LOUIS' P.O.V
Zayn,
How do I start writting a letter that you will never see about my feelings for you leaving this band? How do I? That's the thing, no one will ever know how to start a letter addressed to a person who left so abruptly with no second thought. So many years we spent together and so many days we have spent with eachother. I have been thinking over and over again about how to say goodbye to someone who was so good to me. Bye doesnt seem like an option but it has to be done. I can't live knowing you made this decision without me, a goodbye doesn't even sound good enough coming from me to you. I needed you, you were there. I needed help and all I had to do was look to my right or infront of me and you were there. Now I look for you but I can't find you. I even look to my left sometimes and remember that you left. It's hasn't been 24 hours and I'm losing my mind. I feel lost with out you, you helped so much. Now all I am is the unwanted fly that comes unexpectedly and never lets anyone forget that he is there. This is all I am ever going to be; A unwanted fly. I get it. I have no worth and trust me, I know. Does anyone even realise how stressful it is to be me? Anxiety disorder while a performer is hard. Every concert day I have to be calmed down before a show, you were the only one who helped. The only one who knew. The only person who I trust is you. Now i have to learn to trust again, and I don't know who I trust; Harry, Niall or Liam? They're all trusty but are they trustworthy? Harry was back in the good ol' days but that was so long ago. I NEED YOU ZAYN. I NEED YOU. YOU DROPPED ME LIKE EVERYONE ELSE BUT I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER. I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
Love Boo.
I finish the letter as Harry walks over to the kitchen bench to make sandwiches for our dinner. I close my journal and hope that Harry doesn't ask to read it. He probably thinks it's my song book. Hopefully.
We have dinner which was surprisingly better than I expected then we decided on watching The Voice UK. I feel like Emmanuel has the upper hand in this competition as his voice is amazing. But Harry disagrees.
"What? Hell no. Seriously? The scottish guy owns this TV show this year. He brings everything the rest wish they had" , Harry speaks up as if he is surprised at my preference.
"Don't be daft. Emmanuel has it all. The body, the face, the voice and the talking voice. Your opinion is irrelevant", I reply defending my winning choice.
"You haven't changed", is all Harry says in return.
"You would know", I reply.
"Oh so sassy", Harry states teasingly. Which gets me feeling some kind of emotion I haven't felt for a while.
The emotion someone who has felt it before would describe it as love. Love is the emotion I feel every time I am near him but the emotion i need to feel is anger or sadness because my bestfriend bailed on me. It isn't the first time a friend has bailed on me. Stan, my secondary school and college friend left me abruptly when I auditioned for the X Factor incase i failed. He didn't want to be known as the person whose friend didn't make the X Factor final cut. It sucked but I got over it.
HARRY'S P.O.V
It's been around 3 hours since we ate lunch and I saw the post. The Facebook post Liam released this morning. It's sad and I don't know if I should tell Louis. He deserves to know
why his best friend left the band he has been apart of for nearly 5 years so I read it to him.
"Louis? Liam released the post", I state casually.
"What does it say?", Louis asks curiously. I could tell he was anxious to hear what Zayn had to say for himself to the fans.
"The post says 'After five incredible years Zayn Malik has decided to leave One
Direction. Niall, Harry, Liam and Louis will continue as a four-piece and look forward to the forthcoming concerts of their world tour and recording their fifth album, due to be released later this year.
Zayn says: "My life with One Direction has been more than I could ever have imagined. But, after five years, I feel like it is now the right time for me to leave the band. I'd like to apologise to the fans if I've let anyone down, but I have to do what feels right in my heart. I am leaving because I want to be a normal 22-year-old who is able to relax and have some private time out of the spotlight. I know I have four friends for life in Louis, Liam, Harry and Niall. I know they will continue to be the best band in the world."
One Direction say: "We're really sad to see Zayn go, but we totally
respect his decision and send him all our love for the future. The past five years have been beyond amazing, we've gone through so much together, so we will always be friends. The four of us will now continue. We're looking forward to recording the new album and seeing all the fans on the next stage of the world tour."
Simon Cowell says: "I would like to say thank you to Zayn for everything he has done for One Direction. Since I first met Zayn in 2010, I have grown very, very fond - and immensely proud - of him. I have seen him grow in confidence and I am truly sorry to see him leave. As for One Direction, fans can rest assured that Niall, Liam, Harry and Louis are hugely excited about the future of the band'", I read the exact message out loud to Louis and I could tell that louis was trying to hold back the tears.
"Oh yeah we totally respect his decision and we totally will always be friend. What a load of bullshit!", Louis states as he runs up the stairs to his bedroom. He is crying, a lot.
"Lou! Don't get upset about it. He is your friend, the only thing that has changed is the fact that he won't be onstage with us anymore. He is still Zayn and he will still be your friend,forever", Harry relies.
"Some fucking friend he is. He hasn't even called, for god sake he hasn't even messaged me or anything. He literally dropped me like a fly. But nothing changes there...I'm used to it", He replies and it breaks my heart.
If it was possible to hear a heart break, the world would have heard the shatter, the crack and the fall. I hate when Louis is sad but the least I can do is help him, comfort him and try to get him to call Zayn instead because I'm sure he has a rational explanation as to why he did not call or text Louis.
"Lou? You should text him, he probably thinks you hate him for leaving the band", I speak up.
"You're probably right, I will text him now", Louis states as he picks up his phone then types.
lOUIS' P.O.V
To Zayn,
Hey, how are you? I miss you.
From Louis.
"Let's do something fun. Let's watch some Larry videos? I miss those days!", Harry speaks up and I agree.
We haven't hung out in so long that I have actually forgotten how fun it was until now. We are sitting on my bed with my laptop linked up to my tv with 'Larry' fan made videos playing. My favourite are the videos the fans like to call the 'crack videos', they're so funny.
The rest of the day we spent watching 'Larry' videos and fan made one dirrction edits as the fans like to call them. Harry decided to stay the night and I agreed to it so now we are lying in bed.
"Love you Harold", I whisper thinking he is sleeping and to my surprise he replies.
"Love you Boobear"
