Broken hearts

Chapter 18

-Jude-

I woke up today feeling specially happy, after Noah asked me to spend the day with him because his dad was going to stay in L.A the whole weekend I had my doubts, I mean, I was really exited to spend time with him but I was kind of confused too, because I wasn't sure where we were.

It felt like we were going in circles, we kept our agreement but whenever one of us try to act different, like more affective, we remember that there is another person in this triangle and we take distance to go back to our agreement. Anyway, I couldn't say no to him, so I accepted and now I was in my best mood.

Being happy all the time was amazing, until my family started to notice it; last Thursday, after my session with Noah, without realizing it I came back to my house with a smile, of course my mother noticed it and started to make me so many questions, that Anni answered for me, she mentioned Riley and now my parents think she's my girlfriend, even my father had the 'talk' with me, I didn't appreciate that part at all.

Even that, I had to keep the lie, if that was going to buy me time with Noah then it was worth it, in fact, that was my excuse to be out all day. I told my parents about my plans but Anni didn't know about them because she was talking a lot with Riley and she could caught me lying if my story wasn't the same as Riley's. After having breakfast and preparing myself to go out, I noticed that Anni was going out too, she was looking nice and I knew it was because of someone.

"Where are you going?"; she asked first when we met in the hallway before the stairs.

"To Lucas' house"; I answered right away.

"Since when are you two so close?"

"Since now"; I needed to change the subject right away. "Where are YOU going?"

"To Noah's house"; by her face I knew she was lying, and also because I was going to Noah's house so that wasn't possible.

"Sure, that's what you told our parents; but, for real, where are you going?"

"To the mall with Leo and his friends..."; she said resigned.

"That sounds great, is there something going on between you two?"; I asked curious.

"Frankly I don't know, I mean, I feel awful with what I'm doing but for some reason I don't want to end it; and I know I should do something because I'm in a relationship, but right now I just want to be sure about my feelings before doing something..."; I wasn't sure how to feel about that, because Noah was cheating on her with me but Anni was cheating on him with Leo.

"Ok, that sounds reasonable..."

"I'm just not ready to make a choice because maybe what I'm feeling now it's just a confusion, maybe not..."

"I guess you'll have to make a choice at some point, maybe end something that doesn't have future and give you the chance to start something new"; wow, that was wise...

"I've never thanked you for keeping my secret, I know you talk with Noah and I appreciate your silence"; because I'm keeping this from him...

"Sure. Have a nice day"; I smiled at her.

"You too"; she smiled back at me and I went down the stairs.

Walking to Noah's place I realized what was happening here, I was in the middle of a very dark and awful place; I was keeping a lot of secrets from people that trusted me. Anni didn't know what was going on between Noah and I, and Noah didn't know what was going on between Anni and Leo.

I was caught in a cage and the only way out was hurting someone; these past months Anni and I built the relationship we've never had, I felt like I finally had a sister and I really liked being with her, talking and acting like friends; we found that connection we were supposed to have as siblings and I wasn't ready to lose it again.