Trying To Maintain

E I G H T E E N

Drill

It's been five whole days since Boot said a single word to me. It ain't because of my lack of trying. I talk to him everyday. I've tried to kiss him and cuddle and shit too. Touching him got me a punch to the gut.

He lets me kiss him, but he doesn't respond to it at all. I know he missing me like how I miss him, which is why he lets me put my lips on him. Nigga been sleeping on his own bunk and shit. It just ain't sitting right with me.

What the fuck got him so heated? His childish ass refuses to say anything to me. I even went and asked Kenneth if he knew what was going on and he just as clueless as I am.

On top of my stress from that, Tate is feeling freaky all of a sudden. She been on my dick kind of tough the past two days. It was a little easy to keep her off my tail before because of the whole Greene shit. Now, she ready to risk it all too.

She cool though, so I really don't mind giving in to her. She one of them CO's I wish I would have met in the free world. She would definitely be the type I would pursue. She laid back and don't do too much tripping.

She's the type to try and please her man in all aspects. Takes care of him and try to make sure he as stress free as possible. She do her best to make me feel like I'm top priority to her. She done got me another phone. It ain't no iPhone, but it's a smartphone and still works just as good.

She keep my commissary bag heavy. She not like Greene over eager ass though. She got somebody she knew in the free world to send it to me.

Geneva been making me feel like a got a lil taste of freedom in here too. When I can, I sneak and talk to her on the phone real late at night when Boot is asleep. Or even on the days she off, I'll randomly call her and talk for a little bit.

We have sent a few pictures back and forth. Some were innocent, and others, not so much. She is the complete opposite of what I have to deal with, with Boot though.

Geneva is able to communicate and express how she feels about everything. She don't let small shit get to her. She not jealous and insecure about me talking to any of the other female guards. Some I flirt with and some I don't to be honest. She don't question her position. She the type that wants to see her man happy, and it's fuck everybody else.

It's like she just wants to be in my life in any capacity. I almost wish my Booty was like that, but his ol stubborn ass ain't going for that shit.

I like that about him though. I just wish he would talk to a nigga. I wish he was more open to expressing himself to me like Geneva is.

I'm on my way to see her now. Boot is back from work at this time, but I refuse to sit up in that cell with him just straight up ignoring me and shit.

I mean the nigga real life won't say nothing to me.

"Jones!" I hear Tate call out to me. "I need you to come clean up this station really quick," she tells me once she got a lil closer. I don't say anything and just walk to wherever she leading me.

Once we get to where we're going, she drops the CO facade. We're in one of the many blindspots this unit has. I pull her to me and give her a nice long hug. She leans up to give me a kiss. I let it happen because, I'm kind of feeling her.

"What's up with you, baby? You good?" I ask. She smell good as fuck.

"I'm good. I missed you though." She tells me smiling.

Her very beautiful ass.

I shake my head at her. "You know what you doing smiling at me like that girl." I put my face in her neck.