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to geto, you were a like a raison d'être within this unsanctified world.
unbeknownst to you, he was wrapped around your finger, compliant to your every word and action.
that, however, was hidden beneath the years of friendship that had developed between you two. geto had many a times considered telling you how he felt, yet each time he had managed to convince himself otherwise.
it was strange, really, of geto to not be certain of himself.
whenever an inconsistency arose in his life, he knew which direction to take. it was always an easy decision for him. it was what had kept him sane for so long.
but him falling for you had happened before he himself had even realised. he didn't know if it was your small mannerisms, your way of speech or your looks, but he knew that he was in love with it all.
"so if i paid you 1,000,000 to sleep with either satoru or ieiri, you're telling me you wouldn't do it."
but at times like this, you really had him reconsidering.
geto looked at you from the corner of his eyes, raising a brow in amusement as he resisted the urge to laugh. you were sat on the chair at the single desk in front of him, the seat rotated to face geto, whilst his back faced the classroom wall, with his head turned towards you.
though gojo had only momentarily disappeared, geto always preferred little moments like these. sure, gojo was his best friend but with you these conversations felt intimate. like you were the only two in the room.
geto scoffed, "the fuck? neither of them. i'd rather fail school twenty times over, go bankrupt, swim with crocodiles and lie in a pit of scorpions than even consider that."
there was a burst of laughter from you and geto smiled. he really did love to hear your laugh.
"would you?" geto asked through a smile.
on the surface, he was just reciprocating your playful banter but within, a small part of him was desperate to know.
you hesitated.
it really was only for a few seconds but to geto it felt like it could've been hours. he felt his heart sink with every second of silence but his face concealed any sign of it - rather he grinned wider.
"this was a question for you not me, bitch," you laughed, "you know what my answer would have to be anyways."
"satoru, right." geto met your eyes. "'cause you're dating him 'n all."
"yeah..." you trailed off, not knowing what else to say.
geto had heard it over and over and over again yet he still couldn't get used to it. though the three of you considered yourselves a trio, it was ultimately disrupted when satoru had asked you to be his girlfriend.
it didn't help that geto also felt that the gap between him and satoru had slowly widened, as if something was prying it open. it was an overwhelming sinking feeling that he couldn't rid his mind of.
it was the guilt that also ate away at him. every stolen glance, every thought, every dream. geto felt guilty for it all. he knew he wanted to be with you - long before gojo had even asked you. but now that he couldn't have you, his longing had only become worse.
yet how could he convey that.
how could he and ruin the bond between you and gojo. so geto had made a resolve to bury his feelings for you deep within, as far as it was possible for him.
he hadn't realised that a quiet had settled between you two.
"geto, are you okay?"
no.
"yeah, i'm good," he gave a little laugh, "why?" he leaned further back into the chair he was seated on, brushing a careless hand through his hair that cascaded around him.
"i dunno'", you shrugged. you glanced at him again, "you look like you've lost weight and these days you seem quieter. and just now you just looked...vacant, i guess."
he laughed again, "satoru said something like that too but i'm good l/n, trust me. and that's just my plotting face."
a burst of laughter was shared between the two of you, or rather you laughing and geto chuckling quietly and smiling in admiration as he watched you laugh, before it settled down into a gentle hum. geto had noticed how he constantly resorted to humour to hide any semblance of his emotions. he would rarely convey how he felt and so geto was often left to bottle them in his shallow resolve.
a quiet silence settled over the two of you. it wasn't awkward nor was it uncomfortable. but geto felt like he should say something.
"l/n," geto started.
you looked up from your phone with a slight frown, "yeah?"
geto wasn't sure why, but he was startled slightly when you met his gaze. maybe it was because he was half expecting you to not look up or maybe that was just the effect you had on him.
"i need to tell you some-"
the abrupt sliding of the classroom door interrupted his sentence. and apparently, other conversations too. a hush settled over the room. you even heard some students take a breath in. holding it in anticipation, as if they knew who would enter through that the door.
you all turned towards the source of the noise.
to see a white haired boy who stood at the threshold, grinning and waving unabashedly.
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ur such a whore
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