Bleeding isn't Broken

Again

I remember believing that this feeling was new and fun. Emotions i had felt before but for another person. Feelings that were returned in the fullest and appreciated all the same. Nothing like before.

This was a harsh feeling. Like having to make everything okay when its not. It was painful. Painful enough to make me overthink every scenario that involved you leaving. Maybe i wanted you to leave in the most part because like the last time this happened i may have been hurt but i healed from that pain.

But with you its different. For some insane reason you wanted to make it work despite the fact that you couldn't love me like you did. You wanted to try and bring yourself back to that feeling and for that i'm internally grateful.

As for where we stand now, i'm not sure. I'd like to believe that were back where we used to be but in all honesty i have no idea. After having nothing for 2 weeks and then having you back in the fullest, i haven't quite registered the emotions or the situation at hand.

I can wait. I've waited a long amount of time to tell you I love you you mentioned once that you were close to saying it back. I just hope we can get there again and be happy. Because i'm really happy when i'm with you and although you mentioned that wed never stop being friends, i'm afraid our friendship would change in the fullest if we were suppressed to lacking emotions. I will always care about you and portray my affection but if i'm not capable of loving you id like you to keep it in your mind that ill always be there for you no matter the circumstance.