Mine - A Mewgulf Fiction

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Mew slowly opened his eyes. His one eye was heavy due to blood, dry blood.
His throat was dry and his vision was still blur. He found himself laying on a bed with white covers and white sheets.
He noticed that his one hand was being tied through the bed.

Mew tried to sit. He rested his back on the head of bed while holding his head. He was still feeling a sting pain in his head, it felt like his head was spinning.

Mew recalled the incident he had with Gulf. Tears rolled down through his cheeks as he remembered the time when Gulf hit him out of anger. He was half conscious and heard Gulf murmured something after hitting him but the part that broke him the most was Gulf's chuckles. Chuckles he made after hitting Mew. He cried even more.

He then remembered the lines his grandma used to tell him.

'It feels nice to be in love with someone, but it feels great to be loved by someone.'

Mew stared at the lines of his palm. "In this lifetime, am I not deserve to be loved?" He sobbed.

After a few minutes he was tired of crying. His throat was worse than before and his eyes were puffed. He wanted to drink some water but his wrist was still tied so he sat there, motionless.

The door creak opened, revealing him.
"Oh you're already awake?" Gulf chirped. He had some packet food and a bottle of water in his hand. "You must he thirsty my love. Here!" Gulf smiled genuinely and put the bottle on the side of table.
He ruffled Mew's hairs, then slowly examined the wound. "Aishhhh! You're so stubborn! Look.....what you made me do." Now he made a pouty face but smile never leaved his lips.

Mew looked at him in utmost fear. He slipped back as if he wanted to get inside the head of bed just to ignore Gulf.
Mew turned his head away from Gulf and his whole body shivered under him.

"Aow! What happened sweetheart? Are u mad at me?" Gulf asked in confusion.

"W-where are we?" Mew managed to ask.

"My home."

"I wanna go home." Mew looked at his tied hand. "Untie this."

"But you're not completely well na! Plus I'm tired. I wanna sleep. I don't have a mood to kill someone right now." Gulf shrugged his shoulders and Mew looked at him instantly.

"What? What if someone hurts you on the way? Then they don't have any reason to live anyways isn't it?" Gulf explained himself as if he was explaining some subject.

"Please let me go! Why are you doing this?" Mew pleaded. He was crying but his eyes were dry, no tears rolled down.

"What am I even doing? I'm concerned about you. Is that wrong?"

"You literally hit me with that stone, Gulf! I was half dead and then instead of taking me to hospital, you tied me to the bed like I'm some animal. How far are you gonna go with this behaviour of yours huh? Gulf you hurt me, you did something I never expected! And now you're concerned that some other will hurt me?" Mew wanted to shout but his throat was dry. He wanted to cry but his eyes were out of tears. He was feeling more like a puppet.

"But you didn't saw the positive side!" Gulf calmly said. He put some strands of Mew's hairs in the back of his ear. "I love you!" He smiled.  "I'll be back with medicine. Drink some water and eat this!" He pointed towards the packets on table and stood up to leave.

Mew stared at his figure and then the door slammed shut. Once again, Mew was left alone with his thoughts.
He drank some water and felt a little relieved. "Where are you Gulf? Cuz I don't know the Gulf I met just now. He's not the one I fell in love with." Mew chuckled.

"Time for medicine." Gulf entered again and Mew made the straight face again.

"Oh you didn't ate anything yet? Not hungry?" Gulf asked and Mew shook his head silently. Gulf sighed and sat beside him. "Alright. No worries. Let me treat your wound then."

Gulf started treating Mew's wound and Mew remained silent. He stared at the younger. After cleaning the blood, Gulf could now see a small cut over Mew's forehead. He hissed. "Your handsome face now has a scar. I hate it. I hate it even more that I'm the cause of it." Gulf said and Mew noticed it. Gulf was calming down.

"That I did it...." Gulf said again as he applied cream over the cut area.
"That because of me you are now scared of me. That you think I'm a wrong choice." Gulf said and put the bandage over it.

"....that I completely ruined us....."
"....that leave about you, even I hate myself now." Gulf smiled sadly and caressed Mew's cheeks.

" Mew! I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know who I am or who I was. But I do know that I'm hurting you in all this.
I'm not sure if I can change now. But I'm sure that if you continued to stay with me or near me, I may hurt you again unknowingly." Gulf said. And there....Mew noticed...Gulf's eyes. His red eyes seemed like he cried few minutes ago. Mew was still confused but some things started to make sense. A part of Gulf was carefree and wanted everything to himself but a part of him was still kind and understand Mew. The only similarity between both his parts was...they both were in love with Mew.

"I'm gonna talk to my parents. I'll leave. And live with them. I won't hurt you. I can't hurt you. You should continue schooling from tomorrow Mew. This is your life." Gulf untied his wrist.
"You should go and....." Gulf paused and smiled. "....try to forget me, completely. I don't deserve you anyways." Gulf didn't looked for a single time at Mew. He knew he was holding back his tears and they will all slip down once he will look at the man he loves, still loves.

"Gulf-"

Gulf shushed his mouth with his fingers before Mew could even speak. Gulf finally looked at Mew and found the same thing. He was crying and a tear rolled down through Gulf's cheek and he burst into more.

"No!....Dont say anything. Remember that I can never give you happiness. I don't know what's wrong with me. But just for my selfishness, I cant lose you. Before we go more deeper, before I lost myself more than I already am, we should erase it. Erase everything. Erase us!"

" C-can I stay here just for tonight?" Mew knew it would be all waste to argue cuz they both didn't had the energy.

" But you wanted to leave? " Gulf asked.

"But I changed my mind." Mew let out a laugh. "My gulfie is not in a mood to kill na?"

Gulf laughed and cried at the same time and nodded. He remembered the first time Mew called him by his sweet name. His parents never gave him any endearing names nor he ever got any from his friends. Mew made him feel loved.

Mew looked at younger's expressions. He was still crying as if he was letting everything inside him out. A minute ago Gulf made him feel disgusting and hated and a minute after he changed everything. Gulf wasn't really a psycho but a part of him was.
Mew was happy to meet his Gulf. The one he loved and still loves and he was feeling better to know that his Gulf loves him back. His psycho side was also controlling itself from not to come out. That side also had a thing for Mew, but also never wanted to hurt him or made the same mistake twice. It was better to stay away.

"I'm....I'm s-sorry for hur-hurting you!" Gulf sobbed.

"Shhhhh! Let's sleep. You must be tired." Mew said and made some space for Gulf but Gulf immediately stood up.

"N-no! What if I hurt you again? What if I- No! Not at all."

"Gulf! Nothing will happen. My little gulfie won't hurt me, alright. Come here!"
Mew said but Gulf was still in the process to think. "Just this once?"

Gulf finally took a step forward. It was almost night. They both were not hungry, just broken. They kept their smiles on their faces to hide their pain but eyes never lie. Being teary eyed, both were running over their thoughts. Gulf had a clear mind set. He wanted to leave so Mew can live happily. But Mew didn't knew. He wasn't sure if it's a really good idea or not. But at this point, he just wanted to stay with Gulf.

Love makes people do different things. And sacrifice is one of them. 🙂
Happy reading! Love love 💜🦋✨