Rejected and now a Bad ass (boyxboy)

Chaper 17

Pic of a sad Sky

Sky's pov

After training i head straight to the shower. I have about a hour before the meeting starts, so i can just take a long relaxing shower and not have to rush. As im washing myself my mind goes back to last night and this morning, thinking about what happened with Chase

What does it mean?. I know that what has happened between us has built the mate bond back up, which I'm not entirely happy with. I mean after everything he has done, can i really forgive and accept him?. I just don't know.  When i think back to all the beatings the hate and rejection, and the fact he almost beat me to death. I cant help but  think No, i just cant forgive him after everything that he has done. Yet im slowly slipping back into whobi used to be around him he has already sceen me cry and be emotional around him being in an mate bond sucks you can't close your self iff this is going to be harder than I thought but bi workednto hard to be who I am today I wont let that go without a fight

On the other hand my heart is fighting to be with him. He is my True Soul Mate, the person I'm destined to be with. The one who was made just for me, and who i can truly be happy with. My heart and head keep fighting with each other, and right now i don't know which one will win. The other thing i need to consider is my wolf Amelia, and her happiness. She has been so quite since the incident yesterday

"Amelia are you okay" I ask her

"Yes I'm okay!. I just didn't know if you were angry with me or blame me for what happened.  I don't know what came over me, or us. But when i saw the man that was responsible for all our pain and suffering, i just lost it and slaughtered all those people, can you ever forgive me?" She asks sadly

"Of course. I never was angry or blamed you, i was right their with you in wanting to cause as much hurt and suffering as they caused us. But I'm scared to lose control like that again" I tell her feeling scared

"Me to Sky me to" she reply's

"on another subject i am totally on board getting my mate back. But do you think next time you could let me out to spend time with my mate" She asks

"I don't know Amelia? Sorry just let me sort my head and heart out first" i ask her

"Please Sky. I don't ask for much, but i really need the comfort of my mate like you had. I promise we wont get carried away, or mate with out your permission. He needs me to comfort him just as much as i do. PLEASE SKY PLEASE!!!" she begs

feeling selfish for my actions, and not thinking about her needs, makes me feel guilty, so i reluctantly agree

"okay fine Amelia. Ill talk to chase and maybe you guys can run together, and spend one on one time. But I'm holding you to your promise that you wont force us to mate " I tell her

"Thanks you Sky" she says and retreats back into my mind

As I'm relaxing, and still worrying about everything that's happened, i didn't hear Sora approach the door, well whats left of the door, since Chase broke it, trying to get to me. I notice Sora is naked and still sweaty, but instead of feeling the usual jolt of lust i get from seeing him, i don't feel anything. In fact, I'm kind of uncomfortable, maybe its because of what happened between Chase and I?

.But at the same time i don't want him to ruin what i have with Sora

"Hey babe want some company" he asks seductively. I try to push the feeling aside and act like normal

"Ofcourse babe. Come here" I say but with not much enthusiasm. But he doesn't pick up on it, or if he has he is probably putting it  down to the events that happened yesterday