushing all of a sudden . While he's try8ng to hide his smile from me.

From what I remembered I was crying hard  ,, he gave me something to wear last night, ,.

Imagining something like that ,,, oh my ,,,,,,, what kind of embarrassment I had to deal,,,

" I thought you left me here " while biting one of  my nails.
He hugged me again and put his right hand on my forehead same with him.

"You're sweating ,something isn't right you had a fever "

" no I'm fine "

" you're not in a good shape . You're eyes telling that you're not fine. "

" I told you I was really worried , .....  you might leave .  "

" why ?  do you think  I'll do that ? Kind of hiding ......... something like that   Joey , ?

I'm not going to do that again , not anymore ,, here ?  " giving a 3 paper bags.

" I ask some sales lady to get that for you . 
There's a clinic  on the corner I'm afraid you might collapse in anytime.
and saying No doesn't exist in my vocabulary , alright  "

" thanks " noding

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