HOT WEEPING

HW 1

SELENA'S POV

I woke up looking confused. Where am I? Hanla saan ako napadpad? Was I kidnapped? But I am too old for that. Damn it. Marami ang ideya na pumapasok sa isipan ko. Tumayo ako sa higaan ko, simple lang iyon. Kama na may asul na bedsheet tapos kulay itim ang kumot. Inikot ko ang lugar at parang malamyos ang simoy ng hangin at maganda din ang paligid,puno ng halaman at puno. Napakasosyal ng paligid.

Napadaan ako sa may harap ng kalendaryo,it was in a strange language parang Chinese or pinyin. Shemay nakidnap ako tyaka dinala sa China? Doon ko lang napansin ang kakaibang interior design ng bahay. Para itong may pagka ancient chinese house, ang gara. Halata mo ding antique ang mga display.

Tanga ata yung kumidnap sa akin, walang pangransom sa akin. Baka matuwa pa nanay at tatay ko nakabawas sila sa palamunin sa bahay. Mukha din naman na maraming pera ang kidnapper ko pero turn off kasi bobo, ang kinidnap pa e yung walang mai-aambag, naghanap lang siya ng isa pang tyan na palalamunin. Kumbaga naghanap lang siya ng bato na ipupukpok sa ulo niya.

Nakakita ako ng salamin kaya naman pumunta ako doon para tingnan ang itsura ko. Napatulala ako dahil sa nakita ko. Sobrang puti, a small face with a pointy chin, my eyes were big and round and my thin and pink lips. Nadepina ang ganda ng may-ari nitong katawan. She's skinny pero malaki ang boobs, may kurba din ang katawan. Her hips were wide kaya masasabi mong hourglass shape ang body niya. She also has long legs. Is this me? Napa-isip ako. Paano ako napunta dito? Did I time travel? Transmigrate? Because the figure and face I am seeing in the mirror is definitely not me, that is for sure. I am a Filipina and I am so sure of my skin color. Morena ako e, sobrang puti na ng mga kabataan ko, ng mga pinsan ko pero I remained morena kasi mas maganda ako sa skin color na iyon. Mas na define ang ganda ko doon. Marami ang nagsasabi na love your skin color but be as pale white as you can be.

Kung ako na ang nasa katawan niya, saan ang original soul nitong body? I was more than confused. I even doubt kung totoo ba ito. I noticed that I was still in my sleepwear, it was a light yellow silky sleepwear. Mababa ang neckline niya kaya medyo halata pero keribels lag may maipagmamalaki naman ako e. Unlike noon, hindi kalakihan kaya tinatago. May white lining sa gilid ng sleepwear. Mayroon ding parang manipis na silky cardigan at silky ng bottom niya. Pajama style ang sleepwear not the dress one.

"How was your sleep, wife?" nagulat ako sa malalim na boses na nanggagaling sa likod ko. Ang gwapo ng boses, shemay. Pero kaloka bakit parang intiendes ko ang sinabi niya kahit wala naman akong background sa lenggwahe nila. Pero ok din yun at least di ako tatanga tanga. Pero teka! Wife daw? I automatically glanced at my ring finger, wala naman.

"Fine." I whispered, hala marunong din ako magsalita ng lenggwahe nila. Niyakap niya ako at inamoy sa leeg. I stiffened especially when I saw his face in the mirror. He has thick black hair, a wheatish skin color like golden wheat color kind of skin tone. A tall nose, big and sharp eyes, he has these thick sword shaped eyebrows and red lips. He was so handsome, so damn fine. He was in his military uniform, may cloak din siya na may parang gold accessories na mukhang related sa military chuchu nila. Ang manly pa ng amoy niya na talaga naman nakakapanghina ng tuhod. Turn on mga mare! Char lang yung turn off kanina. Willing din akong magpa-kidnap HAHAHA.

Ngumiti ako at lalayo na sana pero hindi niya ako hinayaan. "I miss you~ I am so tired of work." hindi ko alam isasagot ko lalo na at wala akong memories or what na kasama siya. Pero something in my heart na gusto mag-retaliate o lumayo sa kanya, I even felt some fear deep inside me. Baka yun yung nararamdaman ng may-ari ng katawan na ito. We stayed silent ng hindi ko siya sinagot. Nakapikit siya kaya napansin kong mahaba din ang pilik-mata niya. He was still back-hugging and smelling my neck from behind.

"You are not her, who are you?" I was so scared when he opened his eyes, it was dark, in color and in mood. Lalo na when I saw the ferocity and sharpness of it. Napayuko ako, natatakot. I started fidgeting my fingers, ganito ako pag kinakabahan o natatakot lalo na pag guilty ako. I can fake and act like a brave woman pag alam kong wala akong kasalanan o pag bet ko lang pero once I am guilty, I know I can never lie.

"I am Selena, I don't know how I possessed your wife's body..." I started sobbing, I spoke in English with a fluent British accent. He was shocked, maybe because the original owner was not an English speaker or so. Or maybe because of my possession of his wife's body. Humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin, pero hindi ako nakaramdam ng sakit, I felt some warmth spreading all over my heart and body, his gentleness was so fine and enough to make me melt.

"Shh.. It's fine, I am here. I won't hurt you." he whispered and kissed the back of my ear. It felt hot though. "Can you do something so I can go back to my original body?" hope filled me, kahit na magara dito, maganda ako dito at gwapo siya, asawa ko dito hindi ko pa rin ipagpapalit ang buhay kasama ang pamilya. I suddenly started missing my bardagulan moments with them. Napahinto ako sa pag-iyak.

Napaigik ako ng humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin, pero ngayon marahas na siya. Gone gentleness feels that I felt earlier. "No! You don't like me?! Even you?! Ha!" sabi niya na animo'y hindi makapaniwala. Nasaktan ako when I saw pain and hurt draw on his face. Hindi ko alam but I felt hurt and sad for him. Para siyang bata na nagke-crave for love, care and attention. Soft ako sa mga ganong tao, that's my weakness.

I tend to be kind and approachable once I learn na may pinagdadaanan or past yung mga tao sa paligid ko not because I pity them, but I want to show them that there is someone out there that will cherish them maybe not the people they expected to be but someone special will do that for them and to make them feel the love and care they deserve na ipinagkait sa kanila.

Humarap ako sa kanya. I encircled my arms around his neck. I hugged him tight. Gently, his arms felt like it lost its power, pero nakayakap pa din siya kahit na lumuwag iyon. Bumaba ang mga braso ko sa bewang niya then gently I rubbed my soft hands on his hard back. "I don't know your past with your wife but I don't hate you." I bit my lips, kasi parang confession siya. My cheeks reddened at the thought. "I'm hungry..." nahihiyang sabi ko. He laughed, kahit pagtawa gwapo. His low voice was so hot and so good. I don't know why but it felt so right.

Iginaya niya ako sa kusina, inalis niya ang cloak niya at ipinatong iyon sa upuan. He rolled up his uniform and started cooking. That morning he fed me, took care of me. He also shared how they got married and how he forced every decision just to marry her. May iba palang gusto ang original owner pero this man fell for her beauty and kindness and blackmailed her using the man she liked.

Kaloka ito, kawawa naman pala ang ate niyo pero hindi ko siya kayang kamuhian kahit na mali at masama ang ginawa niya. He even explained that the man the original owner loved is not as good as she thought he was. He was a dirty schemer wolf in gentle sheep clothing. Pinaimbestigahan niya kasi ang ae niyo so damay din pati yung lalaki. That is why, he did everything to be with her and protect her, na na-misinterpret ng lola niyo. He was a romanticist even though he looked dark and cold.

"Is it okay though? For me to stay in her body?" I asked in a soft low voice. He looked hurt pero agad ding nawala iyon. He looked up, we are currently in his garden, sitting and just chilling. "She's dead. I'm sure. Before I met you earlier, I had gone to her room. I saw sleeping pills, lots of them on the floor." nabasa ko naman ang ibig sabihin noon. She overdosed herself with sleeping pills. May mga cases na kahit isang tablet lang may chansa na hindi ka magising, paano pa pagka-sobrang dami niyon? "Does she hate me that much? Ha! If I have known I should've not forced this marriage." he sounded sad and almost crying pero pinipigilan niya. Sometimes your means and kindness are not read the same way you mean it and want it to be shown. There is love that was not reciprocated and care that was not given the same level as you gave and showed them.