Love and Heartaches

55 - GOODBYE MY PRINCESS

- Melba -

" hey ! Talk to me ! "

The first word came from her mouth.
I know what will she' say.
But I'm more than embarrassed rather than disappointed .
Not from her words and  nagged      but from my whole  actions.

" we're all worried . What happened. ?
  You ! I always understand you , right .
I never been embarrassed nor disappointed in you all this time .

But Joey this isn't counted I can't tolerate you .
You've done something wrong.

Peter ,,,  he waited for you for a long time.
He even went to your house after he heard some bad news from nanayL.

just to looked for you."

I didn't say anything .
Looking at her I understand where she's coming from.
I wanted to say something but my mouth couldn't say any word.

I realised tears flowing.
Mild to hard.
Her arms open for me again .
words may not come but her actions makes me feel better at least.
She believes in me .

" I know , that I did something terrible but Melba ..... I probably ...
I might hurt those persons I loved the most and important to me too . "

" Joey , what's really going on ?
There's no secret between us , right ?
Do you even care for me or treated  me as your b friend "

" im sorry , i only think about myself.  But .... I tell you everything from the very beginning "

I have no choice but to tell her everything.
It wasn't an assurance for being friends ......... ... I trusted her enough.

I trusted her and she's one of the few whom I can truly rely on.
Im not asking her to understand me more but the burden inside of me is too much that I cant  handle anymore.

" how could this things happened to you , and Rich .
Rich , he probably love  you too much more than yours .

The way he endure the pain just to protect your feelings , I can't believe and imagine it.

But Joey her family won't accept this kind of situation both of you are in.

What are you going to do now huh "

" im afraid Melba .
To think about it ,, depending upon myself, I don't think I have the confidence to decide on my own. "

" yeah right , at this age at this point adults always the one to be followed.

You're scared to decide and choose your path.
Wether we like it or not hurting our pride and emotions and love ones this is all uncontrollable "

Right loving someone else is not always possible in every people. in each situations.

Now I think im one of those.
Loving and beloved , right,, just like a fairytale

In every successful love story .
But in  reality most of the time failures , sadness occurs and exist unexpectedly.

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Day passes 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 ,5 , --------- no Peter appeared ...

" where are you ,
Are you still disappointed in me
You're making me  more bad
Im really worried  about you to death" I said while playing my guitar.

I heard someone behind me .,,,  sounds very familiar.

" do you really worried about me ?   thaT much  ? " it was Peter
Just like what he said I found myself hugging him too tight