Broken hearts

Chapter 10

-Jude-

It was a beautiful sunset

I was leaning on a tree at the park, smoking my second cigarette and enjoying the colors on the sky. I don't usually give me the time to appreciate these things but I needed to calm myself and vanish 'impure thoughts', like dead and suicide.

After 30 minutes and my last cigarette of the day I decided to go back home; as I was walking I remembered the fight with my parents, it all started when Nini grabbed the mail before I could and when I arrived home after school, my father had already seen my evaluation card. He asked about my chemistry, math and physics score, I said I don't understand shit and he started to scream; after some screaming I finally got out of there and it's been 3 hours since that happened.

When I got home I opened the door and Anni came from the living room running to me, she grabbed my arm and started whispering something while taking me to the living room.

"Where the fuck were you?!"

"Why the fuck do you care? where are you taking me?"; we entered to the Living room and my mother came running to hug me, I was confused and I didn't understand what was happening.

"Where were you mon amour (my love)?"; she sounded worried and I knew I fucked up this time.

"Where is your cellphone Jude?"; my father was angry at me, my mother was crying and my sister was looking at me with that disappointment look I got used to.

"OK, can we calm down a minute please, my battery died, it's not the first time, what's going on?"

"We though you ran away after our fight, I was afraid that you'll never come back"; my mother said caressing my face.

"Mamman you are overreacting, I just went for a walk..."; I tried to downplay.

My father finished his glass of whiskey, he usually drinks one when he is nervous or upset, he looked at my mother making her take three steps back, he looked at me with dark eyes and started to talk with an awfully calm tone.

"You really scared your mother Jude, it was selfish from you to walk away like that. You must start being more responsible at school and at life, I'm tired of having this conversation with you, why can't you be like your sister and stop being a problem for us?!"

Ouch

It felt like a bucket full of cold water being poured on me, I always felt like a problem but after my father said it I started to believe it. I was about to scream at him, to start a drama and run away again, but I was tired too...

"You're right, I'll be like Anni and I promise you won't have to deal with me anymore"; I left the room and ran upstairs, I heard my mother say my name almost as a whisper but I was already at my bedroom's door, I closed it and walked in circles around my room, trying to erase the tears falling through my cheeks.

I finally decided to screw the situation; there are times when the decisions that you make being vulnerable are crazier than the ones that you make being drunk; I kissed Noah being a little bit drunk, but what I was about to do now was way crazier, because I was about to show myself being vulnerable.

I waited for my parents to enter to their room so I could come out from mine, I heard them talking and knew they were arguing, my father never yelled to my mother or Anni, when they had an argue they used to talk calmly and tried to reach an agreement. I stayed outside their bedroom some minutes, I heard my father talking about what were they going to do with me and my mother didn't defend me this time; I went downstairs and exited trying to be as quiet as possible.

-Noah-

I was alone at my house laying on bed; swiping trough Facebook, laughing at memes, watching random videos; I could have been at Andrew's house or having a little party at my place with some of my classmates, but my dad found my box of cigarettes with half of them gone and I was punished, anyway I found a way to kill my weekend.