Chapter 15: 1st, 19th and 48th entry
Song: fckfckfck ~ 3l3d3p
1993
Kei desperately wanted to train in martial arts. Of course he wanted to drag me with him although I was against it at first. Mom said we should try something else. I didn't want to disappoint Kei so I told our mother it would be a good opportunity to let Kei use his never ending energy. I think that is the best decision. 'We should have listened to our mother.'
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2002
Kei, Kazutora and I became really close friends. Sometimes Kazutora's behaviour still is weird but we don't talk about it. 'I should have talked to Kazutora.'
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01.11.2005
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
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It was the day of Keisuke's funeral. All members of Toman were attending. You didn't even pay attention to it, staring into the distance blankly. Your mother was weeping next to you. You tried to comfort her but she wasn't able get ahold of herself and continued to cry. Everyone in Toman gave you their condolences but it all just went past you.
Shortly after, your mother had to be committed into a psychiatry, leaving you all alone like Keisuke. Now you knew what Takemichi meant. You felt like you had nothing to loose. You felt empty. The last straw that was stopping you from ending it all was that it would make people sad when you left. You also had to take revenge first before you could die peacefully.
The Toman captains and vice-captains came everyday, sometimes letting them in, other times you just let them stay in front of the door. The only one you let in every time was Chifuyu. You would lay on your bed, clinging onto him for hours, seeking physical contact to fill your empty heart. "Please make me forget." you would always whisper, your hands roaming on Chifuyu's body. Chifuyu would stop your hands every time, not wanting to use you in your worst state.
After some days, you finally felt a little better and left your home after several days. Chifuyu wanted to visit Keisuke's grave with you, fulfilling Kei's last wish. You and Chifuyu ate the Peyoung Yakisoba in silence, finishing your part, you put the plate with the rest on Kei's grave. Afterwards, Chifuyu lit up some fragrance sticks, both of you praying in silence. "Keisuke-san... it's just like when we first met. I bought you some, just like I promised. A third's for you." Chifuyu tried to smile, but his lips became wobbly. "Keisuke-san." Chifuyu started to cry. "Saying 'Thank you'... that's not fuckin' fair... what are we supposed to do... from now on?!" Chifuyu continued. You just sat in silence. You didn't want to cry anymore. You had a lot to do and crying would only waste your time now.
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