Love and Heartaches

47- I'LL HATE YOU NOW

- Joey -

Two weeks after , the shocking revelation struck on me. Hoping I won't discover any more shocking thing more than that.

The doctor said I was just stress , but the real thing is I almost got a heart problem and the reason it's emotionally and depression long time ago.

When you Got sick because of colds or anything, it's curable . When you're depressed it's more on emotionally and scars takes a lot time or the worst .

I had an history about that since dad and I are not in good terms. No mom by my side no friends either.

Im a girl who has nothing, , but when I met Rich I found beauty in life. As if I was reborn.

But I dont think the Princess , will be able to have a happy ending now. Im suddenly startled when my dad trying to comfort me.

Using his fingers trying to comb my hair im not used to that . I had no choice but to pretend im in my deep sleep since its a habit.

" Princess , hows my princess hummm. Im sorry, I'm sorry . " dad's unexpectedly saying those words to me .

Dad's crying while tapping my shoulder and combing my hair carefully with his fingers.

" im sorry for being your father. Irresponsible father I'm sorry princess . I thought im going to lost you,,,

I'll regret so much not taking care of you. A father like me I must punished, right.

Maybe God ,,, he's beginning already, , it must be me huhmm It should be me not you princess.

I hurt you , im sorry it's not too late , right ? in time you'll know. You have to be strong , for now be strong , my life will be nothing if I lost you too. "

I didn't notice my tears fallen already. I cried silently to not be noticed . He stay for a while and a bit more ,.. .

He loves me whatever his reason for ignoring me someday I'll know it but for now he give strenght to face everything.

" Joey . Are you alright ? Im sorry for what happened ."nanayL

" don't say that we talked about already im fine now. Thank you for everything because of you I'm not going to hurt my dad. "

" Joey "

" my dad whatever his reason I won't mind anymore . He loves me I'll be a good daughter for him . I won't ask for mom anymore "

I started to cry but it's a different feeling than before. I wanted to have a new life without hatred inside instead love.....

" Joey , I know something's going on between you and Rich. "

" how,, "

" both of you are young , enjoy being young maybe you're hurt now but someday you'll be happy.

Love is not just about happiness it's everything even loosing someone , face everything do not run from it. "

She left me with a smile. I know he's trying to encourage me since I can't hide my real me inside.

I called Tom to ask favor I have to be strong for my dad and myself.

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" can you do me a favor Tom,,? " I ask him

" are you ok? "

" hummm can you asked Rich to meet me he won't take my call. Can you do that for me, "

" Joey "

" I know Tom but can you do this last favor. I have to ask him something it won't take long. "

" he's in R. Sports bar , Joey will you really be alright "?

" Tom thanks dont worry anout me "

" Miss we're here in R. Sports bar . " taxi driver told me

I don't know what will happen to me but I mak3 up my mind . I saw Tom smiling at me wh8le waving.

" Joey! Wow look at you now how are you. "?

" im good , thanks for your help "

" it's not my place to say this but Rich he's really worried about you. Trust him hummm "

I just smile and then walk. ?.. honestly it feels nice hearing those words.

" hey guys have you seen Rich ,? " its Tom asking those people around

" Rich Lavista is getting more popular with the girls again ," one of the boys smiling sarcastically

" he's with Selena , that room " pointing out the room

" ahh m, Selènas family owns this place I'll call him "

" no let me " though im scared but still I went Tom follows. There's no need for me knock coz it's unlock and a little open.

Shocking scene I witness they're kissing each other and it turns out they notice me.

" yeah don't you know how to knock ? " Rich talking while looking at me.

I'll admit im shock but more on my tears beginning to fall I just hold it atleast for myself since Selena is around.

" can we talk " while my voice is shaking

Selena walk away with Tom but before that she says something turns my heart hurt more.

" what do you feel now, it's like end of the world right " insulting me

Silence between us I look at him but he doesn't talked till I broke it.

" why , what's the real score between you two. Are you really dating her ? " my tears I cant hold it anymore

" we broke up Joey if you keep doing this I might stop going school "

" what, ! Will you blame me ? I want an answer Rich and this is the last time Im going to ask you.

Do you really want to break up with me? You're not going to regret it. "

" stop it Joey , do you really want to heard e... everything ! Stop lingering on me move on now. Keep it at least for your pride "

" lingering on you maybe you're right . when I started to walk her I lost my pride because I still love you.

Thanks to you I have nothing left now it's not easy to do this as well but now I'll start hating you now instead of loving you.

I'll do that for hurting me for being crazy like this . Maybe it takes time but slowly... slowly

I'm .... I'm going to forget you now. Im ... I'm .... I'm going to forget you now. ... I let you go now." While my tears beginning to fall hard. I dont care what others would say. But I can't take it anymore. I can't hold it now.

When I'm about to walk...

" hate me for meeting a bastard like . Forget me as well from your heart and your life erase me from your memories "

Out of the blue those words I never imagined how could he easily say those words. Tom calling me but I dont look back.

Someone's grab my hand when I look at him it's Peter. He hug me tightly and I cry hard as I can.

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Sorry guys it takes me too long to upload this chap.

Anyways few more chaps away from the end so keep on waiting and reading.

I've been very busy since I'm a mom already lot of things to do and sort of personal things.

Thanks guys about my grammar and spellinglm I won't check it.

HAPPY 2015

1/20/15 11:13 AM

FROM : ATE

JNG