Broken hearts

Chapter 19

-Anni-

I hate Mondays

My day at school wasn't good at all, I was on a bad mood so basically everything annoyed me, lunch wasn't good either because there weren't vanilla puddings left, I had a fight with Noah about it and then with Camila who told me to calm down. I left school furious with everyone, I even yelled at Jude who didn't do anything more than ask me if I was ok.

I was upset because I haven't spoke to Leo since Saturday night and it was killing me, I told him something that I don't even know if it's true and now I was regretting it. After all Noah was my boyfriend, and even if we fight sometimes I still love him and I don't want to hurt him, I can't break up with him because of a slip and now I understand that we belong together.

I needed to talk to Leo about this, I decided to go to his house before dinner and be honest with him. I arrived to my bus stop and started to have an anxiety attack, even if I tried to convince myself to deny what I said, now I wasn't sure at all, I wasn't sure if I wanted to give up on Leo, maybe he is not a slip, maybe I don't want to hurt him; so while I walked I called the only person who could help me.

"Hello grumpy, felling better?"; Andrew said when he picked up.

"Andy, I think I'm having an anxiety attack, I'm walking to Leo's house and I'm freaking out"; I said out of breath.

"Ok, you're freaking ME out, breath and tell me what are you doing going to Leo's house"

"On Saturday I hung out with his friends and then we went to his house, and we kissed and I told him I was in love with him, and now I don't know if I should have said that"; I said calmer but with tears treating to fall. "I don't want to break up with Noah because I don't want to lose him, but it kills me to break Leo's heart"; Andrew stayed in silence a few minutes and then replied.

"Anni this is serious, I know you are not doing this on purpose but, you're playing with two hearts"; he was right, I was trying to have everything and I forgot about the consequences, I was hurting two important people for me and just because I didn't want to lose any of them, how ironic...

"I don't know what to do..."; I said whispering, trying hard for my voice not to break.

"I don't know either, and I know that you don't want to hurt anybody, but I think you'll have to do it. The only thing I'm sure is that you'll do the right thing"; he was right, I needed to do the right thing even if it meant hurting someone, I needed to stay with Noah and forget about Leo, I guess. I thanked Andrew I told him I was going to be fine, we said goodbye and I arrived to Leo's house.

Before ringing the bell I prepared myself for everything and, I wasn't sure about my decision, but I knew it was the right thing to do, it was what I'm supposed to do. I rang the bell and after some seconds a little girl with blond hair opened the door.

"Hello"; she said with acute voice, she was probably five years old.

"Hi, is your brother home?"; I asked supposing she was Leo's sister.

"Which brother?"; how many do you have?

"I'm looking for Leo"; she didn't wait for me to say anything else and ran inside the house screaming.

"Lele!!! There's a pretty girl looking for you!!!"; I laughed a little and after some seconds I saw Leo running to the door.

"Anni, I wasn't expecting you"; he said smiling but my smile fade away at that moment.

"I..."; I couldn't finish because a woman, whose eyes were the same as Leo's, came to the door.

"Honey who is it?"; Leo's mom said.