Stepping into the light

I would give my life for you

Welcome to chapter 5, support Harry as the love of his life is taken and he is  desperate to find him,
Might need the tissues for this one.
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I am feeling numb, all around me people are yelling , moving and running, I feel like I am locked in a nightmare, something like this only happens in your darkness dreams, but the Reality of it, it wasn't a nightmare that I couldn't wake up from and know everything is alright.
I feel a hand touch my back, noticing the detective from the hospital had arrived.
"Mr Styles , come with me and let's go through everything that happened, where you last saw Louis".
" I have been over it already , I want to know what is happening, what are you doing to find Lou"
" Mr Styles we are doing everything we can to try to work out what happen to your husband"
" It's not good enough" I yell " How did this fucking happen with all the security that was around here, How? tell me how?" I yell slamming my fist against the wall, hearing a crack.
" Mr Styles we need you to calm down".
" Don't fucking tell me to calm down, my husband is missing, has been taken and your telling me to calm down, fuck you" I scream, hitting the wall again, I know I am going to regret it as I feel the pain radiate around my hand.
" Harry" I hear my name being called and as I turn I see Jeff running up the stairs , racing over to me
" Harry, mate" I hear him say as he put his arms around me.
I fall into his embrace, my sobs echoing all around me.
" He is gone, Jeff, my Lou is gone". I sod inconsolably.
I feel Jeff lead me over to the lounge, pushing me down, as he sit down next to me.
I feel him pick up my fist, I hiss out loud at the pain, I feel Jeff leave my side and when he returns I feel coldness on my fist giving me relief, I try to push the ice pack away .
" Harry what are you doing, let me put the ice on it , you could do permanent damage, your hands are your Career".
" I don't deserve it Jeff, I don't deserve to feel relief from the pain , when Lou is out there suffering, who knows what he is going through, and it's all my fault, I left him alone Jeff, just to get him a hoodie, but I left him alone, it's all my fault, I should have taken him with me" I lay my head back against the lounge, seeing lights Criss crossing around us in the dark.
" I hear yelling and jump of the lounge and racing out to see what is happening, I hear conversations all around me , I see Gregory racing over to me .
" Mr Styles, we found car tracks Leading out of the bush not far from were Lou was taken"
I see the Detective heading towards us.
" Mr Styles we have a break, we found Tyre tracks leading from the bush land, this is a good thing, because we can have forensics run prints on the tyres, and hopefully get a make and model of the car" He explains.
" This is Great news Harry" I hear from my side were Jeff is standing.
" Once we get the make and model of the car, we can Look at footage from traffic surveillance, cameras around the area.
" We are in the fucking bush, there isn't any surveillance cameras, fuck this is useless".
" Mr Styles, we know your frustrated but" I didn't let him finish the sentence.
" Frustrating, you think I am frustrated, My fucking husband is missing and I am frustrated, fuck that" I am yelling.
" Mr Styles if you had let me finish the sentence, you would have heard me say , that a lot of the properties around this area are owned by very wealthy people , they all have surveillance cameras at the front facing the road, we can get access to these and hopefully get a lead"
" This is promising new Harry" Jeff saids .
" At this stage Mr Styles we have all our team onto this , and hopefully will have some promising news to tell you in a few hours" .
I lean forward rubbing my hands over my face taking a deep breath in exhaling it out.
" It's going to be ok"Jeff saids.
" You can't say that Jeff, he is still recovering from his previous injuries, god knows what they are doing to him, anything could be happening to him, he will be scared and alone , crying suffering, I just  can't Jeff , I can't think straight , it's consuming my mind".
I feel Jeff arms around me giving me comfort when only months ago he was giving pain and suffering, funny how things can come a full circle sometimes.
We sit there quietly not talking, not moving, there is people surround us mainly security and police offices.
It is so painful sitting here , ever ounce of my mind, body and soul is  missing Lou, my love , my world.
The hours roll by uneventful , waiting and waiting for that call that will tell me were Lou is, any news is all that I wish for , sometime no matter how big or small.
I stare out the window, seeing the sun raising though the trees, giving a golden haze to the world around me, I can't  but think, it's been 14 hours since Lou went missing, 14 Hours , is to long to not have held him in my arms, 14 Hours lost from our lives together.
I continue to stare out the window, blocking out the world around  me , trying to capture the feeling that I had  with Lou while we were staying here,  , the conversation, The laughter, the love that flowed between us, I hold it all so close in my heart.
I hope that Lou is finding comfort in this thoughts as well, it is the only think that is not sending me mad, having faith that Lou knows that I would  move heaven and earth to find him and bring him back into my arms.
I see cars rolling into the yard as Gregory runs up the stairs to me .
" Mr Styles, we have a lead, we found a car matching the description from the forensic information and we have it on cameras passing a number of house, then nothing , so that means we will can pinpoint a area to search, this is good Mr Styles, we are one step closer to finding your husband".
The day draws out with no new information, I am currently pacing  along the Veranda, feeling exhausted and helpless, just waiting for that one ray of hope.
My mind has been consumed with vivid images of Lou and what he must be going through, I am trying so hard to be positive, but every time I close my eyes,  the images from when I found Lou lifeless body, haunt my mind, like ghost hunting my every being.
" Harry , Harry come in here" I hear Jeff yell out .
I rush into the room with a glimmer of hope.
" Please tell me you found him".
" Mr Styles it looks like we have a place of interest to search, it's a isolated property that has been empty for years, , the neighbours have said they have seen two people going in an out of the house over the last 24 hours, we are getting ready to lead in a team with swat ready to move".
" I want to be there I need to be there" I say quickly .
" Mr Styles It's better if you stay here, we can't risk anything happening to you" the Detective states.
" No way am I am not going with you, if Lou is in that house then he is going to need me, I will be what he wants, no amount of police officers can keep me away".
The detective pause for a moment, " alright, you can come but you must remain in the squad car, if you don't agree to that then You are not coming".
Of course I agree. I am handed a bullet proof vest , "You need to put this on for  own protection." I here someone say , I put of the vest and climb into the back of the car .
As I look around I realise what a huge police present there is , I have been so blinded  by my grief for Lou , That I didn't take in what a big operation was going on around me .
I see men all dresses in black wearing there full swat gear , it's actually surreal seeing this , and being a part of this feels  like a scene from a movie.
It's just on dusk and the sun has dropped behind the trees, the cars make there way slowly alone the winding road, no sirens, no lights coming to a stop at a gate.
I feel my body shaking with anticipation, praying that Lou will be here, that he is ok and not suffering to much.
The cars ahead of Us all pull over into the bush at the side, Along with a ambulance at the back , I can just make out a house in the distance , the plan was to go from here on foot, in the dark then hit the house.
I watch the swat team Manoeuver themselves up the road, as I follow them up keeping a distance, I know that I was going against all orders that I was given, but there was no way I would not be here if Lou needed me , I watch as they positioned themselves around the house, I see hand signals , pointing to the back of the house as the swap team get ready to go in.
I edge my way forward getting closer and closer, then before I know it , there is commotion all around me, loud noises which sounded like banging, shouts, yelling then gunshots, in that instance I stop breathing.
It seem like hours went by but Barely a few minutes had passed, My eyes are only focused on the front door, praying every minute that I will see Lou come through it,   I see a flash of moment rush by me and I see that it was the medic's running into the house, before I know it my body is pushing forward and I am racing through the door behind them .
I am hearing my name being shouted from different directions all around, I feel arms trying to hold me back, But my adrenaline gives me strength to pushes me through from all the arms grabbing at me, I come to a stop at the sight before me, I can make out Lou's body laying on a filthy old mattress, black with mould, with rusty springs sticking out,  his clothes ripped but the sight that was the worst for me  were the chains that are wrapped around his waist holding him in place.
" Lou , oh God Lou" I hear myself screaming, as I push my way closer dropping to my knees next to my beautiful love. I can see bruises and cuts covering his body, But the think that worried me the most was how pale his skin was , his lips are blue As I can barely see his chest rising.
The medic start trying to assess Lou , " we need these chains cut now!!! One of them yells as I see someone rush forward , cutting the chains instantly.
I watch the the medics start to work on Lou, I hear A moan escape his mouth and I lean down picking up his hand which is freezing to touch.
" Lou , baby, Open your eyes , come on baby you can do it" another moan escape his lips louder this time.
" That's it baby , fight ,I need you to fight and open your eyes, I am right here" .
" Mr Styles , we need you to get out of the road so we can treat your Husband".
I hear another noise and I lean down and put my ear close to his lips .
" Haz" I hear and it is like the most beautiful sound I have ever Heard.
" Yes baby , I am here" I place a gentle kiss on his lips which was chilled to the touch .
" I knew you would fine me" He said as his body starts to shake with hacking coughs, as I get pushed to the side , as two sets of hands being to work on Lou, words like shallow breathing, hypothermia, muffled heart sounds all abuse my ears.
" After what seems like a lifetime , I hear " ready to roll", I watch as Lous body getting lifted onto a stretcher, and strong arms come forward to lift it taking in out into the night.
As we emerge from the house I see two man being pushed into a car with handcuffs locking there arms together.
I race forward in a burning rage , getting my hands on one of the men was my soul purpose and Before I know it I am dragging one of them out of the car.
" I am going to fucking kill you" I scream into his face as I bring my arm back and let it collide with his nose , I hear A satisfying crunch with Spurs me on ,I bring back my hand back again bring it down, smashing  again, I feel totally out of control, I feel like a battering ram, smash smash smash striking him repeatedly.
" I hear my name being called which pulls me out of my haze of anger, as I turn I see the Ambulance rushing past me, light flashing.
" No Lou" I heard myself scream as I try to run after the Ambulance, I was so intent on seeking revenge that I had neglected Lou.
A car stops beside me " Styles let's go" I see Gregory at the wheel of the car, " let's get you to your husband ".