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Once Upon A Time, Time Stopped

Poetry

Don't let your mind wander too far, for it will lose its selves - soul, thought and body. A soul that has lost its body is like a cat straying until it cannot pick up the familar scent of home anymore. It never returns, falling slave to a human God...

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by HeraYokubo

by HeraYokubo

It was just a stupid kiss,

The kind they show on TV all the time,

When your mom angrily tells you to switch the Channel,

Tongue and all,

But it meant nothing really.

A stupid kiss,

Isn't that what I had wanted for myself?

At that moment I said no,

It cut through the bitterness of the night,

'no'

'I'm not sure, so no.'

'I've never done anything like this before so, no.'

I said it in every way I could.

'No.'

I'm sure of it.

Then why do some not hear it?

It was just a stupid kiss,

My first stupid kiss,

I should've never wanted it to be perfect.

It reminded me of all those years ago,

The first time I said no,

I closed my eyes and let it happen,

So it would be over with soon.

It didn't matter all those years ago,

And it doesn't matter now, in adulthood, either.

I found myself saying 'no' only for it to be ignored once more.

No one hears it,

So I stood there as I had laid on the living room floor all those years ago,

And I took it like I had all those years ago,

Because I should not have forgotten that I'm already used to this.

I guessed 'that's what we're doing now, okay'

And it was just that,

A stupid kiss.

It shouldn't bother me this much,

How could I forget even for a moment,

No means yes,

And I'm convenient.