LOUIS' P.O.V
It's 7AM and the girls go home today. Their flight is at 5PM so they have to be at the airport by three o'clock so they can be checked in. Louise is flying back home today so she booked her ticket when the girls came so she will fly to Doncaster then drive to her home from their with Lux. My mum has agrees to drive them home if they get on the plane with the girls.
I go to my suitcase and pull out my journal. I turn to the next clean page and fill the lines with my cursive but readable writing.
Harold Styles,
Last night was eventful to say the least. You kissed me and left me feeling,somewhat,happy about it. You were drunk so there is a huge chance you regret it. Hopefully you don't.
Louis.
I continue to write as i move further down the page.
Lottie&Fizzy,
You have to leave today. You have to go home and go back to school. Unfortunately, my hotel experences are going to go back to how they normally are until you can come again. I'mgoing to be so lonely,leaving myself with thoughts,writing and rehearsing alone. I'm going to miss you both a lot. I will be counting down the weeks until I see you both again,hopefully next time I see you, you have extra family with you like mum and the other siblings. I miss you all so much. I didn't realise how hard my dream life would be, I thought it would have been dreamy but it turns out that it is far from dreamy. It's real, I love it but the cons sometimes overrule the pros making me want to stop and be a brother again. I miss talking about boy trouble with you Lottie and I miss talking about your latest celebrity crush Fizzy. I miss having to hold you both when you're upset and having to be, you know? An older brother. I miss it all and im going to miss out on these days when Pheobe and Daisy are your age. I love you all so much and I can't wait to see you again.
Louis,the brother that may never be able to be the brother I once was.
P.S. I am sorry.
I hear one of the girls getting up just as i finish writing.
"Is that a song?", Fizzy asks.
"Yeah. Its a new song I'm working on for the next album", I lied.
"You'll have to let us listen before we go home today! Promise?", She asks.
"Sure, I will play it later when Lottie is awake", I reply knowing she won't wake up for a while,giving me time to switch my books over.
I put the journal back in my bag and make Fizzy a cup of tea and order her room service because she won't stop complaining about how hungry she is.
Fizzy's food comes and she eats it all by the time Lottie wakes up. I order room service again but this time I eat too.
Once we finish eating Fizzy asks if they can hear the song now and uses the time as an excuse to do so. It's only 9AM but apparently that is a reasonable time to sing.
"What song?",Lottie asks unaware of our conversation earlier.
"I wrote a song which is complete. I don't think it will make the album cut but it's personal to me so I'm going to keep it in my song book anyway", I reply honestly.
I get my book and I start to sing;
"Lately I've found myself hurting.
Been dreaming about this life a lot,
And up in my head I'm your brother
But that's one thing you've already lost.
You go to school every morning
While I get on another plane.
This killed us without any warning
And it made feel ashamed.
Would you say I failed?
Well if it was me I would. (I would)
If I Could I hold you when you're feeling low?
Maybe you should know that I would,I would.
