Broken hearts

Chapter 22

-Anni-

I don't want to go to school...

Yesterday was awful to me, I found out that my boyfriend, or maybe ex by now, cheated on me and that my brother betrayed me; I'm not ready to face this right now. Ignore Jude was easy, after all we just went back to how our relationship used to be, but I don't want to see Noah, I'm not sure how will I react, I'm mad at him but I don't want to break his heart, I have many problems with my character and if I don't control myself I'm afraid I can hurt someone.

The ride to school was awkward, my father noticed that there was something wrong with Jude and me, Jude blamed himself saying that he was overwhelmed because of school, which guided to a long talk of my father reminding him to focus and try harder; I know this wasn't something Jude enjoys talking about, specially with my father, but that doesn't mean I'll feel empathy for him.

As soon as I arrived to my class I saw Noah, he was at his desk, reading a book, using a big hoddie and with two giant dark circles under his eyes, I couldn't help feeling sad for him; I took my seat right beside him, I didn't say anything, I didn't look at him but I could feel his eyes on me for some seconds before the teacher arrived; paying attention to the class was difficult, my thoughts messed up with my mind and I was trying my best not to break down at that moment.

Finally the class finished and I thanked God for not having any more periods with Noah; after burning my brain with numbers, body parts and poems, lunch time arrived. Entering to the cafeteria was a battle, Jude was at a table with a friend and I noticed that Riley wasn't with him, Andrew was with Noah at out table, I just sat there, said 'Hi' and started eating. We got drowned in a terrible silence, I felt bad for Andrew because we were ruining his day, we were bad friends and, apparently, Andrew got tired of that because he finally broke the silence.

"OK, clearly there's something wrong between you two and it's the sixth time this month so I will finally say this, you need to fix your shit"; Andrew was really pissed about this.

"Sorry bro, we just..."; Noah tried to talk but Andrew interrupted him.

"Look, you two know that I know things, and I haven't said anything because it's not on me and your love life stopped being my business when you decided to become a couple and change the dynamic trio we had. It's been difficult being your friend this past month 'cause I can't chose a side every time you fight, so in order to have a good friendship I suggest you to talk and fix this because I'm sick of drama and I want my friends back"; he grabbed his lunch and walked to other table where Camila was with her friends.

Andrew was right, we involved him in all our shit and now he had to be in the middle. Noah and I stayed alone and in silence, I couldn't look him in the eyes, those eyes I still loved; he looked at me and tried to talk.

"Anni I need to talk to you... I..."; I don't want to listen to you...

"I'm not hungry"; I stood up and ran away from the cafeteria, I hid in the bathroom and stayed there until the bell rang.

I didn't want to talk to Noah yet, because I wasn't ready to listen to what he was going to say; but also because I felt guilty, I thought about it and Jude was right, Noah wasn't heartbroken just because I didn't tell him the truth and that wasn't fair at all. But I'm the victim here and that's the only thing they need to know...

At night I decided to talk to my parents, I've been depressed for a couple of days now and they needed to know the truth, so I decided to tell them what happened. We were having dinner, Nini made pizza and I felt sad for not enjoying it at all; after a while eating I decided to talk.

"So, you must be wondering why I've been so sad and upset this past weeks, and the truth is that Noah and I broke up. I just wanted you to know that"; I said it downplaying it.