Scarlet

Chapter 20 -Scarlet

My eyes slip shut, making the world go black.

"Joanna! I call out. That has to be her. It's her hair, eyes, smile. The best thing , it's her from before she got sick. Before her hair became stained with blood that wouldn't come out. Before she died from coughing up blood.

"Hey Scarlet." She answered softly with a smile, her gleaming blond hair in a braid.
"How do you know about my name?" I asked her, wondering how the hell she knew. When she died, I was 13 and went by Marian, and was still a good person. I hadn't turned into the person I am now.

  "I've been with you ever since I died. My body is in London, yes but I've been with you ever since I died." She replied gently. I felt tears prick my eyes, I wipe them away in a hurry. But honesty seeing my sister after dying so many years ago and it being my fault is a little over whelming.

  "I'm so sorry Joanna." I said softly, blinking back tears.

  "Why is that?" She asked gently.

  "I let you down. It's my fault you died. If I hadn't said anything and married HIM like I was supposed to then you'd still be alive and you'd be happy and married off and if I had taken better care if you when we were gone then maybe you wouldn't be gone." I said, my voice cracking at parts.

  "No Scarlet. You were so young...only 13 and it's not your fault at all. I wouldn't be happy if I had married him, and we both know you'd be miserable if you had married Gisbourne. It's okay and yes I wish I could take care of you in person but at least I'm still with you. I love you little sister." She replied, gently yet instantly. As she said that, she started fading.

  "NO! DONT LEAVE ME! JOANNA! I LOVE YOU!" I screamed at her, her form fading away. No. She's gone I've lost her again. I felt tears running down my cheeks, but I didn't care. Not anymore. Joanna's gone forever and it's my fault. All my fault she's dead and it's my fault she's gone forever.