Love and Heartaches

6-Convincing+Knowing

-Joey-

When I was young I always heard the word "princess" its my dad . Nobody called me like that except for him I miss him so much. I suddenly stop thinking when I heard Melba asking me what to do about the foundation day. "What are we going to do ? we don't have enough time , try to convince them"." But how..."

it's been two weeks after the incident at the gym. Every time I'm asking them about the foundation they keep ignoring me . O my pano na ang grade nmin nakasalalay pa nmn dto it's an activity and at the same time charity for the oldies. Although magkakatabi kami dedma pa rin. I really don't know how to convince them. And the truth is that I don't have enough courage to ask them. I saw Peter walking at the corridor..

" excuse me ...hmm about the foundation day can you at least try ....I know your not interested but pls .... just this time." he ignores me but suddenly stop walking." you know what princess ...." I interfere "stop it... why are you calling me that for second time. perhaps do you know me... before?" when he tried to ignore me again..." well if you really don't want to cooperate at least show yourself later at the meeting before leaving the school....and I'm going to ask you again for something." I walk fast as I can... hingal kaya maglakad ng mabilisan.I found my self at the side stairs 4th floor, I haven't told you that.we're in that floor. "shsssss...hay....."I sigh....while stomping my feet when I hear someone snoring .Its Rich he's sleeping while leaning at wall." bat andito siya, is this really my day after the ass follows the dem...."

"Stop murmuring I'm not in the mood now to sleep you're so loud. Why are you here this is my place, who told you that I'm a demon do you even know me? Ha." nganga LNG ang peg ko mahina kaya ang pagkasabi ko.Nilayasan niya ko why is it I had a bad feeling after that, hay .... sabay untog ng ulo sa dingding wala LNG bad trip I really had a bad day. But still my conscience is bothering me I'm not a person who easily judge, do I have to reflect.? After that I go back to our class since its English time. I'm in the middle of this two but I feel I'm not existing. The worst thing is that I'm not listening I don't even understand what the lesson is all about. Maybe because I'm not used to get involved in a particular situation like this. My mind is anywhere till the end of the class.

"I'm sorry ....for..w...hat happened before. I didn't mean it..hmmm..really." I said while his not even looking at me .

"I said I'm sorry can you just forgive me..Please don't ignore me I'm doing my best to understand you but I think its not right to...."

"Shut up!!"will you! if you really feel sorry towards me keep your mouth shut and don't disturb me in any ways. About that foundation I really don't care do you understand now!!"

Nganga lang ang peg ko. All of my classmates are looking at me that's the time I feel so humiliated. I tried my best to hold my anger but .....oh my is this tears.....slowly running..... no no....stop it control your feelings...... I run to the comfort zone (c.r.) secret place of everyone trying to ease and calm. It's the place hopefully I'm the only one around. After crying silently I walk away from that place. Luckily we don't have any class anymore the two hours left was just a remedial . I notice that no one in that room am I allowed to go there? I don't mind no one is inside..

MUSIC ROOM

Wow a lot of instruments I saw two of my favorite... instruments.... drums and guitar. I'm hesitating to grab one of them but I'm not in the mood I'm so lonely and my tears keeps on falling. I remember my dad how he taught me using guitar and drums. He taught me to use any instrument to change my mood to take away my so called desperation.

(singing my own version)

A NEW DAY HAS COME-Celine Deon

-Guitar-

I was waiting for so long

for a miracle to come

Everyone told me to be strong

Hold on and don't shed a tear.

Through the darkness and good times

I knew I'd make it through

And the world thought I had it all

But I was waiting for you

chorus

Hush Love

I see a light in the sky oh,

it's almost blinding me

I can't believe I've been touched by an angel

with love

Let the rain come down

and wash away my tears

Let it fill my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

When it was dark now there's light

Where there was pain now there's joy

Where there was weakness

I found my strength

All in the eyes of a boy

repeat chorus

........................... ...... ...... ....

A new day has come....

But I'm still , still crying silently....

"I miss you so much dad"......